😵‍💫 Skitzocow Stephen William Lafleur / henstepl / Thisismyrofl / Elecbullet - Schizophrenic Arsonist Who Hates Soda

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henstepl dijo:
Emotional blunting is combated by recognizing I need 1) serotonin OR dopamine, and 2) adrenaline OR choline at any given time. Now I'm able to medicate from G-- to G-, which removes issue 1), and halfway through every day is a transition that removes issue 2), so I've got it managed mostly.

Sleep schedule is improved ever since I moved to a nontrivial glutamate supplement. I'm using Serine now, because glutamine converts to GABA and causes extreme daytime fatigue. There's still a very real sense that I have to put both A and B to sleep on any given night, and yes, sometimes only one is awake.

Nasal issues, no. Certainly no headaches.

Analysis paralysis is what I've gotten myself out of. I'm less likely to dissociate if there's not a way out amounting to putting my hands in my pockets and leaving. That's no longer going to be a plausible solution.
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Does working on your thesis help focus all the built up energy?

James Holmes was into neurology iirc or one of the stem fields.

Do you think he was set up to fail?
Either by family friends or feds?

You mentioned fear of the school shooter nation, will you elaborate on this?
 
Apotheosis of the Liver dijo:
@henstepl When you refer to a hungover state, are you talking about the aftereffects of alcohol, or some medication? I thought that was unclear.
Also are you currently employed, just curious?
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There is an entire subreddit for people who enjoy the effects of alcohol hangovers. Back when I had fewer answers, and when I was living from hangover to hangover, I used to think that I had to be hangovered at every psychiatric visit, to avoid dissociation. It was rarely enough, and I was many times interpreted as just a drinking problem.

I've tried informing /r/hangovereffect that they enjoy hangovers because it puts their brains in adrenaline/serotonin mode (Type A/b+) which is psychopathic, but I've been banned and my posts removed for being "unscientific". Load of shit. Keep talking about your shitty methylation pathways.
 
Here's my reading of it. Not much to take from it biochemically. Probably misread some parts but it' a lot easier to understand than the original. At least it won't cause an aneurysm in Josh like the other one did.
ShinyStar dijo:
He uses the term teddies because he is so thoroughly and neurotically intimidated by women that he is forced to view them as inanimate objects even in order to allow himself to think of them.
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It seems like he's referring to nurses who are there to provide comfort and look pretty, who panic at the first sight something isn't all happy and smiles.

That why he wants the male orderlies, who are basically only there for when shit hits the fan. So he doesn't have to worry about the doctor panicking when he speaks his mind.
 

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AnOminous dijo:
I bet if you checked the yard of his childhood home, where he probably still lives, there would be a bunch of small graves with tiny skeletons in them.
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And copious amounts of chipped and well-gummed lead paint.
henstepl dijo:
I have been told Asperger syndrome while dissociated, but more doctors have simply diagnosed me with giant nothings like "Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified". You can imagine how much of a middle finger it is to pay money to get told that.
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Isn't that exactly what you asked them for?

That's literally the best they can do. The psychologists in the field don't write the DSM, and no psych is going to risk their career for your peace of mind. You're angry at the wrong people. And burning down a building in protest or for attention is only going to cloud the issue and suggest OTHER diagnoses.

And anyways, it's 2020. Merely burning down a building is kind of par for the course, right now.
 
Fields Of Rye dijo:
[When your body is fucked, orthopedists take one look at you and send you to experts who know exactly what’s wrong. When your mind is fucked, psychiatrists take one tiny aspect and give you a pill instead to fix it, then leave you to suffer. Problem solved. ]
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I have to admit this sounds about right from my perspective, all the other insanity not withstanding.
 
aNOnLLC. dijo:
Have you factored in the issues schizophrenics have with upper GI issue's?

Also do you think there's any validity to the notion of schizophrenia giving off a certain odor?

(Thanks for answering my previous inquiry)
@henstepl
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Odor I can't attest to, but the other question I suppose may be the same question as why do autistics have GI issues.

And I think the answer lies in another question: why does Haloperidol have anticholinergic effects without a bit of acetylcholine receptor affinity?

I go on and on about upper and lower face, and receding up and down, but there was a time in my life when I could point to the very place in my body where something proceeding downwards stopped proceeding.

If you look at my interpretations of autism, you'll notice I associate acetylcholine with the upper half of the body (hence clumsiness) and adrenaline the lower half. When I pointed to my neck, or my heaving chest in the ER, was I pointing to the place where acetylcholine stopped proceeding downwards? Does it not reach the guts and bottoms? Don't they need acetylcholine?

And adrenaline would proceed upwards - did Syd Barrett and all the paranoids shave their heads and eyebrows because the fullest sensations of their bodies simply didn't proceed that far away from their feet?

It's psychobabble, I know. I have pristine theories and then there's this gross shit, and I hope you won't hold them all to the same standard, but these are the terms I think in.
 
henstepl dijo:
Odor I can't attest to, but the other question I suppose may be the same question as why do autistics have GI issues.

