😵‍💫 Skitzocow Stephen William Lafleur / henstepl / Thisismyrofl / Elecbullet - Schizophrenic Arsonist Who Hates Soda

[wenttobermuda]

Why did @henstepl 's doctor think he was an addict? Did it have something to do with the "hangovering"?

How often do you drink?

 

[henstepl]

In other words, a way compartmentalize is needed?

What did they diagnose you with and was it consistent or scattershot?

You've devised this regiment?
Are their any other ideas or fanciful ideation you're aware of besides the encephalitis?

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLCzMTAdJ4ZaqQvB2pRzEqkyhrPyShymgl

Every line is a new doctor.

1. Substance Abuse Disorder + Tourette Syndrome and receptionist instructed to send me to addict house
2. Tourette Syndrome
3. Tourette Syndrome and called campus security to ban me
4. (Adderall farm) Refused treatment for citing sources and correcting doctor on Adderall XR dosing (I don't use Adderall anymore)
5. Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments
6. "I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist."
7. Receptionist instructed to cry and call to beg me to go to hospital instead for, presumably, haloperidol
8. Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment
9. Receptionist directed me to ER and closed glass window
10. Refused referral at ER, chased out by four police
11. Called campus security to ban me
12. Asperger Syndrome
13. Ran from the room and sent girls to refer me to the psych ward
14. (Psych Ward) Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, and Aleve is a placebo though we won't watch you take it
15. "Delusion Disorder/Alcohol" referring to encephalitis
16. (Called mother and told her I was an addict)
17. (Psych Ward) Psychotic Disorder/Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
18. "I don't think you have anything to apologize for."

The last one is my current doctor and not the one that was burned.

I've thought about delusion on a philosophical level and though my "Florian encephalitis" met the dictionary definition, it still had a logical-enough origin. I'm immune to headaches and resistant to seizures. NSAIDs helped. I have an arachnoid cyst in my temporal lobe. Wasn't it just a false conclusion?

It seems likely that delusions can be modeled like hallucinations: some people generate images not from images, sounds not from sounds, and some people get notions not from notions. And if you've got notions not from notions, the treatment is as simple as to be told "don't believe that".

But if a delusion has a nontrivial origin, should it be treated with a little more respect?

Why did @henstepl 's doctor think he was an addict? Did it have something to do with the "hangovering"?

How often do you drink?

I am much better at not drinking now, except (B/a) can be a manic fiend for liquor. (B/a) sucks so I easily dodge it with haloperidol, and then I have no urges at all.

I have learned to replicate the hangover state without alcohol, it's adrenaline+serotonin. /r/hangovereffect banned me for solving their entire conundrum!

 

[ScatmansWorld]

• Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment
• Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments

Yeah bud I think maybe the therapy schedules really were full and the doctor really did retire. Not everything is a conspiracy to inconvience you despite what some schizokiwis will say.

 

[WolfeTone]

Every line is a new doctor.

• Substance Abuse Disorder + Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome and called campus security to ban me
• Called campus security to ban me
• Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment
• Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments
• "I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist."
• Asperger Syndrome
• "Delusion Disorder/Alcohol" referring to encephalitis
• Ran from the room and referred me to the psych ward
• Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, and Aleve is a placebo though we won't watch you take it
• (Called mother and told her I was an addict)
• Psychotic Disorder/Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
• "I don't think you have anything to apologize for."

The last one is my current doctor and not the one that was burned.

I've thought about delusion on a philosophical level and though my "Florian encephalitis" met the dictionary definition, it still had a logical-enough origin. I'm immune to headaches and resistant to seizures. NSAIDs helped. I have an arachnoid cyst in my temporal lobe. Wasn't it just a false conclusion?

It seems likely that delusions can be modeled like hallucinations: some people generate images not from images, sounds not from sounds, and some people get notions not from notions. And if you've got notions not from notions, the treatment is as simple as to be told "don't believe that".

But if a delusion has a nontrivial origin, should it be treated with a little more respect?

