@The_Cowcel
Nigga. You sit in front of your stupid computer, alone, in your stupid room. You probably eat shit food, sleep at unreasonable hours, jerk off to whatever smut you jerk off to daily, abuse substances and then you come here and wallow in your self pity like a pig rolling in its own shit.
You do not live and behave like a human being has evolved to live and behave. Your biology will not adapt to this lifestyle. You're already falling apart at least mentally as you have demonstrated ITT.
Women are the least of your concerns right now. You need to fix yourself before any help will come. Such is the truth of life on this earth. Nobody wants you when you're down. People, male and female can just smell your condition from a mile away. You will not attract anyone, especially a partner by continuing down this path.
Fix your shit little by little. Focus on the immidiate 24 hours. Start by easy things then work your way up the difficulty ladder:
1. Hygiene. Fix your fucking appearance. Put on some new clothes from time to time. Shave and shower.
2. Sleep. Get enough sleep at decent fucking hours (anywhere between 22:00 and 10:00, 6-10 hours depending on genetics. I'd expect you'll need more sleep in your current physical and mental state. above 12 for a couple of days is normal. just get enough)
3. Diet. Cut the sugar and other shitty slop you consume out. No more frozen pizzas and hotpockets. Eat normal food. Your gut communicates directly with your brain. If you fill it with shit you'll feel like shit.
4. Get out of your room. Walk. Take long walks. I don't expect you to be able to talk to anyone right now. Just walk, see the green, feel the sun on your skin. You're not meant to sit in concrete walls 24/7.
5. Exercise. Start by going easy on yourself and increase the intensity and frequency little by little. Can you do 10 push ups? give me 10 for starters. You can find everything you need on the internet. Honestly how you train and what exercises you do and with what form are of secondary importance. Just start moving.
5.5. While we are at it, now that you will have SOMETHING to do with yourself why don't you cut the computer out. Let's say one hour less per day for one week. Then two hours less. Then three. Anything is better than reading this brainrot you've been reading and doing what you've been doing in front of that screen.
6. Alcohol/drugs/nicotine/whatever - out. now. go to rehab if you need to. just cut it out.
6.5. Your mental help needs professional help. Nobody on this forum will help you. Some of them are worse than you. I can't help you. Seek behavioral theraphy. And probably for your addictions too.
7. Join your local AA group. You need to open your mouth to people. You may not like it but it's necessary. Start with your local AA I'd say. They'll listen to you and try to understand. Just maybe don't talk about your thoughts about women too much. Tell them about your day or something.
THEN after a couple of weeks of normalization you can move on to seeking hobbies, getting a job and THEN you may be able to attract friends and more.
I am definitely not a good or decent person myself. I've been to low places. I've hurt other people including women who were foolish enough to have trusted me. But trust me that however low you are there is no pit of despair you can't drag yourself out of.
It brings me no satisfaction seeing you like this and this is probably the realest post I've ever made on this website and it will probably the realest post I'll make for a long time. Good luck to you. Man to man.
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