Let's quit smoking! - (screaming internally)

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The weather is finally warming up and every time I walk out into the sun the unprompted thought of "Wow a smoke would be great right now!" makes me hate myself
 
I started smoking while i was looking for a new house and selling mine. I hadn't really had a stressful time moving ever. This time I think it was more normal and it was stressful as fuck. I started smoking. Historically I could go a few months and drop it. This time I was not as lucky. Its been almost two years and im at a pack a day. I got lozenges and patches, but I've found that's like half the issue. The habit itself is hardcore. That moment in liminality I've found I'm really addicted to. Its brutal, and expensive. I never gave much thought to people saying quitting smoking is hardcore. Not that I didn't believe it, I just never had the experience myself.
 
I decided to quit (again) after being hospitalized, since I had no choice but to not smoke for a few days. I've successfully resisted "one last time" so far and it's been a week now since my last smoke. The worst cravings are hitting after eating and at night. It's mostly the hand-to-mouth, taking a drag, exhaling, flicking into an ashtray... I'm tempted to buy one of those breathing necklaces to help but then I feel like I shouldn't give in to those habits either. Ugh
 
Just realised it's been 2.5 years today. Can barely believe it. I was such an addict.

Still think of it sometimes, but by the grace of God have managed to get further than I ever thought possible. Keep going, keep trying Kiwi-quitters!

It's brutal as fuck, especially if you're someone who needs to keep their shit together due to their responsibilities but it IS possible. Just keep trucking through the hard times and refuse to give in no matter what it's doing to you.
 
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