Keeping this in the private section so that non-account viewers don't see this.
I feel incredibly guilty. While looking at these images on gelbooru and censoring them, I became very aroused. I've revealed in a prior message that I was first exposed to lolicon when I was 11, and this induced pedophilic desires in me. I feel guilty because I criticize and ridicule these people while consuming the same things they do. (Though, at least I acknowledge that the content is immoral and am trying to stop, unlike them. This doesn't make me much better, however.) The farther away that I try to get from lust the harder it becomes. I am engaged in spiritual warfare against demonic forces that try to influence me. However, I'd like to clarify and say that I'm not putting the blame solely on outside forces, as my evil doing is governed by my will. I'm going to take drastic measures and stop using the Internet completely.