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[Getmeout]

I'd recommend any song on the self titled album, you could just listen to the first song and get a good idea of the band imo. Though I've been mostly listening to the demos on repeat but I wouldn't subject anyone to that

I’m listening to this

https://youtu.be/Dh4YRHTJLAs

This is just good, there’s no way you can’t find someone who doesn’t like this. Maybe I’m just insane but this is just like normal good music to me. Then again I unironically like BOTDF.

ETA: I’m listening more, I’m in love, where has this been all my life

 

[Wigger Rights Advocate]

I’m listening to this
https://youtu.be/Dh4YRHTJLAs

LMAO that's my favorite song lowkey...

Then again I unironically like BOTDF.

I like a couple songs too shhh don't tell anyone

 

[Getmeout]

LMAO that's my favorite song lowkey...

It’s just good, I don’t know what to tell ya, I’m probably gonna listen to more if I don’t forget! He reminds me of SOAD, he has chaotic energy I like. I kinda wanna see his demos now

I like a couple songs too shhh don't tell anyone

You get ostracized from alt communities cause of it since it’s “problematic” and “all his songs are about child rape” (only like 2 are and it’s very obvious which ones so they’re easy to avoid), but as long as I’m not giving money to him I mean. Come on. Bewitched and Death To Your Heart are just good, man

 

[Otterly]

I don't enjoy sex or intimacy

I mean this genuinely, why date then? If you don’t like the sex side of it or the affection side?

Within 24 hours of being in the US, a random grandma told me I looked "like no fun". Is that what you consider talking to people? I'd gladly be without, then.

I don’t know about American old ladies but they cannot possibly be meaner than old Scandinavian ladies, who have meanness down to an Olympic sport. Come visit the north of England, sit at a bus stop and people will talk to you. Sit there an hour and you’ll have someone’s life story.

Mr. Bungle

What?

 

[The Last Stand]

You probably just don’t want a relationship/like sex. Which is normal, you don’t need either.

Thank you. I don't want kids, but family wants to push that onto me.

 

[long waters]

@Wigger Rights Advocate and @Getmeout say, speaking of weird or niche bands, have you heard of Waltari? Check out the Big Bang album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kx0bSW39wnU&list=OLAK5uy_kqoC_m6O7eQCfpPUHhBrq8oqyh0-BaGT8

 

[Getmeout]

@Wigger Rights Advocate and @Getmeout say, speaking of weird or niche bands, have you heard of Waltari? Check out the Big Bang album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kx0bSW39wnU&list=OLAK5uy_kqoC_m6O7eQCfpPUHhBrq8oqyh0-BaGT8

Never heard of them, your link didn’t work for me so I had to search them up myself. Listening to this rn and honestly? It’s fucking amazing

https://youtu.be/YtgRGk-BjWk

Sounds like something out of a video game boss level. This is funky as fuck holy shit.

Thank you. I don't want kids, but family wants to push that onto me.

Absolutely not everyone should be having kids, I mean the way I see it, the fact that some religions have priests be celibate shows to me that objectively not everyone should have kids. Some people just can’t be parents and that’s ok.

 

[The Last Stand]

I don’t know about American old ladies but they cannot possibly be meaner than old Scandinavian ladies, who have meanness down to an Olympic sport.

Depends on their mood or location. Some of them are bitter as vinegar, confused as a blind snail, or just THERE.

Right now, I'm too tired to be upset so everything's fine for the time being.

 

[ilovecornsyrup]

I mean this genuinely, why date then? If you don’t like the sex side of it or the affection side?

To feel normal. I don't want to feel broken when others are falling in love and starting families.

I have enough experience but never with someone I genuinely loved, and there's a small delusional part of me that believes if I just find the right woman it will click into place and it will be nothing like the past hundred times and all that.

It's almost like getting lottery tickets

 

[long waters]

Never heard of them, your link didn’t work for me so I had to search them up myself. Listening to this rn and honestly? It’s fucking amazing
https://youtu.be/YtgRGk-BjWk Sounds like something out of a video game boss level. This is funky as fuck holy shit.

Ahh, probably because you're on mobile and the desktop playlist link format messes up somehow?
Hope you like em hah. Figure someone who likes Mr Bungle would enjoy their weirdness.
I'm not a big fan of Mr Bungle myself, they're too weird for me to handle.

 

[Otterly]

never with someone I genuinely loved

Have you ever been in love? It’s not an easy thing to find for sure

 

[ilovecornsyrup]

Have you ever been in love? It’s not an easy thing to find for sure

No, never. But I also don't really know what that's supposed to feel like.

