💥 Trainwreck Pixyteri / Sarah Guilbeaux / Ashton Winters - Glorious Nippon Cosplayer and Stomach Penis Pooner, she's peein' and poopin' the bed, mother is equally crazy

[Lord Of Shit]

She's celebrating 189 elbeez. She's almost down to the way too high goal of 170. Usually people that have goals like that weigh hundreds of pounds and would kill to be even 195-200 so they can walk without collapsing a lung or a knee. She's still gonna look huge in that bodysuit.

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Somebody should tell her that even poor people and senior citizens date. She's way too caught up on youth. She was crying about being old when she was 25 because of that "Christmas cake" nonsense. Also, she looks really feminine here. A block of feminine blank autism stares. At this point she's posted hundreds of them already. What is the point?

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She can walk 2.5 miles despite her hurty foot! Does anyone actually believe that she'd walk four miles before the foot surgery? She was a houseboat before the surgery. Maybe she walked four miles to Whataburger and gorged. Also, why is her goth band name Morbid Souls? Sarah is her dead name. I thought her totarry true and honest name was now Ashton? It should be Morbid Astrology. Freudian slip?

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I'm going to white-knight our kawaii aidoru here and note that if her claims are true, and she has achieved some relatively-healthy weight loss, and she is performing regular and significant exercise, good for her, really.

She is severely depressed, and to moderate her food — essentially, her only physical pleasure — and also drag herself out of bed on walks are both extremely taxing activities for a person in her mental state.

If she is not lying for asspats on social media, then she has begun to set and work toward realistic goals, even if they are only weight loss and physical activity for now.

Keep it up, Pixy. Make Windchime-sama proud.

"Boy of darkness" above, and "darkness" below.

*teleports behind you*

I've seen much worse Jap handwriting from weebs. I wonder if she knows all her kana, or just sort of imitates the shapes.

 

[Picklechu]

She's spent last several years running away from her actual life story because it's pathetically embarrassing. To "erase" Pixyteri, Sarah has been trying to craft this narrative that she is in fact both intersex and a CSA victim instead of an ugly special needs girl who spent her better years seeking both male validation and fame for stuffing herself into costumes and posting thousands of photos of herself online.

She's spent her whole life running away from her actual life story. She ran away from Sarah over 20 years ago, and is still running. The only difference is that she's also running from Pixyteri as well now.

She's always desperately wanted to be Not-Sarah.

I wonder if she knows all her kana, or just sort of imitates the shapes.

She generally knows her hiragana and katakana, although she still makes mistakes far more frequently than someone as into Groriosu Nihon for as long as she has been should. She also knows some more common kanji, but messes those up more often from what I've seen. (Not fluent in Japaroo, but I took 2 semesters as an undergrad and remember a decent bit.)

 

[Lord Of Shit]

She generally knows her hiragana and katakana, although she still makes mistakes far more frequently than someone as into Groriosu Nihon for as long as she has been should. She also knows some more common kanji, but messes those up more often from what I've seen. (Not fluent in Japaroo, but I took 2 semesters as an undergrad and remember a decent bit.)

Huh. That is far more than I had been expecting, and suggests again that she can concentrate on something useful when she really wants to.

The average weeb just uses Google Translate or AI to generate text, then traces or mimics the characters, so she's step ahead there.

 

[Picklechu]

Huh. That is far more than I had been expecting, and suggests again that she can concentrate on something useful when she really wants to.

The average weeb just uses Google Translate or AI to generate text, then traces or mimics the characters, so she's step ahead there.

If she were younger, that's exactly what she would do. Since those tools weren't as good, or were nonexistent, in the mid-to-late 2000s, she mostly learned the equivalent of her heritiji no ABCs. That being said, she probably does use Google Translate a lot, especially for kanji.

 

[Lord Of Shit]

If she were younger, that's exactly what she would do. Since those tools weren't as good, or were nonexistent, in the mid-to-late 2000s, she mostly learned the equivalent of her heritiji no ABCs. That being said, she probably does use Google Translate a lot, especially for kanji.

Still, even if AI and machine-translation weren't there yet, she could have just used online Eng→Jap dictionaries as a crutch. And Jap is the most complicated writing system in current use, so I'll give her extra credit there.