Bro, I'd really like to try and help you through this. You can reorganize. Also don't let people here fuck with ya, it's a rowdy bunch.

 

[kosher bath salts]

@henstepl hey mate can you explain us a little more about dopamine, lower face affect and how that relates to drug use, ty mate

 

[Pee Cola]

Every line is a new doctor.

• Substance Abuse Disorder + Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome and called campus security to ban me
• Called campus security to ban me
• Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment
• Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments
• "I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist."
• Asperger Syndrome
• "Delusion Disorder/Alcohol" referring to encephalitis
• Ran from the room and referred me to the psych ward
• Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, and Aleve is a placebo though we won't watch you take it
• (Called mother and told her I was an addict)
• Psychotic Disorder/Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
• "I don't think you have anything to apologize for."

The last one is my current doctor and not the one that was burned.

So which Doctor is alleged to have had their office torched? Just curious to learn which of these diagnoses/interactions was so repugnant that it drove you to allegedly burn their office down.

Spoiler: Real talk

BTW thanks for sharing your story with us. Here's hoping your candor ITT won't prejudice your defense.

 

[Fields Of Rye]

Have you factored in the issues schizophrenics have with upper GI issue's?

Also do you think there's any validity to the notion of schizophrenia giving off a certain odor?

(Thanks for answering my previous inquiry)
@henstepl

Schizo's do not have a smell. However, among schizophrenics and schizoids there is a common trend of "missing the bus"

It's being slightly, barely discernibly wrong that causes people to not like you and you just get left behind. This is often why schizos tend to struggle with social aspects and it only worsens as time goes on.

 

[Picnic_Boy]

Kiwi Farms is a bug zapper.

 

[wenttobermuda]

I am much better at not drinking now, except (B/a) can be a manic fiend for liquor. (B/a) sucks so I easily dodge it with haloperidol, and then I have no urges at all.

I have learned to replicate the hangover state without alcohol, it's adrenaline+serotonin. /r/hangovereffect banned me for solving their entire conundrum!

Thank you for your reply.

It sounds like you have self medicated with alcohol before.

And lots of other things, too.

But alcohol. Primarily for the hangover?

This gave some doctor the idea that you have substance abuse disorder, it seems. Have they ever urged you to work a program?

Glad you've found another way to manage your symptoms.

 

[juicy]

So which Doctor is alleged to have had their office torched? Just curious to learn which of these diagnoses/interactions was so repugnant that it drove you to allegedly burn their office down.

Not sure if it was a specific doctor or just a clinic in general to make a bigger statement but part of the frustration seems to come from the PDNOS diagnosis and feeling like it translated to "we don't know what's wrong with you lol here's your bill"

 

[Unexpected Genitals]

Is anyone else kind of insulted by the shitty acting in those grimace videos? Like, we're not quite as gullible as you think we are, dude.

 

[BillionBisonBucks]

Hate to break it to you, dude, but by definition you cannot self-diagnose hallucination or delusion. You must rely on the people around you to tell you when you're out of reality.

 

[The Cum Consumer]

I think that you have a minor amount of aspergers which is a noted comorbidity with Schizoid Personality Defect, which hasn't progressed into full disorder it seems, but you probably haven't been getting good treatment here in the south.

You're a little confused. Schizoid has nothing to do with Schizophrenia, it has to do with preferring to be alone. It's pretty comorbid with autism, like you said, but it doesn't cause delusions or hallucinations.

 

[ShinyStar]

Every line is a new doctor.

• Substance Abuse Disorder + Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome and called campus security to ban me
• Called campus security to ban me
• Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment
• Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments
• "I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist."
• Asperger Syndrome
• "Delusion Disorder/Alcohol" referring to encephalitis
• Ran from the room and referred me to the psych ward
• Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, and Aleve is a placebo though we won't watch you take it
• (Called mother and told her I was an addict)
• Psychotic Disorder/Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
• "I don't think you have anything to apologize for."

The last one is my current doctor and not the one that was burned.

