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That's the worst part. There's plenty of people who want to work, but the hiring manager will find ways to not hire (lately "no family" despite the workplace legitimately being 75% related in one way or another). And it's just food service jobs.
I finally got my foot into a marketing office a year after university and it felt like such an achievement. Then I talk around and hear that literally half the employees are a relative or a partner. Three didn't even speak the language and were hired almost as a way to rope the first hire in. Go back 50 years and that'd be a couple earning real estate type money in life-long employment. The way it should be. :(
I'm on a computer screen ten hours a day where I'm a "closer." Think how hard it is to sleep, then wake up for the next day. No time for basically anything, even the necessities. Let me say that for anybody out there working, it isn't worth it to work your life away.
"Bro get into IT bro it's so easy bro I work from home and play games bro" is the modern equivalent of a blue collar worker taking extra shifts. It normalizes work; erases any life you have outside of it but you can't fault people for making money so they keep 'hustling' and bragging about it. I say as I picked up an extra shift myself but I do fuck-all with my life so nothing to ruin. :)
It didn't hit me until really recently how little I actually had, how much of my life wasn't even mine. That's been depressing, but in the end a good thing.
What is life if not the associations you've made? What is "your own" life? Hobbies you can do alone? We're a tribalistic animal; you can do nothing of your own volition that defines you as a person because nobody would know if you're alone about it. It's why people put stickers on their cars; "please acknowledge that I fish!".
It's not you. The market is fucked.
It's why doomerism is so addictive. Even as someone who's relatively optimistic and hopeful, it's simply out of our control. When I got out of university, I got that "I don't try hard enough" vibe and it might've been true then, but now? I can be a perfect fit only to learn they put up the post as a feeler for the market. Companies deserve the AI applications. At this point I'm just treading water until the market implodes and we see companies branding themselves on not hiring REAL POWER #NATIONALPRIDE #NOCLANKERS. As if that'll ever happen.
 
Hunted down a fox that was absolutely ravaging the neighborhood. Missed the first 3 shots with my m246g pressure rifle i bought from a chink. Worked pretty well but its already worned down. Only cost me $15.64 so its not a bad purchase i would say.
 
What is life if not the associations you've made? What is "your own" life? Hobbies you can do alone? We're a tribalistic animal; you can do nothing of your own volition that defines you as a person because nobody would know if you're alone about it. It's why people put stickers on their cars; "please acknowledge that I fish!".
Total hogwash. I was saying the complete opposite.
My life wasn't mine because I based it on the external validation and company of other people. Your life is only yours when you decide what you want to do for yourself without basing it on other people's evaluations and expectations. So many people base their value on what they can provide for others and in turn what others can provide for them. When you truly decide what you like, what you want your life to be and what you're willing to do to get that, that's when things open up for you.
Don't shun others. They can be along for the ride. You can have amazing experiences with them. But if you base your existence on other people, you'll always fall short because no one else can love you as much as you choose to love yourself.
 
I got in a minor car accident like a month ago and my life has gone so downhill since then that I’ve had moments of genuine insanity, the worse panic I’ve ever felt in my life and so many sleepless nights that I don’t even remember what it’s like feeling well rested anymore
I wanted to go to the hospital to be checked over and make sure I didn’t get a concussion or something but my boyfriend told me I didn’t and I’d be fine, and now I’m thinking that was probably a mistake because this just isn’t normal after such a mild accident
Everything sucks my fellow kiwis
Everything sucks
 
"Just trust your body!"
lol, lmao
"Doing something makes me so miserable I can't take it anymore."
"Keep doing it, idiot."

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Alright kiwis, I’m gonna dedicate one day to following Petite’s advice.
Unless you'd be admitting to something illegal and immoral like touching kids inappropriately, and the friendship is over just because you aren't agreeing 1:1 on everything ("ew, you like MLP? We can't be friends") then there wasn't a whole lot of friendship to start with.
Enjoy whatever gives your life some whimsy. Be as true to yourself as you dare. Be free from other people's judgement. Believe me when I say that it's better to live in solitude, enjoying harmless things that hurts literally no one in the comfort of your own home than to be "popular" and hiding your true self.
If you wanna be a furry with a fursuit, go for it. If you want to hold hands with another woman, go for it. If you want to enjoy Bluey, go for it.

I get it, I really do. I would have a hard time putting a lid on the things that bring me joy in exchange for someone elses company. I don't tell the whole world about my anime plastic crap because the world doesn't need to know (ironic statement, I know) but it's not because I'm ashamed, it's because it's none of their business. But if I go join the other nerds in the local game store or comic book store, they would understand and we could share pictures of how we display our collections etc.