Maybe this was still the era in which she cherished half-baked plans to actually move to Japan and become an aidoru there, and some degree of real literacy would have been necessary. It shows she was capable, at least then, of working toward a long-term goal.

I'm genuinely shocked, since she gives up on just about everything else that is remotely-challenging.

 

[Falcon Sebben]

She generally knows her hiragana and katakana, although she still makes mistakes far more frequently than someone as into Groriosu Nihon for as long as she has been should. She also knows some more common kanji, but messes those up more often from what I've seen. (Not fluent in Japaroo, but I took 2 semesters as an undergrad and remember a decent bit.)

Her understanding of Japanese is marginal at best. Like her saying, "I'm not yaoi" for "I'm not gay". Yaoi is a style or anime or manga not an orientation. No homosexual in Japan calls themselces "yaoi". The word doesn't even exist as it's an acronym for, "yama nashi, ochi nashi, imi nashi" or "no climax, no point, no reason". Basically it's just gay porn written for "rotten women" or "fujoshi". She'd have to say, "I'm not gei" but nobody would know what she means by that so just say "gay". But no. She needs to add random Japanese words to her posts because or reasons.

And yes the times she wrote kanji some of them were wrong or backwards. It's even to the point of windchime-sama being backwards when she took a picture of it. Then we saw it and said, "that means table".

The average weeb just uses Google Translate or AI to generate text, then traces or mimics the characters, so she's step ahead there.

That would involve her admitting her nihongo is terrible and she can't let that happen.

And Jap is the most complicated writing system in current use, so I'll give her extra credit there.

It's more than just complicated. The very structure of the language is weird. The verb always comes at the end. The funny thing about this is it plays into a lot of Japanese humor where wordplay is a thing. So you have the guy telling a joke and it sounds good until he reaches the end where suddenly he switches the verb and you've misunderstood what he's been saying all along. It could be like somebody starting off a sentence with,. "I went to..." and it ends with "did not go" at the end.

I can't say I truly understand Japanese humor.

 

[Lord Of Shit]

Spoiler: Japanese sperging

It's more than just complicated. The very structure of the language is weird. The verb always comes at the end.

That is one of the easier things to get used to, and I could happily sperg on that topic for hours:
it's the only language which uses two writing systems concurrently (logographs and syllabaries); the only one which uses two completely-different lineages of readings for a character; multiple ways of writing the same word, with different nuances (e.g.: 聞く・聴く・訊く); more homophones than any other language, by far (probably tens of thousands).

Spoiler: Japanese sperging

Have this one last bonus sperg, and I promise I'll shut up.

The funny thing about this is it plays into a lot of Japanese humor where wordplay is a thing. So you have the guy telling a joke and it sounds good until he reaches the end where suddenly he switches the verb and you've misunderstood what he's been saying all along. It could be like somebody starting off a sentence with,. "I went to..." and it ends with "did not go" at the end.

It does create some really fun flexibility, but can be annoying when abused. Politicians are notorious for going on and on, then at last appending ...と云う事ではなく... which just means: "Disregard absolutely everything I just said. Here is the less-bullshit part of the speech, now that no one is paying close attention".

And it seems that Japanese has no concept whatsoever of the run-on sentence. That's fun.

I can't say I truly understand Japanese humor.

I've studied it for twenty years, worked in Japan for fifteen, and I still don't get most of the humour. I'd say it's just the autism, but, y'know, Japan, so...

On-topic:

I guess what I'm trying to say, really, is that even though her efforts at language acquisition never really went anywhere, she did seem to make a genuine effort. She just had excessively-ambitious goals, and when she failed to meet them, retreated into more comfortable circumstances. She could have easily gone to Moonland in a JET teacher or similar role, but it was too much for her.

And she really had a chance to travel to Japan (just as a tourist, but surely that would have been less intimidating), and she was too scared to do it.

If she could just set more realistic goals, she could still pull out of this tailspin. I know, I know, gimme my rainbows...

