😵‍💫 Skitzocow Stephen William Lafleur / henstepl / Thisismyrofl / Elecbullet - Schizophrenic Arsonist Who Hates Soda

[WolfeTone]

Maybe your interpretation of your dumbness and smartness is overplayed via anxiety, people are smart and dumb in different ways, and it matters little who the smartest person in the room is unless someone has a medical emergency, or who the dumbest person is, unless the room is on fire.

You are you and that's fine and good, from your lowest nadir to your most ecstatic zenith, that's all part of the spectrum of your personality, and shouldn't be muted, but rather, channeled into construction, when you pace, you can do isometric exercise simultaneously, when you feel like popping like popcorn, you can run in a safe place or do jumping jacks, when you feel like your head is going to overflow you could sing, paint, sculpt, when you feel like an animal and are working on your baser instincts you could do pushups until you can't move or just sit and meditate, alone in the void until you find the light.

Just some suggestions homie, you do what you believe is best!

 

[HumptyDumpty]

@henstepl You mentioned earlier you've made hundreds of neologisms. Do you happen to have a list of them? I assume they're not all psychology-related, and I'd be interested to see them.

 

[Edgeworth]

Just some suggestions homie, you do what you believe is best!

Except set floors that aren't yours on fire. Not a good idea regardless of beliefs.

 

[Botchy Galoop]

Hello Stephen. I have been reading your thread with interest and I have a few questions.
Have you had any criminal charges prior to the alleged arson?
Hypothetically, if you were to commit the arson of which you are now accused, what would be it's purpose? Or would it have been an involuntary act, perhaps done out of rage?
Or perhaps would it have been done with the express purpose of getting actual, beneficial treatment from Psych Dr's?
Thanks, and hope you are well today.

 

[WhimsicalTrolli]

Who can hate soda?

 

[ogmudbone]

All this shit reads like a violent retard with behavioral issues.

 

[Coconut Gun]

@henstepl, what exactly do you think you actually have?

 

[HumanHive]

The first words were "stop", and "I fucked up", and now it's things like "I hate my family", "dying", "I want to die", among others, and many repetitions of pleasant interactions from my past. It's more often than not simply muttered if I'm around people, to the extent others probably won't know what I said (but the way these things work, you yourself always know).

You're making a big deal about the coprolalia when it's frankly not a big deal, even though it was alarming when it first started and drove me to doctors in the first place. Now it's mostly just a relic of my developing interpretation of AB-conference, and an indicator that the daily O-void has ended.

Yes, I pace when I'm acting weird, and I am incredibly dopey. I have a bad habit of acting weirdly, then apologizing weirdly, but it's difficult not to apologize when you come out of a zero-intelligence void (and you almost certainly cannot fathom what it means to have zero intelligence). The difference between me at my best and my worst is: the most intelligent man in the room, or the dumbest.

I go to meticulous ends to prepare my brain for any psychiatric event, to the end that I've hangovered myself in Walmart parking lots several times. Often it's insufficient, and the times that I expose doctors to Type B, even at the best of Type B, I end up dissociating and being billed for no progress "and I'll see you in two or three weeks".

If true, this is actually pretty sad. It used to be that mental hospitals would allow for long term observation that could see these sorts of mood swings and cycles, but instead the emphasis is putting the mentally ill back on the street with a bottle of pills they probably won't take but that doesn't matter because then it's THEIR problem and not the problem of any medical professional.

 

[MavisBeaconTeachesSnipin]

Also, no, I have been fired from my job at Subway for acting like a psychopath.

yeah right. I diagnose you with lazy edgelorditis.

 

[Spooky Millepede]

Who can hate soda?

I only like Sprite and hate the rest like Coke, but not enough to burn down a fucking building

 

[WhimsicalTrolli]

I only like Sprite and hate the rest like Coke, but not enough to burn down a fucking building

I love coke, sprite is good but I usually prefer coke.

 

[Underestimated Nutria]

this especially: "I've had a lot of experience with people schizoposting over the last decade and a half". And then you say something about translating what they say, mathematics, etc., their use of jargon.

One bows to your august powerlevel, but spending 15 years online talking to crazy people is not healthy. Also since your powerlevel does not include a degree in medicine and specialty training in psychiatry, I take my learned friend's analysis with a grain of salt.

There is a very interesting (for those who like the subject) TV series called "Broadmoor" available on YT showing the daily life inside a high security psychiatric hospital. What you will see there is very much like any other hospital.

BTW @Null, slightly on thin ice now he has not been convicted for arson, he's an alleged arsonist and might be acquitted - all innocent until proven guilty.

Schizophrenia is actually not complicated to diagnose: there is a list of critera and when those are met it's shizophrenia.

There are also several kinds of schizophrenia, some of which are a medical emergency and need ECT.

Often schizophrenia goes together with substance abuse and withdrawal and it's more complicated.

The ones that post online (the huge majority use the phone just to call) and a subset that is more likely to use mathematics and weird things they pick online.

His high verbal WAIS just denotes that he knows any wods.