Just don't be a lolcow about it.
And then I’ll report how I feel. Right now I’m really tired though and will probably be going back to bed

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What is life if not the associations you've made? What is "your own" life? Hobbies you can do alone? We're a tribalistic animal; you can do nothing of your own volition that defines you as a person because nobody would know if you're alone about it. It's why people put stickers on their cars; "please acknowledge that I fish!".
Total hogwash. I was saying the complete opposite.
My life wasn't mine because I based it on the external validation and company of other people. Your life is only yours when you decide what you want to do for yourself without basing it on other people's evaluations and expectations. So many people base their value on what they can provide for others and in turn what others can provide for them. When you truly decide what you like, what you want your life to be and what you're willing to do to get that, that's when things open up for you.
Don't shun others. They can be along for the ride. You can have amazing experiences with them. But if you base your existence on other people, you'll always fall short because no one else can love you as much as you choose to love yourself.
I think you're both right in a way. I think people need some sort of balance between pursuing things for themselves and being acknowledged and associating with others.
It also greatly depends on where you are in life at a given time. Basing your view of yourself too much on others is a bad thing, but being entirely locked in on yourself for too long isn't good either.
For me, I think I've spent most of my recent years focusing on myself so to speak, to the point where I've become too isolated within myself. I don't know how to find my people, or who my people would even be, I don't know where I belong, maybe I don't know who I really am anymore.
 
I am sorry. I am in a similar boat, golden handcuff situation.
That's a perfect analogy. If you're not working, you're sleeping. If half your days are just working, you're essentially "stuck" since you are afforded much free time. It's not like you can just up and quit since you need insurance and income for stability.
 
no one else can love you as much as you choose to love yourself.
That explains a lot of things. I need to lie down.
I got in a minor car accident like a month ago and my life has gone so downhill since then that I’ve had moments of genuine insanity, the worse panic I’ve ever felt in my life and so many sleepless nights that I don’t even remember what it’s like feeling well rested anymore
I wanted to go to the hospital to be checked over and make sure I didn’t get a concussion or something but my boyfriend told me I didn’t and I’d be fine, and now I’m thinking that was probably a mistake because this just isn’t normal after such a mild accident
Everything sucks my fellow kiwis
Everything sucks
Go. Go see a doctor. Normally you'd get checked over regardless of how mild the accident is because you could get whiplash from a relatively small impact. Besides, it sounds like you have a minor trauma that makes you panic. Either case, you should get a professional to check you out as I am not a doctor, nor am I a psychiatrist.

You'll either get a green light that you're okay, or they can help you with whatever ails you. You lose nothing from going.
 
"Just trust your body!"
lol, lmao
I'm sorry but what is this fucking faggotry on display?
And it's not just him. I've been noticing that a bit too much lately on this thread.

"I think I'm moving because I'm unhappy where I am."
"Don't. You'll be miserable anywhere and everywhere. Nothing good is waiting for you."

"I'm having a better perspective on things after seriously considering suicide for a couple of weeks."
"Lawl bro held hands with a girl. W T fuck dawg. You'll be deepthroating a gun in no time. I bet you kiss girls on the mouth, faggot."

"I'm unhappy doing the thing I've been doing for a while."
"Listen to your body. Advice?1! Fuck this bitch. I got no suggestions or help to offer so I'm just going to be a cunt."

Seriously. What the fuck is this shit? This is a little too many crabs in this bucket right now. I know we're the site for being "real" with people but being so blackpilled since your own life is not where you want to be that you have to tear anybody down who might be fixing theirs' or anyone who even offers to help is absolute clown behavior.
Know better, do better.
 
I suffer from really bad sleep schedule lately. Go to bed at 1 and wake up at 8 and my body aint keeping up with it no more and is just actively sleeping over the alarm.
 
I don't think I'm doing enough with my life. I'll be doing Muay Thai ontop of jew jitsu though so I'll be doing martial arts 4 times a week so that might fix it. I'm a fat fuckin piglet at 20.5% BF so I'm working on losing that again, this time I'll drop all the way down to 12% BF instead of me stopping at 18%.

Also my lawn still has that retarded ass dirt scar and I know for a fact the neighbors hate my fuckin ass lol.

I feel really trapped in this town because of my retarded ass mortgage and I feel like if I can just get out of here my life will improve for the better but I saw a funny ass post on /biz/ a month ago of some dude saying "So when will your Real Life begin?" which is exactly whats happening, and I feel like my entire life has just been "preparation for my Real Life™." I mean I'm not a desiccating corpse (30) yet, I'm coming up on my mid 20s but I've been running on "I have time, just grind"

I'm already going to the gym, losing weight and doing MMA. I wanna do Buhurt but thats gonna cost me $4k to buy armor and swords and shit. Maybe fencing?

Kiwibros let me know if you have any suggestions.
 
I'm drinking shitty beer, drawing out a map of the United States, and overlaying transparent paper and drawing routes I'd love to travel in the future with coloring pencils. As well as restaurants I've always wanted to eat at and places I've wanted to see, listening to my records at full blast.
I have no work on the morning.
I'm good.
 
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