This video is the perfect metaphor for Amber's life. That motel room is her life, dark, messy and already full of crap (even though it was probably made less than 24 hours after the got in it).
We can see sun light desperately trying to shine in there, like all the people who have tried in vain to suggest things that would make her life better. But Amber keeps the curtains shut and tries to ignore it, while praising the artificial light that doesn't do her any good.
In the background, surrounded by her crap, is her partner. Out of focus and ignored. When she told Amber she didn't mind being in the video, Amber purposefully moved the camera to cut her out of the frame, because Amber needs to be the center of attention.
Here we find our
gorl on "vacation". A time when most people use to ignore, if only for a little time, their real life and struggles. Amber, otoh, spends the first day ruminating about the haydurz and spewing hatred.
Edited: I think I saw stretch marks on her forearm.
I love how she's so resentful of the people that watch her videos. We don't love her enough! She actually had to RESEARCH the camera she didn't have to buy but she wanted to! We tell her, a 425lb gorl, that she's fat! We don't appreciate the hard work she puts into her completely self-chosen, optional job! We get disappointed in her when she fails repeatedly at saving her own life!
Kind of sounds like she wants us all to unsub and stop watching. I can manage that.
Narcissists don't want you to stop paying attention to them, but in their desperate need for attention and to maintain the victim status, they will say stuff like that.
In Amber's case it's even more complicated because it isn't just that she needs the attention. She needs the money that comes with it, and I suspect she isn't getting enough - despite the claims of 10K.