I used to be a leftist. There were many things that disillusioned me over the years. One of those things was identity politics. They abandoned egalitarianism, then decided that racism, bigotry, and xenophobia are only bad when white people do it. Straight white men in particular became public enemy number one. So now the left fully endorses hate as long as it's the right people doing the hating. They also replaced the idea of equality with equity. Equal opportunity and equality before the law were no longer good enough. White guilt and privileges for white women, minorities, and immigrants became the new mantra of the left. The biggest, and saddest, irony is that while the left claims to hate what they perceive as "white male privilege," they also hypocritically push for privileges for everyone else. What makes it worse is that none of these aforementioned people are held to any of these lofty left-liberal standards. For example, they don't care if blacks are racist to Latinos and Asians. Likewise, it's no big deal that black churchs and Muslims are religious fundamentalists because at least they're not white men! This is even more insiduous with their whole "cultural appropriation" bullshit. Never mind that cultural diffusion is a normal part of human society and history. Never mind that in a multicultural society that people are bound to share and borrow their customs, traditions, and ideas. Everyone must keep to their own kind no matter what though, because, according to the left, it's colonialism or whatever nonsense they're spewing.
In addition to the above, they use identity politics as an excuse to do other authoritarian actions such as censorship, personality cults, doublethink, thought policing, historical negationism, collective punishment, and anti-intellectualism. They have their own excuses, but they're now doing the same shit they claimed they hated the right for doing. It's not okay and it never will be. What made this worse is that it wasn't just a far left thing. The so-called center left, which the Democrats claim to be, also promote this bullshit. The whole goddamn liberal-left spectrum is awful. Everything is offensive and problematic to these people. I've said this before and I'll say it again, they want to turn our society into a sterile totalitarian hugbox. They want totalitarian control over popular culture and people's private lives. They want to erase history too. One thing they share in common with the right is their aversion to individuality too by the way. You must conform and be a part of the collective! How dare you ask questions, disagree, or think in any capacity!
Then there's the structural matters, such as economics. They unironically believe that going full socialist/communist is a panacea to all our problems. Most of them really do want to take away any type of private ownership. Personally, I still think some very limited forms of common ownership can be okay, but these people want to collectivize or nationalize nearly everything and that's ridiculous. This is just as awful as them micromanaging people's thoughts and popular culture. It's like Frank Zappa said, people want to own things!
To be fair, I don't consider myself a conservative or rightist. There are still things I disagree with the right about. For instance, I'm staunchly atheist and support science and technology. Despite that, I love religious studies, including Christianity, and support freedom of religion. I know science and technology aren't perfect and can be politicized like anything else. Also, I'm aware that big business can be a corrupting influence on those too. I'm also a civil libertarian, so naturally I don't like it when the right pushes for authoritarianism. On the same note, I find so-called white collectivism just as cringey and stupid as socialism and communism. Another thing both sides share in common is their hatred for dissent. Neither want you to question authority, whether it's tradtional or revolutionary authority. The right doesn't want you to question tradition, but on the same note the left doesn't want you to question change. I know the left generally likes to claim that change is inherently good, but history shows that change is not always good or necessary. Likewise, tradition isn't always bad or unnecessary.
These days I consider myself an independent. I feel awkward calling myself a centrist only because it has the connotation of being a fence-sitter which I am not. I very much have strong beliefs. I just have a hodgepodge of beliefs that can fall under either category.
TLDR: The left became the regressive left and alienated me. I am an independent with a mix of beliefs. Thank you for reading my long sperg-out if you did. It could have been longer, but I'm not going to bore you guys with a quasi-manifesto.