How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Otterly]

couple of months ago, my ex-wife died. I really shouldn’t give a fuck but it heavily impacted me

I don’t think you shouldn’t give a fuck. You were married - even if she’s an ex it’s going to hit you. You’d be a pretty cold fish if that didn’t affect t you. How did she die?

I relapsed into alcoholism

I think we have a thread on the health board for drinking? Go talk to them.

 

[The Last Stand]

It's too hot to do much of anything currently. Well, I have to work on the 4th of July anyway, so...

 

[Getmeout]

It's too hot to do much of anything currently.

Same. Ugh.

 

[AnOminous]

Like SHIT!

That said, I have Rainier cherries, so maybe I can improve my situation. There's hope. Of a limited sort.

 

[The Lawgiver]

Like SHIT!

That said, I have Rainier cherries, so maybe I can improve my situation. There's hope. Of a limited sort.

If it helps I got a storm that hit me just now and somehow caused hot air to burst through my door and make the nicely air conditioned well ventilated house into a fucking oven for a split second

Thank fucking god I live in America lmao

 

[Quijibo69]

Going to do something tomorrow, heaven forbid!

 

[Twix Eatr]

I accidentally hit my pinky toe on a container of kitty litter. It's been three hours and it still hurts

This is why we use toilets instead of litter. I honestly think if you practice on a more remedial unit, you can eventually get the hang of it. No judgement, mang. We believe in you.

Enjoy the 4th weekend everybody!

 

[Otterly]

Been awake since three when I woke with a terrible sense of foreboding and despair. I can’t get back to sleep. And I’m so tired and will have to get up soon and manage another day.

 

[Scientifically Inaccurate]

You know. 4th of July is on Saturday, and my parents and I usually sup together on Saturdays. Maybe I should secretly make it the most American meal possible, in spirit with this.
We could all stand to openly value and treasure our Western culture and values, even if our politicians and mass media are trying to make America "look evil".
At the end of the day, I think majority of us born and bred in white western countries value much the same, even if we disagree with the current sitting president, that Americans do.

Does anyone know if I can smoke a brisket on a gas grill, that's about the most american food I can think of lol.

I'm going to be having British food on the 4th. I'll enjoy toffee pudding and fireworks, then I'm going to impose my culture on the English or Scottish waiter with a nice tip.

If you haven't tried s'mores yet you really should.

 

[Banquet Meal]

Been awake since three when I woke with a terrible sense of foreboding and despair. I can’t get back to sleep. And I’m so tired and will have to get up soon and manage another day.

are you able go maybe go for a drive?? i get those at night too, and sometimes just driving and listening to music helps clear things up a bit. i hope you are ok

 

[The Last Stand]

are you able go maybe go for a drive?? i get those at night too, and sometimes just driving and listening to music helps clear things up a bit. i hope you are ok

That's a good idea. At least the car would have AC.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

Overstimulated. Really not trying to sound like some they/them neurodivergent aspie who prides himself on being an insufferable twat. But I just really am a little fried. There's just so much. Of everything. Really terrified and hopeful for the future. Sad, happy all at the same time. And the joke is nothing really is happening.
Working 60 hours, spending their nights partying doing every drug possible, keeping up social facades for everyone else, keeping up with all the news to talk to others about, getting into a school to get into a better school to get a better job to get a better job. These are things people my age do. I don't do half that and I'm exhausted. And it'd odd that people are just supposed to do this... all the time, forever.
It might make me a lame duck but I just kind of want to chill and not have a lot going on most of the time anymore. That might sound like a joke considering I'm going to be a bum soon. But it's different. Probably because with that sort of life you don't have to be doing anything more than you want most of the time.
I know people want to be somebody, to have the nicest cars, early retirements, the big house and 401k, social mobility, corporate ladder climbing, the authority, all that.
I just want some money in the bank, a really small home, to be at a job I feel respected at, a car and to be next to some indie theaters and record shops.
I'm surprisingly okay with absolutely nothing.
Moving, the job, the heat, seeing people act in complete lunacy every day, the options for the future presented that I didn't even consider until now, being self reliant in a way I haven't before, it's all been a lot.
The future is approaching fast. I'm just a bit overwhelmed. Would like to find a little cool place and just sleep for a while.
Also forgot in all this how long its been since I've actually enjoyed things. Spending my last days here watching an anime. Been a while since I did that. No excuse. Can't blame anyone there. I just intentionally did nothing to comfort myself in a while for no reason other than I could. Every time I have it only lasted so long. Again, no one's fault but my own.
It's really surprising sometimes how much the things everyone shits on for being dumb hobbies have helped me more than any grand life realizations or social connections.