I can give a more detailed answer later but for now for times sake here is the short. Doctors have been confused about what i am for a while and recently a "top doctor" diagnosed me with ptsd when for years other docs thought it was hypo mania etc and there have been docs who said i am fine but just need emotional healing from a dramatic upbringing. End of the day, only God really knows and i know myself best and why i had the issues i had and what i need to do to overcome. If medicine is needed i will take it, however if medicine is not the true solution to get to the root cause, i will fond up how to get to the core of the matter.
I do accept criticism everyday. In fact, it's how i've grown and continue to grow as an artist. It wouldn't be humble to reject what ppl say, especially if it can help what i am doing to be better. For example, Vinny i like jolly but have you thought about adding a story line or making a production or vin have you thought about performing at this venue instead of here or how about this costum made outfit verses that etc but i will not accept "criticism" that is contrary to who i know i am and the vision in my heart. I know the jolly cat brings a lot of joy and laughter, so if someone says ur act sucks give it up and do something else, i must reject it because i know how fruitful my character truly is.
And no i was not part of a program. It was a divine encounter i had with God because my heart was finally open to him due to losing all the temporary distractions the world throws our way. It was and is a personal and intimate relationship and what i believe in or do is from revelation on high..although i can't prove Christ to others(i can show his love through making ppl smile and laugh and by sharing the message to be open as a child) God has proven Christ to me. I seeked the truth in a world of false doctrines and lies and the truth maker revealed the one and absolute truth in Jesus The Christ.