😵‍💫 Skitzocow Stephen William Lafleur / henstepl / Thisismyrofl / Elecbullet - Schizophrenic Arsonist Who Hates Soda

[FluorideHuffer]

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I have to admt he has... quite the interesting writing style. Dude should had been a writer instead. Maybe make a fictional story where everyone hates soda for some reason.

I do. The way he writes makes me want to like him, too.

 

[Fields Of Rye]

I've got a background in this kinda stuff, and this kinda, uh, my language.

Ill be translating it, if someone's already done a decent one let me know.

 

[henstepl]

Have you ever been diagnosed with autism/ASD/aspergers?
I know that occasionally happens with people within the schizosphere.

Every diagnosis I have received is suspect because I am reliant on a police-like, persecutory environment, which psychiatry is not willing to provide. I go on about "teddies" because they dissociate me with abduction or adduction events, precisely because they aren't police. Then I receive badly-informed psychiatry.

I have been told Asperger syndrome while dissociated, but more doctors have simply diagnosed me with giant nothings like "Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified". You can imagine how much of a middle finger it is to pay money to get told that.

Remember that I match some of my personality states with various presentations of autism and Asperger syndrome.

Can you go into more detail by what you mean when you say that some people are more expressive in the lower half or upper half of their faces? Like, when they're smiling they'll only use one half and the other stays perfectly still, or just that one part is more used than the other? Is it a voluntary thing, like they just prefer to use one half over the other and they could use the other half if they wanted, or is it totally involuntary, and they couldn't make expressions with the other half of their face even if they wanted to?

Remember that glutamate hypofunction makes the implicit rules of the brain explicit. One of the repercussions is that folks with all their glutamate will not have "strict affect", the inability to move top and bottom at once.

So while the most well-rounded folks won't have any bias, many people will have a non-strict bias at worst. They can move both halves, but in practice they won't. The upperfacers will smile primarily using zygomaticus minor muscles, resulting in a sort of pedosmile, potentially with openings at both sides of the mouth. The lowerfacers won't make eye contact.

Also remember that upperface affect is the one that can't drink soda (when glutamate is hypofunctional). I apologize for how shitty an explanation it is to say that SOMETHING proceeds top-downwards, but not all the way to the mouth and lips.

 

[ZyklonBen]

What do you make of the COVID vaccine causing bells palsy in some people?

 

[Doppio Vinegar]

Is there any carbonated beverage that doesn't cause the carbonation grimace? Like Sparkling Ice or another lightly fizzy drink? Or does everything carbonated give you the ol' Skitzo Twitch?

 

[henstepl]

What do you make of the COVID vaccine causing bells palsy in some people?

I have nothing to say about the affect as it splits in the left/right directions. Only up/down.

 

[Rekkington]

I have nothing to say about the affect as it splits in the left/right directions. Only up/down.

Yeah I was telling my friends that the other day.

 

[WolfeTone]

Every diagnosis I have received is suspect because I am reliant on a police-like, persecutory environment, which psychiatry is not willing to provide. I go on about "teddies" because they dissociate me with abduction or adduction events, precisely because they aren't police. Then I receive badly-informed psychiatry.

I have been told Asperger syndrome while dissociated, but more doctors have simply diagnosed me with giant nothings like "Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified". You can imagine how much of a middle finger it is to pay money to get told that.

Remember that I match some of my personality states with various presentations of autism and Asperger syndrome.

Remember that glutamate hypofunction makes the implicit rules of the brain explicit. One of the repercussions is that folks with all their glutamate will not have "strict affect", the inability to move top and bottom at once.

So while the most well-rounded folks won't have any bias, many people will have a non-strict bias at worst. They can move both halves, but in practice they won't. The upperfacers will smile primarily using zygomaticus minor muscles, resulting in a sort of pedosmile, potentially with openings at both sides of the mouth. The lowerfacers won't make eye contact.

Also remember that upperface affect is the one that can't drink soda (when glutamate is hypofunctional). I apologize for how shitty an explanation it is to say that SOMETHING proceeds top-downwards, but not all the way to the mouth and lips.

I think that you have a minor amount of aspergers which is a noted comorbidity with Schizoid Personality Defect, which hasn't progressed into full disorder it seems, but you probably haven't been getting good treatment here in the south. America has a very storied history with mental health, and misdiagnosing things, but post-2012 it seems like, due to pressure or inevitability, the game has changed.

If you want to know how to prevent your episodes from happening more frequently, command control of your mental faculties that for now seem symptomatic to reality, instead of staged and filtered, and avoid a downward spiral you have to pursue genuine mental, physical, and I'ma push it a step further than any doctor would say, spiritual help.

You gotta put everything down and reexamine your life from a broad lense, and see where you have been and how it applies to where you're going. You gotta learn to be able to clear your mind at will, and put the pressure of whatever is being malicious in your mind in shackles, that you control with your lucidity, to not let your anxiety and fervor dominate you, but be options on the table when necessary. And to learn when it's necessary is a higher matter, a matter of morals, not 12 steps NA shit, but real dig-deep power. Power that only you know how to obtain.

 

[flight of ideas]

all of this is very interesting of course but it’s worth pointing out that a known side effect of topamax is that while one is taking it, sweet things taste awful.