 

[Dysnomia]

heritiji no ABCs

Here's her latest fic. She must be running out of ideas because she's back at the carnival. This one's a real doozy. It's hilarious at every turn. They spend a measly two paragraphs eating and going on rides them the rest is gross sex. It's far too long for the content. She does mention listening to the 50 Shades soundtrack in her car. A movie that's primarily aimed at women. Pixy probably thinks it's for men merely because the man is dominant in it. She's so retarded.

Spoiler: Warning: Pee and Vomit

Vanitas starts out by complaining about his sucky life:

He knew he worked hard; he had to have had at least 12-14 jobs in his small, conservative town that never once promoted him or treated him well. It had always been a struggle.

Jobs she was lazy at. Like when she'd hide behind the customer service counter at Home Depot, which she quit so she could go be a kawaii weituressu-chan at a Chinese restaurant. Only to find out that strict Asian business ladies expect you to haul ass and do it right the first time. Maybe Pixy would have been better off if Debbie really had been Asian.

Vanitas stretched; plopping into his car in his black polo top with binders and a red tie and slacks with a red belt. He hoped no one would misgender him

Anyone remember that Xena episode where everything Gabrielle wrote with her magic quill came true? "Gabrielle awoke with a jerk ect..". It was making fun of bad fanfiction tropes. And that was the 90s. That's what I immediately thought of here. Also, that outfit is Hot Topic Hot Mess.

Vanitas smirked and rubbed lightly between her legs and then suddenly they came to a stop. Oof.

And behold the most sensuous piece of erotica ever written!

Owww mmmm youre so big!!!! Ohhhh your slaps hurt!!!! Mmmmmm daddy hurry mmmmm

 

[Kosher Dill]

He was extremely hard. It hurt to walk, but in a better way than when he was only hard in his internals.

wat

He put his hands in his pockets and then removed them, remembering being admonished for doing it at a previous job. Always so many rules.

I wonder which of her dozens of jobs this was

 

[TismFarmer]

Smart with money? She paid $9 to borrow a library book she likely could have bought at Goodwill for a dollar.

I assume the Library charges $9 per loan so they can afford to just throw it away when it gets returned and nip down to the book clearance warehouse for a new copy for $5.

 

[Falcon Sebben]

And she really had a chance to travel to Japan (just as a tourist, but surely that would have been less intimidating), and she was too scared to do it.

If she could just set more realistic goals, she could still pull out of this tailspin.

Pixy and reality have never been on a first name basis.

She lives in her own little world and that's it.

 

[Chrus Chundlur]

Anyway, here's another hideous self portrait.

I gave it a go:

 

[Dysnomia]

wat


I wonder which of her dozens of jobs this was

In these fics her stomach penis has become a real one. She should just call Vanitas Ashton already.

Maybe the Papa Johns job. You can't be sticking your hands in your pockets when you are handling food. This is the second time she's mentioned the hands in pockets thing. So it might just have made her look too idle when she was already being lazy enough as is. She seems to think that rules don't apply to her because she's special and everyone is being mean to her.

I assume the Library charges $9 per loan so they can afford to just throw it away when it gets returned and nip down to the book clearance warehouse for a new copy for $5.

I'm thinking it was a late fee. There's probably a few library books entombed in that garbage dump she calls a room.

 

[burntgrilledcheese]

I gave it a go:

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This should be in the OP, you're very talented.

 

[TismFarmer]

@Chrus Chundlur

This is incredible!
A portrait from her alternate universe, where she is a politician...

 

[Dysnomia]

When the mean 'ol 'rents tell her to shower and stop being lazy she goes to the Super 8 and humps the vending machine.

 

[VinegarPussy]

Are we all just going to ignore the gem that is:
“He wanted his wang.”

 

[Dysnomia]

Are we all just going to ignore the gem that is:
“He wanted his wang.”

Now I have "Everybody Have Fun Tonight" stuck in my head.

I'm just gonna armchair my totally unqualified opinion on what's going on here:

These fics really reinforce her mental illness. I think the reason she describes Vanitas' clothes, hair and anatomy in detail every damn time is to help her hammer the image into her head and make it real. She's can't simply imagine Vanitas as is. She has to be him but as a fat, "musky" man with tits who wants his wang. And he mirrors all her daily activities like walking 2.5 miles, going to the strip joint to waste dollar bills, buying fast food and having a silver Ford Edge with heated seats.