And I think the answer lies in another question: why does Haloperidol have anticholinergic effects without a bit of acetylcholine receptor affinity?

I go on and on about upper and lower face, and receding up and down, but there was a time in my life when I could point to the very place in my body where something proceeding downwards stopped proceeding.

If you look at my interpretations of autism, you'll notice I associate acetylcholine with the upper half of the body (hence clumsiness) and adrenaline the lower half. When I pointed to my neck, or my heaving chest in the ER, was I pointing to the place where acetylcholine stopped proceeding downwards? Does it not reach the guts and bottoms? Don't they need acetylcholine?

And adrenaline would proceed upwards - did Syd Barrett and all the paranoids shave their heads and eyebrows because the fullest sensations of their bodies simply didn't proceed that far away from their feet?

It's psychobabble, I know. I have pristine theories and then there's this gross shit, and I hope you won't hold them all to the same standard, but these are the terms I think in.
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It goes back to this being a co-morbid issue.

Example autistics with OCD.

By ODD I meant oppositional defiant disorder or they'll label it conduct disorder
 
The Real SVP dijo:
I can give you a Haaretz article, which was the first result from searching "schizophrenia jews", with a possible explanation for why this is the case and the names of scientists from the Hebrew University of Jerusalem who were studying the issue. It should make for decent starting point if you want to look into it further. (Archived because it's paywalled. Direct link for good measure.)
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That says Ashkenazi Jews with a specific variation of a specific gene have 40% greater chance of schizophrenia, not all Jews.
 
The Real SVP dijo:
I can give you a Haaretz article, which was the first result from searching "schizophrenia jews", with a possible explanation for why this is the case and the names of scientists from the Hebrew University of Jerusalem who were studying the issue. It should make for decent starting point if you want to look into it further. (Archived because it's paywalled. Direct link for good measure.)
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thanks, interesting, will look into that. I suppose if 1% of the population is predisposed to schizo and they have 1,4% it's 40% more.

In Yeshivot (anectodal evidence) there are lots of very weird people.

I mean they say predisposed, I wonder how many of the predisposed turn out to be really schizophrenic. Many thanks for providing the source.
 
ScatmansWorld dijo:
Is there a word for this weird common attribute among autists and lolcows of "Thinking so hard you become retarded"? The closest thing I can think of is "Rampancy" from the Halo series.
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The guy clearly isn't stupid, he's got an above-average vocabulary and a captivating writing style, but wow is his brain broken. I knew someone in college with schizophrenia, he went from a normal if slightly aloof smart dude to sounding just like that manifesto in the space of a couple of months. I can't imagine what it's like to be inside that kind of mind looking out.

From the manifesto, it looks like he has tried to get help, though with such an unreliable narrator there's no telling what went wrong in the attempts. Maybe the arson arrest will lead to him getting some more effective treatment.
 
In your most prescient or paranoid state, do you sometimes feel as if you're feeling the brain matter being eaten away by the schizophrenia?



Also, it's clearly rooted in biology / neurobiology thus the effects can only be lessened? Or dampen the effects.

How many different diagnoses have you received? And have you tried cognitive behavioural therapy?
 
aNOnLLC. dijo:
In your most prescient or paranoid state, do you sometimes feel as if you're feeling the brain matter being eaten away by the schizophrenia?



Also, it's clearly rooted in biology / neurobiology thus the effects can only be lessened? Or dampen the effects.

How many different diagnoses have you received? And have you tried cognitive behavioural therapy?
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There is an end-state in which any schizophrenic will suffer my symptoms which can be vastly oversimplified as "bad cognition", and I was born in this end state. But when I described classical schizophrenia as the disease in which bad changes in the brain accumulate, I made it clear that there's something missing from my progression.

Schizophrenia should actually be called schismatic aphrenia, and I'm free of schismatic generations (delusions and hallucinations). Even if I suddenly started to hallucinate, I would probably retain the current medication scheme. It's the end-state aphrenic crisis that necessarily ruins you.

So no, when I stopped believing I had encephalitis, I stopped fearing that my brain was actively changing for the worse. And I've received many diagnoses and most of them were not even attempts to be informative, and I have never tried CBT.
 
henstepl dijo:
There is an end-state in which any schizophrenic will suffer my symptoms which can be vastly oversimplified as "bad cognition", and I was born in this end state. But when I described classical schizophrenia as the disease in which bad changes in the brain accumulate, I made it clear that there's something missing from my progression.

Schizophrenia should actually be called schismatic aphrenia, and I'm free of schismatic generations (delusions and hallucinations). Even if I suddenly started to hallucinate, I would probably retain the current medication scheme. It's the end-state aphrenic crisis that necessarily ruins you.

So no, when I stopped believing I had encephalitis, I stopped fearing that my brain was actively changing for the worse. And I've received many diagnoses and most of them were not even attempts to be informative, and I have never tried CBT.
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In other words, a way compartmentalize is needed?

What did they diagnose you with and was it consistent or scattershot?

You've devised this regiment?
Are their any other ideas or fanciful ideation you're aware of besides the encephalitis?

 
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