Jolly Cat's Facebook apology:
After some recent events which forced me to deal with the repercussions of my actions, and after much prayer, i have come to this.
Something on my end needs to be said. Although, my heart over the years and from the very start has been to love God and love humans, hence creating and becoming "The Jolly Cat," my emotions were still out of control, and the pain in my heart was not fully dealt with. Maybe it's because i didn't fully surrender in certain areas, so Christ can do the healing he needed to do in me, before i can ever impact another human being. By all means, this is not a justification for my outbursts, but just an effort to bring clarity and understanding.
My dream was and is to bring pure joy, laughter, happiness, and the message to come to God with Child-like faith Mark 10:15 and to find a believing and godly wife; who is very sweet, bubbly, and full of good and positive energy aka "The Jolly Princess." However, since my pain was not fully dealt with once again, my impact was limited and whatever good i did through my character Jolly, was cancelled out by snapping out just about any time people would mock what i do or simply not get or agree with it. After all, if i'm going to play a loving yet crazy fool, i must fully embrace all reactions and responses, from laughter and applause, to ridicule and disgust.
The perfect love of Jesus loves without expecting anything in return, and loves in the face of hate and false judgement. The same mercy i need from God, i need to practice with others. Sadly, my pride and ego got in the way too many times, and the same people i meant to uplift i tore down. For that i am sincerely sorry and it is something i am taking to God so i can change and be better.
In regards to my approach with finding my wife, in retrospect i did not exercise good wisdom. I always thought my "future spouse" would see my performance and love and accept my vision and mission. So, after performing i would sometimes try to talk to the female fans or supporters in the hopes she could be my princess sent from God, and we could impact the earth together. (Note from strandedcastaway: In my medical opinion, he's fucking nutso!) In doing this, i discovered that they liked my act perhaps, but didn't respect me as a person. I felt like the fool who makes people laugh, but after the circus is over, nobody wants to talk the clown without his makeup on. This hurt me deeply(which is why i needed to fully surrender my pain and desire to Jesus) and regretfully i would curse and say mean things. Whenever i would do this, in the moment i felt it was justified, because i was standing against vanity; but in reality only love and grace can ever change our heart. Also, end of the day i shouldn't be mixing ministry with my own personal desires, even if Godly. So, for that and to all the woman i hurt or wounded out of offense, i am deeply sorry.
And also, in regards to the controversy and anger i stirred up due to my openness to marrying a woman as young as 18 or 19. Even though it may not be socially accepted, my hope was that once i become successful as an actor, i could have a big family serving God together giving him glory on earth. My grandmother was one of 7 siblings and my grandfather was one of 12 on my dad's side. Regardless, this is something i need to fully surrender and give to God. Only he knows what is best.
In conclusion, i apologize to all who i have hurt or offended and hope you can forgive me for my foul behavior. I will take this time to let the Holy Spirit do the complete work in me, so i can truly be whole and my work can be fruitful. love and grace to all.
Sincerely,
Vinny
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