I've thought about delusion on a philosophical level and though my "Florian encephalitis" met the dictionary definition, it still had a logical-enough origin. I'm immune to headaches and resistant to seizures. NSAIDs helped. I have an arachnoid cyst in my temporal lobe. Wasn't it just a false conclusion?

It seems likely that delusions can be modeled like hallucinations: some people generate images not from images, sounds not from sounds, and some people get notions not from notions. And if you've got notions not from notions, the treatment is as simple as to be told "don't believe that".

But if a delusion has a nontrivial origin, should it be treated with a little more respect?

Have these primarily been therapists affiliated with colleges? On campus doctors?

In the instances where you were banned, was it because you were actively experiencing a Tourettes episode at the office? Was the prohibitive behavior largely an issue of volume, or were you saying specific words that caused the teddies distress? Were there other behaviors that you engaged in prior to being refused treatment that could have been part of the doctor's motivation?

Are you aware of your body language? Do you feel like you are usually able to elicit the response you expect from people based on your body language?

What you wrote made it seem like you were unable to communicate precisely about your issue in the presence of the doctors. Have you brought in your writings and had them read them? I would suggest printing out all your posts from this thread and bringing them in to have a psychiatric evaluation. Also, you should write down the thoughts that you have that you haven't communicated publicly due to your worry about the reactions you might receive, or how those thoughts could make the doctors feel. If you aren't providing complete information to the doctors, then they aren't going to be able to provide an accurate diagnosis, no matter how much you want it, or how much you feel entitled to one.

 

[WolfeTone]

You're a little confused. Schizoid has nothing to do with Schizophrenia, it has to do with preferring to be alone. It's pretty comorbid with autism, like you said, but it doesn't cause delusions or hallucinations.

I didn't realize the man had a brain tumor. I still could be right, it meets a lot of the criteria. He could also have depression. All this talk about soda, serotonin is primarily generated in the gut, with the 2 trillion bacteria that determine a huge amount of your brain chemistry. When I read the clear and concise vocabulary, I don't see delusional thinking; and hallucinations could be caused by the arachnoid cyst. I'm spitballing here, and am not a professional.

I think dude's got big potential to reorganize his chemistry in a way that jives with his mental set-up.

 

[HumanHive]

Every line is a new doctor.

• Substance Abuse Disorder + Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome
• Tourette Syndrome and called campus security to ban me
• Called campus security to ban me
• Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment
• Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments
• "I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist."
• Asperger Syndrome
• "Delusion Disorder/Alcohol" referring to encephalitis
• Ran from the room and referred me to the psych ward
• Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, and Aleve is a placebo though we won't watch you take it
• (Called mother and told her I was an addict)
• Psychotic Disorder/Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
• "I don't think you have anything to apologize for."

The constant change in diagnosis is pretty typical of psycho-trickerists, but I'm sure there are a few details that you are leaving out.
Nobody calls campus security to ban you for no raison. Try to rub a pair of sane neurons together and tell us the whole story behind each detail. I'm not a medical doctor, but I think understanding why your behavior was maladaptive would be a major step forward.

 

[henstepl]

Have these primarily been therapists affiliated with colleges? On campus doctors?

In the instances where you were banned, was it because you were actively experiencing a Tourettes episode at the office? Was the prohibitive behavior largely an issue of volume, or were you saying specific words that caused the teddies distress? Were there other behaviors that you engaged in prior to being refused treatment that could have been part of the doctor's motivation?

Are you aware of your body language? Do you feel like you are usually able to illicit the response you expect from people based on your body language?

What you wrote made it seem like you were unable to communicate precisely about your issue in the presence of the doctors. Have you brought in your writings and had them read them? I would suggest printing out all your posts from this thread and bringing them in to have a psychiatric evaluation. Also, you should write down the thoughts that you have that you haven't communicated publicly due to your worry about the reactions you might receive, or how those thoughts could make the doctors feel. If you aren't providing complete information to the doctors, then they aren't going to be able to provide an accurate diagnosis, no matter how much you want it, or how much you feel entitled to one.

