I just cant bring myself to trust them. Like Ill never belive they could see me as a women, ever. Like i puke at the idea that cis people could atcually be "loving." All the things they say just feel like like there shouting "Get over it your tranny male!" I dont like the idea of ever trusting cis women, what would they know about me. Any atempt by them to relate feels dry, and shallow. It feels like there basically saying, "Are you serious, we have it worse then you nothing youve gone through matters, fuck you you fag man!." I hate it i trust nobody. I feel like the only thing that they can do will see us as a fetizhe. I feel like a fake women, a hairy imposter. My body is to ugly, im to big, im to tall, im to hairy, my smell is off, my shoulders are to wide, i dont have a chest, i dont have anything. I dont know why but even when they try to relate to me it makes me angry. they wouldnt understand. I mena all that "women positivity" stuff is only really for cis women. We have to be fem enough, we have to be all that enough for cis women to even see us as women. I hate it i
am a tomboy not femme, but since im a tomboy ill be even less of a women to other Nomen, I hate it so much. WHen anyother trans person vents there like "Yeah your life sucks." As soom as that person a trans women i feel like there trying to talk over us Prove some sort of point that "You tranny male dont have it bad enough fuck you." I dont trust cis people one bit im scared of them, im so scared of cis people. They hate us and pretend to like us. People liking me makes me feel ill. I hate it so much. THere scary, they cant like us they have to be faking
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