Another update.
I have decided that I am done with Lizzy. It is over. Finished once and for all. After being on the receiving end of a constant barrage of abuse and reviled attack after attack, I can not take it anymore. Even before Lizzy was psychotic, she was still very controlling and emotionally manipulative. I have realized she is actually a vulnerable narcissist when she is 'well.' I lost all sense of rational in the state of highly emotional thinking and became addicted to the relationship. This is why I have found it so hard to walk away and stood by her, even though it is quite evident she is a lost cause. Now I look back, the fog has cleared and I am seeing what I involved in clearly for the first time. Lizzy is a perpetual victim of existence, and I have a diametricallly opposed attitude to life. Quite simply, you make your bed and you lie in it.
She told me today that I was 'dead' to her the day after we got married. She maybe psychotic, but I think in many ways she was revealing her pathology in that statement before she found herself in the midst of this schizophrenic episode.
I don't want anything to do with her anymore. I am walking away for good and that is final. The situation has become to unbearable, too toxic and I have to look out for my own well being. My compassion and patience has been exhausted and I have no more to give with respect to her. I give up.
Lizzy if you are reading this, please don't bother contacting me. If you have any grievances or want to discuss the logistic of the divorce, you can hire a lawyer to contact me on your behalf.
Lastly, I am going to stay in San Dieg, as the I have a great job, the weather is beautiful and fuck going back to Europe with the mass COVID tyranny Americans are by and large, free from.
God Bless America, and God Bless Kiwi Farms.
Peace.