Most of my coprolalia is so mild and frankly quiet that I've had to broaden the definition to find Florians who can identify. But the spontaneous emergence of "words from the mouth that you didn't choose to speak" is ALARMING and SURREAL enough that it alone will compel you to seek psychiatric care when it begins at age 19.

I do not have "episodes" of Tourettes. I get abduction (heavy breathing with severe confusion) and adduction (loss of psychopathy). If I wrote the book for schizophrenics, I would title it "How To Think Clearly And Act Less Weird" because those are the problems that I face and that schizophrenics face. It's acting weird that gets me banned from places, and I act less weird if I ignore the doctors' prescriptions and follow my own stack.

I am aware of body language in types other than O. But the adeptness malvolition of Type B will make you act weird in its own right.

 

[HumanHive]

Most of my coprolalia is so mild and frankly quiet that I've had to broaden the definition to find Florians who can identify. But the spontaneous emergence of "words from the mouth that you didn't choose to speak" is ALARMING and SURREAL enough that it alone will compel you to seek psychiatric care when it begins at age 19.

I do not have "episodes" of Tourettes. I get abduction (heavy breathing with severe confusion) and adduction (loss of psychopathy). If I wrote the book for schizophrenics, I would title it "How To Think Clearly And Act Less Weird" because those are the problems that I face and that schizophrenics face. It's acting weird that gets me banned from places, and I act less weird if I ignore the doctors' prescriptions and follow my own stack.

I am aware of body language in types other than O. But the adeptness malvolition of Type B will make you act weird in its own right.

Interesting, what are your thoughts on the "influencing machine" pattern of delusion?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/On_the_Origin_of_the_%22Influencing_Machine%22_in_Schizophrenia

I for one find it very interesting that the nature of this supposed machine changes with increasing in technology. So back in the 19th century it'd be some kind of "magic lantern", and now it'd be spy satellites and the like.

 

[Just A Butt]

and I act less weird if I ignore the doctors' prescriptions and follow my own stack.

I know it can be frustrating, but this type of thinking never ends well.

 

[henstepl]

Hi @henstepl. You have quite the intriguing background, and although I absolutely condemn your [alleged] arson attempt, I'm somewhat familiar with the emotions of someone with your ailments. You at least seem sincere in your beliefs and as far as I know, you're probably genuine in wanting answers for your mental state. I have a few questions for you:

1. Have you ever taken any medication for your schizophrenia (more specifically, have you ever been prescribed the following; Abilify, Depakote, Thorazine)? If so, how did the meds make you feel while you were on them?

2. Have you ever tried the alcohol self-medication route? If so, how much or little did alcohol help you?

3. Assuming that you experience states of sudden and sporadic rage and destruction, what usually triggers this?

I'm not trying to be an armchair psychologist. I am curious because you remind me of a dear friend of mine who is currently been unstable the last half-year. I want to help him, but as of writing this, I'm at my wits end, and I believe if I could understand more where you're coming from, I could help my friend come back to reality.

Thank you for reading, regardless.

Hello @Pope of Degeneracy I have written you some answers.

1) I would not guess Depakote to be helpful. Abilify I tried years ago, Thorazine as I understand it is similar. I take haloperidol strategically, not for psychosis, but to create an agreeable Type B state that can watch TV. Since I've decided it's serotonin OR dopamine that I need, it's typical rather than atypical antipsychotics that I would take.

2) I intentionally gave myself alcohol hangovers for years until the first of this year. The secret of the "hangover effect" for those who experience it is that alcohol hangovers force your brain to run on adrenaline and serotonin, and:

3) Adrenaline and serotonin, with choline and dopamine reduced, makes you a psychopath. Piercing gaze and upperface affect, charming, controlled and physically adept, carbonation grimace, and absolutely not abusable. This state (Type A/b) occurs EVERY NIGHT because there is a burst of serotonin that occurs at night, and it gets VERY ANGRY at all the times we have been abused in the daytime.

I don't know if your friend can be described as a psychopath, or to have psychopathic traits. I don't know if he has upperface or lowerface affect. But the linking of psychopathy with adrenaline and serotonin is sensible and important if true.