Finally the typical hallmarks of schizophrenia are - an false perception of reality, acuatic hallunications in the form of commenting and imperative voices and being very paranoid. They don't take the medicine because they are paranoid, take even less become more paranoid and then the cycle intensifies. Then something happens and they get compulsory medication.

Here you have the official definition of schizophrenia and the subtypes and the definition of the subtypes;

https://www.icd10data.com/ICD10CM/Codes/F01-F99/F20-F29/F20-

Psychiatrists these days don't make any attempt at analysing the content of the delusions/babble. My partner started retraining as a psychiatrist a couple years ago and as much as I like him I can tell you he no more has the tools to do this than any other clever and insightful person.

Personally I have noticed that paranoid schizophrenics are seemingly rational if you take the time to look for missed or unmentioned logical steps and assume their priors for probabilities in everyday life are wildly distorted.

 

[kosher bath salts]

I assume that when you say "psychopathic" you mean "psychotic", right?

I became angry at the refusal of referral above nurse practitioner level and found her University email and began sending her angry emails. I didn't threaten her, but you know how I write.

I can relate. Colleges are extremely retarded about stuff like email formatting, some professors can think you're too polite, and thus a pussy, or not polite enough, thus, they will consider you for disciplinary actions.
But colleges are guilds, so you either kiss the ring or you have no place among its oligarchy.
An unfortunate reality.

"I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist." Tried going in while unmedicated, was billed twice for unpointing recusal. Jesus, there was a moment when the doctor walked up as if he was about to tell her I didn't have to pay for the unpointing recusal, and then he walked away. Jesus Christ I hate him.

"I don't think you have anything to apologize for." He just didn't care and didn't point me anywhere to get a diagnosis.

Those two just sound like your average uncaring shrink to me.

Not sure if I dissociated, but I literally overheated until my mouth clicked from dryness,

Sounds like an effect of pseudoeph to me, that or the encephalitis already got to you by that time.
But dry mouth is a common effect of many meds, including anti-psychotics.

And somebody that can scold a doctor when the doctor is billing you money to not care, because sometimes it's a matter of public safety that men remain unpsychiatried.

Based and Jokerpilled?

 

[assdick42069]

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All right. I have gone back and slightly edited the original bullet list. But I elaborated it like an unapologetic Type A, so now I will go into detail about what went wrong.

1. Substance Abuse Disorder + Tourette Syndrome and receptionist instructed to send me to addict house Earliest diagnosis from the earliest emergence of alarming coprolalia. I went back years later for a high-level referral. What went wrong is I gave the receptionist my name because I'd called myself a psychopath and she was scared. Rather than come back and face the doctor, the doctor got to decide in absentia I would be telephoned: just an addict.
2. Tourette Syndrome, just an early diagnosis back when I was more alarmed by coprolalia.
3. Tourette Syndrome and called campus security to ban me I became angry at the refusal of referral above nurse practitioner level and found her University email and began sending her angry emails. I didn't threaten her, but you know how I write.
4. (Adderall farm) Refused treatment for citing sources and correcting doctor on Adderall XR dosing (I don't use Adderall anymore) This was an unfortunate occurrence when I was using Adderall, but my information was correct.
5. Receptionist instructed to lie that the doctor has retired, after 0 appointments I probably mentioned that I didn't agree with what prior doctors had said, and this didn't interpret well in my absence.
6. "I think you need to see a psych-i-a-trist, not a psychologist." Tried going in while unmedicated, was billed twice for unpointing recusal. Jesus, there was a moment when the doctor walked up as if he was about to tell her I didn't have to pay for the unpointing recusal, and then he walked away. Jesus Christ I hate him.
7. Receptionist instructed to cry and call to beg me to go to hospital instead for, presumably, haloperidol I'd just decided I had to hangover for every appointment, and filled an intake form to say that I "had a psychopath in my head".
8. Receptionist instructed to lie that therapy schedules full, after 1 appointment I'd asked for the psychologist but got directed to the therapist by the receptionist. I dissociated in appointment, became angry when I later psychopathized, and left instructions on the door of the facility.
9. Receptionist directed me to ER and closed glass window Since admitting your psychopathy doesn't work while not a psychopath, I hangovered myself to become a psychopath. I did not say it in any threatening way, simply a truthful way, and I was turned away.
10. Refused referral at ER, chased out by four police Not sure if I dissociated, but I literally overheated until my mouth clicked from dryness, in trying to avoid a $3000 bill for no high-level referral. Had to sit down, felt better, wrote something on paper, police threw my paper in the trash and I called one of them piece of shit faggot. I think I scared the police, and it's quite pleasurable to remember. I was still hangovered.
11. Called campus security to ban me Having just discovered Sudafed PE, I became depressed and went to my old university counseling services. They declined to point me anywhere. I tried calling the police on myself but this only alarmed everyone, got nothing done except a campus ban. Acting weird due to unmedicated state.
12. Asperger Syndrome Refused accommodation of "two men in the room" after three requests, dissociated in spite of hangover, forced to stutter to admit psychopathy. Refused referral above nurse practitioner level. Interesting for producing the AB-contested state of all my AB-contested states.
13. Ran from the room and sent girls to refer me to the psych ward Was not hangovered, only wanted to take Sudafed PE in front of her face so I could un-dissociate and discuss my encephalitis concerns. I'd invited a guard into the room.
14. (Psych Ward) Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, and Aleve is a placebo though we won't watch you take it This conclusion wouldn't have held up in court. Also a sizable insurance scandal.
15. "Delusion Disorder/Alcohol" referring to encephalitis Simply unfortunate insurance scandal, but I wish someone had had a non-trivial discussion of encephalitis with me.
16. (Called mother and told her I was an addict) This was my family doctor who had sourced me neurosurgeon referral. I guess he heard back from her. Simply unfortunate.
17. (Psych Ward) Psychotic Disorder/Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Specified I became terrified of more insurance scandals, decided to try for a room with a doctor and a judge at the same time, but this only got me dragged by police to hospital. I dissociated in the ER because it is a receptionry, and the initial consequential interview for the Big Reason I Was There became badly informed. I informed the doctor of the glutamate deficiency and he just didn't want to talk about it.
18. "I don't think you have anything to apologize for." He just didn't care and didn't point me anywhere to get a diagnosis.