 

[Jeffrey Epstein]

You've discovered fire. There is hope for you yet.

 

[henstepl]

all of this is very interesting of course but it’s worth pointing out that a known side effect of topamax is that while one is taking it, sweet things taste awful.

I resent the notion of identifying Topamax side effects with "dysgeusia", which is what it would be called. Because I'm here to argue that whatever Topamax does, some people will have been born with.

How are you going to check your kids for "dysgeusia"? Little Timmy doesn't like eggs?

I've actually today been directed to one medical article about "carbonation dysgeusia" and I must say everywhere I look it's just badly described by those who experience it. The soda is not "flat", it's just so difficult to describe without the word "grimace" that people will default to the word you use to describe bad soda.

Maybe the doctors should take a Topamax before they write their articles?

 

[juicy]

Hey man when you say "teddies" is it in reference to any antipsychotics/ measures taken to make you numb and dissociative? And therefore also used to describe the nurses that administer the drugs and are intimidated by you? Do you prefer to interract with the police then because they don't treat you with kid gloves on?

Also was there a reason you used it/we in the PDF to refer to yourself? Was this to separate type A from type B?

 

[HumanHive]

You've discovered fire. There is hope for you yet.

Let's see if he can invent the wheel. That's usually the benchmark for me.

 

[henstepl]

Hey man when you say "teddies" is it in reference to any antipsychotics/ measures taken to make you numb and dissociative? And therefore also used to describe the nurses that administer the drugs and are intimidated by you? Do you prefer to interract with the police then because they don't treat you with kid gloves on?

Also was there a reason you used it/we in the PDF to refer to yourself? Was this to separate type A from type B?

The teddies are the dissociatives. I have an inverse relationship with anxiety, and yes I prefer to talk to police. The teddies may be made uncomfortable by me, but the moment they broadcast that (and they broadcast that very quickly!) is the moment that I dissociate in either an abduction or adduction event. This causes subsequent psychiatry to be misguided at best, and pointless insurance scandal at worst.

If I had to write the three things that cause scary men to be refused psychiatry, they would be receptionry - rooms where decisions are made by men not in the room, including ERs and psych wards - unscoldingry - rooms where decisions are made by unscoldable men - and the mobilization of tiny teddy bear women. The teddies are goddamn everywhere. I wonder if James Holmes ever ran into problems with them.

There's a bit of a turning point in the manifesto after C.C. Psychiatry mobilized a crying little girl to send me to the ER. The next pages are about me at my worst, and that's the page where I refer to myself as "it". I used to play a pronoun game when I had a smaller number of states I could refer to. I don't really do that anymore. Except for its use on the "it" page, "we" is a pronoun I mostly used for alliteration in page titles.

 

[ShinyStar]

Hey man when you say "teddies" is it in reference to any antipsychotics/ measures taken to make you numb and dissociative? And therefore also used to describe the nurses that administer the drugs and are intimidated by you? Do you prefer to interract with the police then because they don't treat you with kid gloves on?

Also was there a reason you used it/we in the PDF to refer to yourself? Was this to separate type A from type B?

He uses the term teddies because he is so thoroughly and neurotically intimidated by women that he is forced to view them as inanimate objects even in order to allow himself to think of them.

 

[Sriracha]

There's a bit of a turning point in the manifesto after C.C. Psychiatry mobilized a crying little girl to send me to the ER. The next pages are about me at my worst, and that's the page where I refer to myself as "it". I used to play a pronoun game when I had a smaller number of states I could refer to. I don't really do that anymore. Except for its use on the "it" page, "we" is a pronoun I mostly used for alliteration in page titles.

That's really heartbreaking and it really fucking sucks that you have to live with this disorder. I hope that eventually things will improve for you and you never have to go back to the 'it' state again.

 

[Lame Entropy]

@henstepl How do you feel about likely going to jail?

 

[flight of ideas]

Because I'm here to argue that whatever Topamax does, some people will have been born with.

patients who previously drank multiple cokes a day could no longer tolerate the high fructose corn syrup once on a therapeutic dose of topamax. it’s logically inconsistent to think a shift in behavior like that reflects a natal trait. it’s the drug my dude. don’t drink sodapop if you don’t want to grimace.

 

[henstepl]

@henstepl How do you feel about likely going to jail?

It's all right. I won't be able to medicate myself to my best. But Wellbutrin in the day and Haldol at night, which they had me on in a ward, was pretty tolerable. To have no pills is to be an abusable idiot who can't count to four. At least I won't be there.

patients who previously drank multiple cokes a day could no longer tolerate the high fructose corn syrup once on a therapeutic dose of topamax. it’s logically inconsistent to think a shift in behavior like that reflects a natal trait. it’s the drug my dude. don’t drink sodapop if you don’t want to grimace.

Now you're actually going to make me cite that Perrier will do it. I don't want to indulge anyone who asks about nitrobeer.

The complete symptom might be called "oral hypoaesthesia with carbonation grimace", but unless you're Chef Gordon Ramsay, you should be mostly concerned about what it implies in the brain.

Keep promising it doesn't imply.

 

[juicy]

The teddies are goddamn everywhere. I wonder if James Holmes ever ran into problems with them.

Thank you for the response. It cleared up some misconceptions that I had. I'm not that familiar with James Holmes beyond his crimes. How come you brought him up here?