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I did have an incredibly funny encounter with a kid today. He couldn't have been much older than 7. Asked me why my dogs weren't fond of kids and I told him I only have two nieces who live in the opposite end of the country, and I don't have children.
Europeans are literally cooking to death because of their commitment to The Soyence and I'm sitting in my parked truck in a with the windows up running the engine to blast the AC while I eat a philly cheesesteak and drink an ice cold Coca Cola.
The world is fucked and America is far from perfect but every day I am grateful I wasn't born literally anywhere else.
Edit: oh yeah and I have a handgun in the cup holder and the fact that that's an afterthought is a testament to my point.
I have nothing but contempt for blackpillers. Very jewish behavior. They love to groom children and fuck up their lives. You make one video criticizing them and they come out of the wood work to say it is so over because they’re shorter than average. One specimen suggested that being short is the worst thing in the world, on a video by a guy who survived acute myelogenous leukemia. Nigga, I’d rather be a dwarf than have any kind of cancer. I’ve had friends and loved ones (young and old) die from cancer. On a different video, another one said he wanted to feel valid so a kind woman told him everything will be okay and he is. For her kindness another replied something along the lines of “if you really cared you’d be his girlfriend.” These are two randos on the internet. They could be on different sides of the planet for all we know. I think we need to tell blackpillers to sincerely kill themselves. Life is already over according to them so they should just end it. I’m not kidding by the way.
I say all that because I want to be whitepilled. I want to handle anything life throws at me and be positive. Yeah I’m no 10/10 but so what? Boo hoo I might get treated worse because I’m ugly! Downies aren’t good looking either but they always have a smile on their faces. Nothing beings them down (pun not intended) if they can love happily with their circumstances why not us? I’m ranting about this because I got a couple blackpill videos in my recommended feed and it angered me. I want to reject nihilism. I want to believe in a better future. I want to believe in hope.
Need new friends, have been forcing myself to go out and "do shit", I have met some people but it's clear I'm personally behind a lot of people.
Few people I'm around online and IRL are fucking losers honestly, porn sick, constantly sitting and playing bing bing wahoo. Idk nigga, maybe the fact all you fucking do is play video games and work a shitty job is why you don't have a wife in your 30s?
It's like these niggers have no self awareness I swear!
Idk, I'm gonna lock in on the pilot shit, waiting for my medical shit to come in the mail then I'll begin it. I hope I can take the fuck off and actually live a life worth living. (Pun intended)
Idk, I'm gonna lock in on the pilot shit, waiting for my medical shit to come in the mail then I'll begin it. I hope I can take the fuck off and actually live a life worth living. (Pun intended)
I called out today, saying I was sick, just to pop pills and get high, and kiss death again, more so than I usually do. I don't know how I'm even typing but I can barely form a coherent thought or sit up right.
I got one text from a random coworker.
Sweet.
I read the post in this thread talking about how we should appreciate our relationships more and more, it's sweet, but no one ever does that anyways. It's kind of something you have to live with. A lot of people I meet nowadays here are extremely hateful, treat everyone else like subhumans, or get off to raping kids. And you know, it's been that way since forever Since Nothing Ever Happens. It feels wonderful to forget about shit like that, even if it's for a few hours. I can see why traumatized dipshits end up like drug addicts usually. I don't know how I'm balancing an addiction along with honours college but whatever, I always wonder if I graduate before I fuck myself up too badly
I think we need to tell blackpillers to sincerely kill themselves. Life is already over according to them so they should just end it. I’m not kidding by the way.
No, because it plays into their picture of the world and does not prove them wrong. We need to tell them to get better and change their lives. Seeing someone not buying their bullshit always gets them mad.
Every time I hear women speak, if it's my mom or women on the Internet, I'm thankful for not marrying and playing video games, designing PCBs, programming, tending my roses, flying airplanes and doing my job instead.
Every time I hear women speak, if it's my mom or women on the Internet, I'm thankful for not marrying and playing video games, designing PCBs, programming, tending my roses, flying airplanes and doing my job instead.
I moved in with my mom to help her out but her anxiety is starting to drive me crazy. Like making me want to walk into the lake near her apartment crazy. I cant swim. I worked to deal with my own mental issues without medication and now it seems like it was all for nothing and im regressing back.
Evidently smoke can travel quite far, a good couple hundred miles or Canada's wildfires are just that intense I'm solidly a redblooded american my whole town is covered in smoke, the API is so bad they're telling everyone to not go outside if you can help it everywhere you go no matter indoors or outdoors everywhere it smells like a fucking campfire I can barely see the sun and my eyes are burning make it stop it feels like I'm in fucking beijing or India
Lifes pretty damn good, honestly.
There's this weird feeling though that Ive been made aware of more as I've been getting better.
I fucked around for about a decade doing nothing of real substance, which is fine because that's what your young adult life is kind of for and the world took a massive shit in that time anyways.
I'm not beating myself up over it anymore. But there is this empty, nihilistic feeling that hits me sometimes. I think people are supposed to have "narratives" that keep their life in order. Checklists, goals that they have to accomplish among all the monotony and fun.
I didn't really form a strong social circle, or find my dream waifu or get the education or career growing up.
I do think I've been wrapping up loose ends and ending a certain chapter of my life that started about 12 years ago.
I think I'm a lot stronger now and am happy to be alive, which I didn't think I'd say before.
But I do need to do something. I don't think the traditional life of success and relationships is for me, which again... I'm making peace with considering when I really think about the details and engagements of that life, it doesn't appeal to me much either. It's also a little less rewarding to put the work in for the traditional life now than it seemingly used to be.
I do think just engaging in my writing and getting good at different fields is the road for me to fill this longing.
I know I'm not the only person going through this. I think everyone's going through a weird social/philosophical entropy right now. And again, a lot of this shit is for reasons outside of my control so I'm not beating myself up over it anymore. Don't think anyone should really.
Im still going to have fun. Explore, fuck around, go on adventures, engage in the world more. But it is a weird kind of "Now what?" feeling.
I didn't even think I'd be alive by now. It's really difficult to build your life from scratch after running away for forever. The funny thing is thinking Id meet someone who had it figured out by now. Someone older with all the answers. But no as it turns out, growing up is realizing pretty much all the adults in your life you looked up to and all the normies you used to envy are just as scared and lost as you.
Anyways, not saying this as a black pill. It's more of a "Do something bro" for me and everyone here while being realistic about not being too hard on my/yourself about things.
Personally, "falling in love" is something I leave for immature teenagers because they don't know shit about life and how people can be dicks, including those you like. To fall in love you have to ignore one's flaws or pretend they're not that bad.
I'm way too skeptical for this because everybody has flaws. I have mine to deal with and they're enough for me, I don't want, much less need to deal with anybody else's. Sometimes, I wonder what the fuck is a relationship good for? If feeling lonely is the issue, that's your, mine and our own problem. I mean, you don't have to pay for sex which is a good thing. Never had a relationship and I ended up giving up for good because it's too bothersome and lots of bullshit.
Find something to fill in the neediness like doing chores, listening to music or playing a guitar or watch something to distract yourself. Works for me. I end up not having time to be like >mfw no gf because that didn't do shit for me besides making me feel lonely and miserable.
While i agree with you, i kinda miss the feeling of falling in love and having someone to care for
Nowadays i'm too commited to my own family and career to let people in. I do miss it though. My siblings all got married, responsibilities fell on my lap. Guess it was not meant to be
