What a fucking narc that faggot lamptramp is.
Shit...and to think i made Era logo for free because it was a community effort to get everybody together under one organized place again. Seeing those numbers is not a good look for sure, i can't imagine volunteering for years. In my humble opinion grabbing the bag alone is not a classy move...
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Lampfaggot, you are a narc and you know we talk about you. So I respond here since I know you will read it.
I am so sorry to be so dramatic and such a needy fuck, I hate when people do that... I honestly don't mean to be and I honestly don't wish any ill on anyone especially staff and mods, and when I am flippant and harsh and upset and happy to leap to the worst conclusions its from a place of genuine fear rather than a want to cause hurt. Im not very good expressing myself and especially right now very sensitive. I have friends now trying to help me but my stupid brain refuses to believe them that I am not worthless... Friends I would mention I only have because of ERA.
Yes. The only "friends" you have are online and on ERA. I believe this 100%.
You have some kind of unmedicated severe and debilitating mental illness that makes it very unplesant and exhausting to be around you IRL.
That is why you have no friends or social life outside of your terminal online addiction.
Please forgive me unloading, it may help me and put my bitching into context so others will not think the worst of me.
Nearly a year ago I tried to drive my work van into a gorge, I had a dreadful job where my colleagues and manager abused and belittled me constantly, whenever I mentioned to it to anyone I was told I was being "too sensitive".
I believe this 100% but they were not belitteling you. You are just VERY high maintenance and can flip out at the drop of a hat so everyone
has to tip-toe around you. You are very opinionated but can not handle disagreements, even the slightest one, and will deal with any criticism or mild disagreements of your opinions as an attack on you, people being bigots that hate you and then you go straight to threaths about self harm in order to get some pity points "look what you did, you made me sad". weee weee weee.
Your work collegues were not abusing you. They just did not want to deal with you. Just like why the other people in your building are not abusing you, they too just do not want to deal with you, same as with your family, and the people that shop at the same local safeway as you do.
They are not abusing you, they just do not want to be around you since you are abusive and toxic.
That is why people avoid you and people at work just dismissed all the time, they just do not want to deal with
your issues all the time. Also as you admit here, you think a proper way to deal with conflict or disagreements is to take the company car and deliberately cause a traffic accident.
You are fucking mental.
Around this time was when we started getting really annoyed by Cyberpunk 2077.
Until then I had been pretty quiet on GAF and ERA. I had always been told not to join GAF since it was just really toxic, but the Tim Langdell copyright thread was too compelling. I decided to only ever involve myself positively, not to take to bitching, be positive and make my contributions which make the place a happier one than sad. I started with probably NMS after the launch died down and carried on like that. The CDPR stuff really made me angry though, and through speaking out joined with transERA and through talking to the members there realised I too was trans (though I knew since i was six, what I mean to say that it was OK to embrace it and be me). The scariest night of my life I posted my thread where I came out as a relative unknown to ERA and received so much more support than I ever dreamed I would get. I cried. I was happy.
Here is the thing. You are not trans. You never were. What you are is someone with an untreated severe and socially debilitating mental illness
that prevents you from having normal social interactions with other humans. Hence you have withdrawn from the real world and now live completely in a sheltered online world.
But why do you think you are trans? Well, it is really simple.
You are very very toxic and now you stumbled across this other group of also very toxic people and for the first time in your adult life you had found a group of people that accepted you and your toxicity. Well, at least they tolerated having you around.
This is probably the first time in a very long time/ever you were tolerated and not just shouted at "fuck of crazy faggot, we don;t want to deal with your kind of autism".
Thus you felt you belonged and this then transformed into you thinking "these people are like me, and I am like them, thus I am a tranny too."
That is as simple as it is. You are not a tranny, you THINK you are because they are the only people you have found that tolerate you.
But it could just as well have gone a completely different way. Had you stumbled across StormFront instead, then today you would be talking about the jew-problem instead of trans-rights. Had you stumbled on Connor Murphy, then today you would be talking about the health benefits of eating your own feces.
It is just random chance that the first group you stumbled on that tolerated you were trannies. That is really the only reason you think you are trans. Random chance.
Basically you do not have a personality of your own. You are very impressionable and assume the personality and traits of the people that you surround yourself with. It is part of your mental illness.
After that I became more confident, I was sacked from my job,
I absolutely believe you were sacked from your job, with cause even. This is kind of bound to happen if you are a drama queen and then take the company car to deliberately cause traffic accidents. You are not just annoying at that point but a huge fucking legal liability.
I took them to court and won reparations,
This never happened. You used the company car to deliberately try to cause a traffic accident. You should be happy that they did not sue you.
I found a new job, a better job with a real company who paid 3 times as much
This never happened. You have no skills. Even if your previous job was minimum wage there is absolutely zero chance a mentally unstable person with no marketable skills will make 3 times minimum wage.
This lie is so ridiculously retarded you should be ashamed of yourself. I am offended you think I am stupid enough to believe this.
who welcomed me as a trans woman and bent over backwards to make my ever step a delight. I am praised and appreciated, my second week my colleague said how wonderful it was to have more girls on the team. I feel real for the first time in my life, I feel happy to be alive for the first time in my life and I love being a parent to two wonderful children, who accept me as I am.
This is just meaningless drivel and asking for pity points,. Again you insult my intelligence and assume I don't remember that you previously said the only friends you had were on ERA. Keeps the lies consistent at least.
All those bad thoughts are still there, coming out did not get rid of them but they are so much easier to see for what they are.
The thoughts are still there because you are still unmedicated for a severe and deliibiting mental illness.
Go see a shrink, get sent to an institution for a while and have them lock you up and figure out what kind of meds you need to not be fucking mental and maybe the thoughts will go away and you can start living a normal life with normal friends.
I am sooooo sorry to shit this thread up with my self indulgence more, but though the transERA issue upset me, though the ACTIBLIZZ issue and ERA not going "far enough" for me upset me, I have always and would always defend ERA against anyone. Why would I not, without ERA I would not be here...
You know why this happens all the time with you? It is because your illness prevents you from interacting with most other people in a normal way
and it is driving people away from you.
You are mentally ill and you need an evaluation, treatment, and a medical plan on how to be less of a burden to everyone around you.
And you should stop being an autist faux-tranny on the internet. It is not helping your social skills or mental illness.
When I am shitty and stroppy and harsh and upset and hurting and lash out, it is not to make the staff feel any worse than they do now, it is because I care about the next me who may be in that same position and that they are able to get that same love, that same acceptance and that same support I did, because too many people do not get that, and they should.
When I lash out it is a genuine fear not that I do not trust any of you, but that I do not trust the new owner to allow this place to continue in the same way that it helped me. Seeing the hate the new owners others sites spew truly upset me not for me, but for others like me.
You are shitty and stroppy because you are a very toxic and abusive person that is very difficult and unpleasant to be around.
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