ngl, not to come across as to posture or impose, but you obviously need more than just obsession and sensation to continue being a connoisseur than just a fan. I'm sure that applies to everything. I remember living through the times of the anime boom of the late 1990s and the early 2000s; those were passionate, and great times, at least in my perspective. Sure, nothing was all that perfect, but that energy and those feelings from those memories still are there deep in me.
I too am not too much into current day anime stuff; sure, somethings strike my fancy, like Symphogear and Redline and what not, and it's nice to see anime still thriving. Thankfully I know how to balance out what I like with what the changing world holds so that I don't take things for granted.
Again, if you ask me, the problem is that out west has established and firmly rooted tastes in what it wants out of anime, but it's a menagerie of problems; there's the idea that anime can only be made by the Japanese, there's little good mentality going on establishing anime into the American cultural fabric, fandom is still pretty cringe all around from not just the spergs and spazs but to the "smart" and "tasteful" fans, and there's little self motivation to want to get into actually creating anime/manga of original content. It's definitely a most careful balancing act for sure if someone wants to take up the task, but nothing has yet become groundbreaking, or has maintained a good burn from its start (one bad example would have to be RWBY). I still believe since those boom days that anime as a style bears symbolism (at least to me) in that it represents the liberation of the freedom of expression and the upstart of meaningful revolution considering its influence in American sequential art and popular media at the time, and in the world of today where everything is getting poz'd, SJW'd, and overtly corporately controlled to shit, I think it's going to be the last bastion that is going to hold out in the face of corporate media astroturfing and the last grabs of the abused corpse of Hollywood. Again, I've mostly played video games and watched anime/read manga at a lesser rate, but I still am an oldfag- Nothing's changed my perspective, video games still count. I read the guides and dev materials, slag off.
If there is anything to argue on though, it would have to be the idea that Japanese virtues and mores do need to be recognized, acknowledged, and understood on a fundamental level, while with a recognition of a deep awareness on a human level that ties everyone together, and you have to practice this in your daily life. Everyone in the world too is guilty of some degree of bias for their home nation or ethnicity as that's who the authors are, and should feel no guilt in shame over it, so for every reason that America gets to save the day in action movies and TV shows, I can give leeway that Japan saves the day or a Japanese person saves the world and becomes a globally respected figure. Plus, there's plenty of series in the past that don't have overly explicit Japanese presence, and to some perspectives of people, the law of attraction is real; it's amazing to know how many Japanese American figures there are in American entertainment. Even then, I do believe anime can be made with western tastes in mind, but it can't strictly follow what mainstream thought and standards dictates into today; it's like there's a tradition that's yet to be established for anime out west itself, and it has to realize that on its own.
I'm probably waxing reminscient and nostalgic long on, carrying my old banner and journeying raggedly onward with old ideals intact, but I think it's nice to meet with someone from those passionate days again. Sorry you were a weeaboo though. Personally, I think that baggage is something you must sort through and come to terms on your own, really, if you want to move on from it. At least you're not one right now.