I obviously go on about the mobilizations of girls, and you can see those, but I've separately said that scary men have much to fear from receptionries (places where decisions are made by or on behalf of men not in the room) and I later discovered unscoldingries (places where unscoldable men can make decisions that wouldn't hold up in court).

I would describe 1, 3, 5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 12, 14, 15, 17 as failings due to receptionries, because the ER is a receptionry and the ward is a receptionry. I increasingly took measures to get around the receptionry, only to find at its end unscoldable men billing me to profess plain disinterest to my face.

I know you are inclined to read malicious appearances from some of these, but in instances such as 9 I'm guilty of nothing more than making barefaced claims with a calm face while psychopathic. A number of occurrences and dissociations have led me to desire the presence of police in the room at doctors' appointments. Big-Fucking-Deal psychiatry.

And somebody that can scold a doctor when the doctor is billing you money to not care, because sometimes it's a matter of public safety that men remain unpsychiatried.

Instructed by whom?

 

[henstepl]

I assume that when you say "psychopathic" you mean "psychotic", right?

Sounds like an effect of pseudoeph to me, that or the encephalitis already got to you by that time.
But dry mouth is a common effect of many meds, including anti-psychotics.

No... A/b, adrenaline/serotonin, is a psychopath. Psychiatrists get to say psychopaths don't exist because when they do, they're forced out of their element to receive treatment, and then they're just told Asperger syndrome or some shit. But psychopathy exists, and I've felt it. It's intoxicating, and it's very angry.

I take phenylephrine, not pseudoephedrine. Adrenergics and cholinergics don't have to cross into the brain to work. They're part of systems that extend outwards. It got me out of an ER visit when I abducted so hard I couldn't breathe. Sudafed PE fixed me.

Hello Stephen. I have been reading your thread with interest and I have a few questions.
Have you had any criminal charges prior to the alleged arson?
Hypothetically, if you were to commit the arson of which you are now accused, what would be it's purpose? Or would it have been an involuntary act, perhaps done out of rage?
Or perhaps would it have been done with the express purpose of getting actual, beneficial treatment from Psych Dr's?
Thanks, and hope you are well today.

I'm going to deftly decline to answer your question while I posit something entirely unrelated:

I could write you three theses that would shake the foundations of psychiatry. I could write you five, or seven. I could write so many Big If Trues that I'd start to wonder if what I'd written had drifted into the unworthy near the end. And if you are to condemn me, you'd better be ready to promise that every one of them is false.

And thesis the first is that there are kids with carbonation grimace who don't know that they have glutamate hypofunction, and that breaks my heart. That is the moral crisis of my life. If kiwiFarms can't do anything about that, maybe they can find the unmedicated homeless and convince themselves of the schizophrenia test. The schizophrenia test isn't heartbreaking, but it might prove that I know the schizophrenic brain.

 

[naught sock account 1]

Hey, all right, I hear you. I will address all your concerns in the best way I can before too long, but I've passed through the psychopathy void for this night, and I've already taken sleepy guanfacine.

Tomorrow will be a Type B day. I will be a very different person.

how did that work out?

 

[Hellion]

Also, no, I have been fired from my job at Subway for acting like a psychopath.

Hi Steven, welcome to the Farms.

You talk about acting like a psychopath... could you list which symptoms of psychopathy you have (whether they are present all the time or only sometimes). and give us some behavioural examples linked to each one?

In case you're interested, here's an online version of the Hare Psychopathy Checklist (PCL-R), in case you want to find out your severity.

 

[Phil Ken Sebben]

All this shit reads like a violent retard with behavioral issues.

That's exactly what it is. Some sperg that thinks he's somehow special when in reality he's just got poor impulse control and hates fizzy drinks. So he creates a fake syndrome because it makes him feel special and means he's not being a dickbag on purpose.

 

[The Cum Consumer]

Who can hate soda?

I don't like fizz. Actually, henstepl what does that make me?

 

[Rungle]

@Null so hold the fuck up.
Why did SIGSEV get banned for making a threat harming innocent people and this dude threatened and did arson but we still allow his crazy ass on the site?