I'm someone much further to the left than the average KF user. I think the kind of user who spams "nigger" everywhere is retarded, I genuinely believe black people should have equal opportunities and civil rights, but god damn my shitty service industry job (delivering pizzas) is making me racist.
I'm just venting here since I'm frustrated and anyone I know IRL would ostracize me over talking about this. But I genuinely feel like black people make my life so much harder than it has to be. Not only do they usually not tip (I get paid well below minimum wage, so tipping is the only way I make any money at all) but they consistently treat service workers like garbage, as well as seeming generally oblivious or genuinely stupid.
There is a "game room" which is an open front for organized crime (drug trade) right next to my pizza shop. I have never seen anyone who isn't black enter or exit. Six months ago someone was shot in it because of a drug deal gone bad, now it just attracts psychos and drug addicts who scream at each other and get kicked out. It gets raided by the police every month or so. Every time I walk past it (which is more or less unavoidable) I get aggressive stares from its patrons who are milling about.
Said game room also attracts homeless people who beg for money, or threaten people for it, to buy drugs from there. They leave random needles on the ground and sexually harass my female manager. Almost all of them are black, and by "almost all" I mean of like ~20 regulars there's one white woman, one mixed-race woman, one Hispanic man, and a vaguely Indian or Pakistani man. Some of them have knives and hold them "casually" when you walk past.
It's always black people who try to scam the store for free food. They complain shit went wrong with their orders when we followed their instructions, or they'll give us the "wrong" address when we deliver then complain that we got it wrong, so that we give them free makeups at the new address.
They give us retarded delivery instructions. Two days ago someone gave me the address of a school. It's hard to see a school's postal address from a school, but whatever...more importantly, I was given no instructions as to WHERE to deliver it in the enormous school. So I had to call for clarification. Turns out it wasn't the school that ordered it, just a random parent who wanted me to give it to her son (whose name was not on the order), but she had no idea where her son was and wanted me to just walk randomly around the school until I found him. Except the school was guarded by police that didn't let randos like pizza delivery people in when the teachers didn't order a pizza. So I wasted something like half an hour there while the woman I called tried to communicate with her son, meanwhile all the black students of the school sitting outside surrounded me and shouted that they were the ones who'd ordered the pizza. I wasn't even 100% sure I gave the right student the pizza in the end; I was just fed up because I was wasting time and there was no tip (obviously) so I figured it was above my paygrade to do due diligence.
A black man recently called the store to inform me that he would sue the store if his food wasn't delivered hot.
A black homeless woman cursed me out yesterday for not giving her free food (we didn't have any extra food already prepared at the time; usually I give them something if they ask and there's extra). I explained this but she just screamed at me and called me names and left. Today she came back and asked for food again.
As for tipping, it's strange -- black women never tip, and they're generally incredibly rude and entitled. This is the case no matter whether they're dirt-poor, trashy, and unemployed, or middle-class/rich. Black men are more variable. They tend not to tip well in general, but the type who gives the impression of being consistently employed tends to give maybe $1 or $2, and they're generally friendly if nothing else. But there are a lot who reek of tobacco or weed, will often answer the door shirtless, and they tip nothing and act as rude as the women. I don't know why there's such a drastic sex difference.
I live and work in a generally poor area, but poor whites and hispanics are consistently much more pleasant and uncomplicated to deal with, and they tip. So I know it's not just a class issue. For all my growing racism against black people I actually genuinely don't get people's issues with Hispanics/Mexicans; even when they're poor they're generally pretty nice, and respectful toward other wagecels like me. More than white people on average even. If people who can barely (or even not at all) speak English can be like this I don't fucking get why black people can't act civilized.
I groan every fucking time I see I have to deliver to a "Branjohnika" (actual name I had to deliver to today -- apparently the name of a man (!) who left explicit instructions to meet him at the door, but took 5 minutes to get there after I knocked, smelled of weed, looked drugged out, and of course didn't tip). I genuinely don't enjoy having a negative or hateful attitude but every single interaction I have with these people makes me just a little more racist. I don't know how to deal with this; I'm getting to the point of viscerally recoiling every time I see a black person walk into the store, hear a black-sounding voice on the store phone, see that I'm delivering to a black name.
Before making some stupid decisions, I went to grad school for a program adjacent to another program a lot of Ghanaians had joined. I made friends with a lot of them. One of my best friends at the time was actually this Ghanaian girl, who was the most racist person I'd ever known against African Americans. She was a partying type, and because she was "black" she was invited to a lot of parties hosted by African Americans. She would tell me with a disgusted expression about how degenerate she thought they were and seemed concerned that she and other Ghanians were grouped as "black" together with them. I was once talking about the U.S. to her since she had asked me some questions about its history; I happened to mention Louisiana, and she interruped me to say that she never wanted to set foot there because she heard it was mainly black people who lived there. I was kind of surprised by her attitude by the time and didn't really understand it, since I didn't really interact with African American types very much at the time, but I've been thinking more and more about her and her attitude recently.
I really don't get it. Why are they like this? Am I just fucking insane for only having issues with them?
(I've been drinking a lot so apologies if my writing here is weird or hard to understand.)
