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Fucked up my sleeping schedule, had to watch the livestream yesterday.
 
Went to the doctor for the umpteenth time since this all started for me, still no real answers.

I don't want to ask for pain killers because I don't want to be labeled as drug seeking but the OTCs aren't really cutting it for most of this. Thankfully (?) things on the farms are busy atm so I have a good distraction.
 
There's a lump on my left tit (probably a cyst, though) and tomorrow I am going to go through with a decision that will stay on my conscience forever.
 
Irritable from broken sleep. I'm having these recurring dreams about my ceiling caving in. Not hard to figure out why-some of it actually did cave in, a couple weeks ago, thanks to heavy rain. But in the dreams, the ceiling falls away to reveal some horror beneath. Last night, it was cockroaches the size of dinner plates. Another night, it was silverfish the size of lobsters. As far as my dreams are concerned, this series is relatively easy to decipher-the place I'm living in is a total shithole, and ever since I moved in, I've been beset by cockroaches as well as bed bugs. I haven't seen the latter in over a month, since the third visit from exterminators. Bed bugs are notoriously resilient and tough to eradicate, though, so I'm sure they'll be back eventually. I make it a point to be outdoors most of every day. I work out at a YMCA three hours a day, five days a week. It helps to burn off some of this stress, but I still have to come back here and as soon as I do, I slide back into depression. Really bad housing shortage in my area, and I've had no luck finding anything else. At least this summer is passing by quickly. Despite managing to lose a decent amount of weight since last winter, it's still been a rough year for me. I've always been prone to depression, but last year I got into this really, really stupid habit of popping LSD like it was candy, and that undoubtedly made it worse. I haven't been the same since.
 
I have recived my first mosquito bite of the summer and am having A Very Bad Time. A few years ago I got bit a total of six or seven times and from that point onward my body can't handle bites well anymore. My whole tricep area is swollen up and I can't tell if my fatigue is from my workout earlier or feeling sick from the bite. feels bad man

At least I have the day off and ice cream bars in the freezer, as a consolation!
 
I'm supposed to sleep, but there was a big spider I lost sight of. I don't know if it's under or in my bed.
All spiders are harmless in my country, but I'm still shook *sigh*
 
MerriedxReldnahc dijo:
I have recived my first mosquito bite of the summer and am having A Very Bad Time. A few years ago I got bit a total of six or seven times and from that point onward my body can't handle bites well anymore. My whole tricep area is swollen up and I can't tell if my fatigue is from my workout earlier or feeling sick from the bite. feels bad man

At least I have the day off and ice cream bars in the freezer, as a consolation!
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1) where do you live that you only get bitten six or seven times a year? Valhalla?

2) Are you allergic to mosquitos or something?
 
Sped Xing dijo:
1) where do you live that you only get bitten six or seven times a year? Valhalla?

2) Are you allergic to mosquitos or something?
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Usually I'm lucky enough to not get bit very often, but the six or seven times was in one evening when I went out skating at the park (I meant to say that in my post and then spaced out mid-sentence or something. I'm fuckin tired, lol) all the bites got swollen and I was too itchy to sleep well for several days. I'm pretty sure that it's turned into an allergy after that incident.
It never gets too hot where I live so we don't get too many of those bastards.
 
It’s true that everyday has been getting better and better for me lately because I’m changing how I deal with my problems of family life…etc. Even though I’m trying to deal with a break up in a healthy way, I still fucking miss my ex. We are still on friendly terms, but I don’t want to hang out with him until I’m sure of I’ve dealt with my own personal problems. I’ve been good about keeping space and caring for myself but still god damn it IT FUCKING hurts.
It doesn’t help that my parents are on the positive side of working on their marriage. A month ago I was ready to accept them divorcing. I think I’m just in the process of dissociating from my parent’s relationship but not my parents as individuals. I really think I need to just take a step back and hang out with my cat and roommate’s dog.
 
I got my dog’s shots completed for now. I’m going through hell looking for a vet who’s willing to spay her that isn’t booked up for a long time. Turns out she’s only 4 months old so I’m getting in all of the training and proper diet beforehand.
 
I had to get a shot today. But they let me pet the dog after.
I'm probably a tard.
But hey, dogs
 
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