She can't even make her ideal self look like he's supposed to be. Yet he gets cute waifus like Kairi and Aqua despite being a dumpy, smelly Hot Topic mess. I think this is because Pixy wants to imagine herself (with the stomach jizzler on the outside) getting a cute waifu despite being repulsive. She headcanons Kairi being a poor welfare dependent college student with violent junkie parents because this makes Kairi more sad and pathetic than Pixy. Therefore Pixy, despite being a loser because lazy, can "provide" for Kairi by giving her fast food and the stomach wang. All the while she subtly digs at Kairi for being a brat due to said poorness even though she acts pretty neutral most of the time. Being too uncultured and uneducated to use a knife correctly or even brush her teeth without help. When she eats she always makes a mess.

It makes me wonder if this comes from Debbie's opinion of the very poor and Pixy is just emulating Debbie when she constantly criticizes Kairi's manners and talks about how clean and polite she is by comparison. Because Pixy has said in her fics that her family expects her to be clean and perfect. She would complain on Facebook and TikTok about how she can't always be "Smelling perfect". I think a lot of the meanness she complains about is simply being told to shower and clean up after herself and stop playing around in costumes all day. Needing her dad's help to cook chili (all by herself!) is due to her own ineptitude and laziness. I refuse to believe someone who has been an adult for over 20 years was too "Sheltered" to learn to cook. She used to say that Debbie would complain about her making messes in the kitchen. There you go. She was too damn lazy to clean up whatever slop she was trying to make. Instead of being better at washing up she just cried about being too sheltered.

There's no way anyone with that slutty of a past was sheltered. It's just pure lazy and being butthurt to easily by the slightest criticism.

 

[Balthier]

When the mean 'ol 'rents tell her to shower and stop being lazy she goes to the Super 8 and humps the vending machine.

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"Walking away" does not mean gallumping down the hallway to your bedroom that your parents pay for when you get a little fussy. The idea of Pixie ever "walking away" from her parents is impossible. She's never gonna give up the freeloader lifestyle.

 

[Garnet123]

She's can't simply imagine Vanitas as is. She has to be him but as a fat, "musky" man with tits who wants his wang. And he mirrors all her daily activities like walking 2.5 miles, going to the strip joint to waste dollar bills, buying fast food and having a silver Ford Edge with heated seats.
She can't even make her ideal self look like he's supposed to be. Yet he gets cute waifus like Kairi and Aqua despite being a dumpy, smelly Hot Topic mess.

It may be a degree worse, even. I haven´t had the stomach to read all of her stories, but in those that I´ve looked into, getting the girls and having the sex are just dreams (as the title says, "Dreams of a Tainted Mind") .

So we have IRL Pixy, the author, and then in the fiction, "frame story Vanitas" who is exactly like Pixy, just with a different name.
Complaining about an evil dad and abusive family, being poor, getting misgendered, "you will not hurt me" ... Wanting "his" wang ,,, A typical mixture of everything Pixy routinely posts on social media.

"Frame story Vanitas" then cries himself to sleep about his miserable existence and dreams of being "Sex-Having Vanitas", who is exactly the same, with exactly the same issues down to wearing binders and getting misgendered - the only difference is that this one´s an "Art Professor" who has cash and a big dong who can treat his slutty student to cheap amusements in exchange for some nasty sex in public toilets.

So not only is she incapable of imagining her ideal self (Sex-Having Vanitas), straightforwardly, as the man she would actually like to be. She has to put in an additional layer (Frame Story Vanitas) between her real self and that ideal dream self (Sex Vanitas). The "ideal self" that she imagines here is so unattainable or unrealistic that it is a dream of a dream, the self-insert of a self-insert.

And even then, even the ideal Vanitas is still a very broken fantasy. Someone who still has all the issues and all the problems of IRL Pixy/Frame Story Vanitas, is miserable about it and sees no way of solving any of then. He has some success, professionally and with the girls, money and a penis, but that only brings temporary relief before even the ideal dream, Sex-Having Vanitas, returns to his miserable existence living with his mean old dad.

Even in her wildest imagination, she can´t escape from the cage of misery that she has imprisoned herself in.