Kayla, can't you see that there is no way you can win this? You're backed into a corner, we both know this, but you can still turn around and better yourself. Your mother said it best. You thrive for negative attention! There is more out there than tumblr's hugbox, more to experience than the noses you lead around by feigning suicidal ideations. I'd hope that you can come to realise this and take our reaction to your behaviour in stride and walk away. Kiwi Farms are not a tactful bunch...but we've agreed that you needed to break out of this harmful loop. By our actions, you're almost there. Again, take these last few steps and walk away!