Assuming this is all true (and to me, it appears to be at least very likely, and backed by good evidence) I don't know how to cope with every facet of reality being so manipulated, to the point that I cannot even trust what I see before my eyes in the real world as something genuine.
I can't determine whether a person is real online. I can't determine a real person's thoughts or words to be formed genuinely within their mind or completely farmed by outside influence, again by real people or imposters.
The more I observe, the more I begin to believe that will is a force within this universe; that with enough collective will, anything can come into being. And that will can be artificially created. The will of one or a few, at least those with the proper resources, can become the will of many through these means, and thus that will can become realized. It's like some kind of arcane magic, it reminds me of the shit Kirkbride experienced while high out of his mind, writing Elder Scrolls lore.
I feel like a fucking schizo typing this. That too, is probably the result of someone's desires. Force assimilation, destroy those who will not assimilate. I generally feel like I can deal with a lot, but losing a grip on reality like this - insofar as it can even be called real - instills in me probably the deepest desire to kill myself of anything I've ever experienced.
I don't think I'm at that point yet, but the logical evolution of this phenomenon will probably bring me there. This is the type of reality I would expect in hell.
I don't know what I hope to accomplish by saying all of this. I apologize for the blogpost, but I all of this information being introduced to me in addition to many years of a sort of nebulous feeling that things aren't what they seem has just kind of mindfucked me, and I needed to express that somehow.