It sounds great when other people talk about it though. I don't want my childhood to have robbed me of that forever.

 

[Getmeout]

Ahh, probably because you're on mobile and the desktop playlist link format messes up somehow?
Hope you like em hah. Figure someone who likes Mr Bungle would enjoy their weirdness.
I'm not a big fan of Mr Bungle myself, they're too weird for me to handle.

“they’re” it’s a BAND? I thought it was just one guy named Mr. Bungle, lol, I’m stupid.
You ever listened to Brokencyde? I doubt you’d like them but even though I’m not the biggest fan of the lyrics omg I just looove the screaming

https://youtu.be/Qa6qpgLvH30

Thread tax: Ok, the self hating racial thoughts are back again, once again I am thinking it’d be a good thing if a white person shot me and curbstomped me. But that’s ok! Cause now I can test out what coping mechanism works the best!
Trying out distractions first, gonna cook and play a video game.

No, never. But I also don't really know what that's supposed to feel like.

That’s a big thing tbh, what even is love supposed to feel like? People always say “It’s just a feeling, yknow?” And it’s like. No, I don’t know.

Sexual arousal is even more confusing to me. I think people are aesthetically pretty but that’s it, I just think they’re pretty to look at like a statue or a nice painting. The idea of looking at someone and wanting to have sex with them is so foreign to me. I used to be able to feel that way but after 16 when I got into Christianity I just stopped feeling it.

 

[Halo Cipher]

Guy I was dating for the past few months ended up being incredibly intimidated by my confidence and maturity, and elected to take the coward’s way out. By the end he was very insecure and couldn’t look me in the eyes because we both knew he couldn’t handle me. He tried to take me down a peg at the end to make himself feel better for blowing up a good thing, I didn’t take the bait, I left with a smile, and we both know he’s retarded for that. I feel zero because I did nothing wrong, I was very good to him and I did not deserve that. Asshole.

Had a shit date the same day with an autist who did not let me talk and blabbed about his exes constantly and some guy he knew that kept collecting cans of beans? Terrible. Longest hour of my life. He couldn’t look me in the eyes either.

Met someone else that night who met my eye contact just fine, I felt very at home with him, and then he stood me up two days later. Dick.

Fuck I hate dating. It’s just this stupid carousel of men who find my direct and expressive nature to be something terrifying. The horrors persist but so do I.

 

[long waters]

You ever listened to Brokencyde? I doubt you’d like them but even though I’m not the biggest fan of the lyrics omg I just looove the screaming
https://youtu.be/Qa6qpgLvH30

Lmfao it's like I'm listening to Lil Jon mixed with some teens screaming.

 

[Neurotypical Mantis]

Get your iron levels checked. Hb, ferritin, and get the actual numbers. If you’re late thirties onwards then ask about perimenopause. Both peri and iron deficiency (and vitamin d deficiency) can cause joint pain and feeling exhausted.

i've gotten many a blood test in my time and i do have a slight issue with low iron, but i'm 23 and these symptoms have been going on for years. i chalked it up to them being separate issues but now that i tick all the boxes i'm a little concerned. still, if i know what's going on, i'll know how to deal with it

 

[long waters]

Fuck I hate dating. It’s just this stupid carousel of men who find my direct and expressive nature to be something terrifying. The horrors persist but so do I.

Ouch, I feel your struggles but at the same time I'd 100% be the autist who can't maintain eye contact and yaps about random stuff. Everyone has their own kind of hardships. Keep on keeping on!

 

[Getmeout]

Lmfao it's like I'm listening to Lil Jon mixed with some teens screaming.

I KNOW RIGHT ISN’T IT GREAT????

 

[long waters]

I KNOW RIGHT ISN’T IT GREAT????

Uh, yeah, sure.
Nah, I like moody old man music more, like Low Roar https://youtu.be/cO6FjSqivHU
Or maybe Coil https://youtu.be/W5zlA1xmuno
Or if it's gonna have screaming it has to be something more gutural and primal like early SWANS.

 

[Getmeout]

Uh, yeah, sure.
Nah, I like moody old man music more, like Low Roar https://youtu.be/cO6FjSqivHU
Or maybe Coil https://youtu.be/W5zlA1xmuno
Or if it's gonna have screaming it has to be something more gutural and primal like early SWANS.

Ah, an old head I see, I respect that. My favorite screaming is like… I dunno, just… Loud.
Descriptive of me, I know