Looking forward to more energy hopefully, I think @Ughubughughughughughghlug said something about that a long time ago.
I do not remember what you're referencing, but if you stop drinking you will be considerably less fatigued. Anecdotally, my brother was an alcoholic (far worse than me) and after three years of sobriety he describes feeling much better in every sense, which physical energy is part of.
Recently I had a pretty awful experience getting drunk on moonshine and I scared myself. I was playing with a gun, actually, not so much actually intending to shoot myself but familiarizing myself with it, get used to it. Things had seemed to turn around pretty well, and they did, really, but after a failed job search and some other setbacks and the prospective of working here another year, the idea of just not having to be alive anymore was appealing. Really just don't want to have to worry or make decisions anymore. I figured that if I ever did it it would be a spur-of-the-moment, impulsive thing, don't think about it, just do it. I guess a lot scarier and riskier but less mean would be driving myself over a cliff, look accidental. I accidentally put a bullet through my door and felt pretty bad about that. After that I looked up Alcoholics Anonymous. My impression was that my drinking was still pretty normal, but I hadn't actually tracked that, and what I knew of AA sounded nice (a sort of Deist auxiliary church in the same way as Freemasonry and Boy Scouts, description of a true alcoholic and its thoughts ring true in my ears).
I actually did go back and manage to, from my journal, reconstruct my pattern of drinking, and the truth of it was that I mostly fell within the FDA standards of a non-heavy-drinker. I think AA is probably not worth going to, or not often, but I like the idea of adopting its standard of behavior, as part of its worldview. I already think in terms of alcoholism being a personality trait, not a behavior, for example.
