How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[AnOminous]

After I answered he proceeded to yell the most accurate and shocking set of cold reads at me, like my deepest insecurities that I've never admitted to myself.

I had an AI do that to me recently. I have been routinely pissed at how AI is so sycophantic so was trying to figure out how to get it to give an actual opinion on me. AI apparently knows who I am but insistently continued being sycophantic. I finally got it to give "harsh moral judgments" and it completely felted me. (It took months of effort to get something other than "you're wonderful and awesome and sheeit"). Not only were the judgments right, all I could do was seethe, but they were actually helpful. Wtf, clanker?

 

[Getmeout]

Ok I gotta vent. I have a good friend of mine I’ve known for years, and like sometimes I get really mad at her (e.g, right now) but it’s always hard to tell if I should be mad at her or if I’m being unreasonable. I think there’s only one time I’ve been sure she was actually being annoying, but because I’m never sure I never talk to her about it and I’m SICK of this cycle. But even when I do talk to her about it, it just makes me more pissed off cause— There’s no point to it! The behavior she’s doing doesn’t change, she just gives a reason for it. Which I guess means it can’t change. And maybe it shouldn’t change and I’m just being all BPD like? Man, I don’t know.

 

[Agarathium1066]

I've just had the weirdest encounter of my life where a semi-schizo old guy struck up a conversation with me by asking where I'm from (I'm white so I blame my chink eyes). I told him and then he asked me if i came alone and and what age. After I answered he proceeded to yell the most accurate and shocking set of cold reads at me, like my deepest insecurities that I've never admitted to myself. Deep down everything he said was correct. I will now proceed to get blackout drunk to forget them.

You met a Malkavian. Their insights are as exceptional as the absurdities that will spill out of their mind. I swear its the most insane bastards I've ever met that seem to at times rerail themselves and drop poignant statements or observations.

Sometimes I wonder if such insanity is just because their minds are so observant that it overwhelms them. That or they're an excellent example of a stopped clock being right twice a day. I'll never know. Nobody may ever fully know.

 

[Horribadger]

Absolutely fucking terrible

I was watching a cute anime girl play a cute story/adventure video game like a normal person and it was great up until there just had to be a fucking heavyhanded dogshit-ass troon character in the fucking game and the girl was just fucking fine with it. They did the whole fucking thing where the troon reconnects with xzgier younger brother and is like "I was always your sister, you just didn't know it!! Blow your brains out and replace all your memories with fucking troonery!! I stole mom's underwear!!" and she's just like "yay that's great " why does everyone have to be so fucking gay and retarded now man. Now whenever I see this chick in my feed or whatever I have to remember that she's fucking troonpilled and not worth watching. Also the game started out okay but it turned to shit when it had to spend a significant amount of time on this fucking troon character being a fucking troon. God I hate trannies

 

[Squanto Airi]

A black employee gave me some of his chicken.

I now smoke Black & Milds and have multiple baby mamas

 

[Guntanator]

2026 is turning out to be the worst year of my life ™

 

[Quijibo69]

2026 is turning out to be the worst year of my life ™

This has been the whole decade for me.

 

[Numbers Station]

My indoor-only cat got out a few days ago and we haven't found her. I've spent all my waking time looking for her and talking to neighbors, they haven't seen her but they said they'll keep an eye out.

I'm fucking wrecked, man

 

[DenseDeerFather]

I might need to decaf.

I'm getting a pay raise starting from today and I've been sort of burnt out and stressed so I've been drinking more energy drinks and coffee to cope with exhaustion whenever I get home but at the same time it leaves me super emotional which is not good for an already neurotic mess.

So I had bit of an emotional breakdown at work and wanted to take Thursday off but can't because that's when I am meeting with my boss to negotiate my pay raise.

More money should not make a fucker fucking fucked emotionally but here we are. Fuck

 

[Me•cha•ni•cal]

Semper fidelis to all you kiwifrens

and TTD for some extra measure

Happy to see you’re still around, I hope you’re feeling better

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

Girlfriend made me pasta at 1AM yesterday/today, that is true love

 

[PetiteFeet]

Girlfriend made me pasta at 1AM yesterday/today, that is true love

I want what you have.
1AM pasta yummers.

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

I want what you have.
1AM pasta yummers.

It was so good. Oven-roasted tomatoes and garlic, blended afterwards with olive oil and basil as the sauce. Some goat hard cheese on top, pure heaven. All because i said i couldn't sleep (she's a night owl that's up until God knows when every night), it's the Italian version of a sleeping pill, worked like a charm

 

[ilovecornsyrup]

You met a Malkavian. Their insights are as exceptional as the absurdities that will spill out of their mind. I swear its the most insane bastards I've ever met that seem to at times rerail themselves and drop poignant statements or observations.

Sometimes I wonder if such insanity is just because their minds are so observant that it overwhelms them. That or they're an excellent example of a stopped clock being right twice a day. I'll never know. Nobody may ever fully know.

When I was a hobo I had to make the same split second decisions on people, like whether to get into a strangers car while hitchhiking or not, so it makes sense that someone who has been in that position for decades would have amazing insight.

Either that or he has met the same "archetype" as me before. Plenty of immigrant children have had the same experiences.

 

[Troon Petty and the 41ers]

It's been almost two years since mine died this coming July.

I almost forgot what he sound like if it wasn't for old vids he made.

I saved some voice mails from my grandma for this reason. My memory is incredibly good but I'll forget some day. Grief is strange; there's a reason humans have written so much about it.

My indoor-only cat got out a few days ago and we haven't found her. I've spent all my waking time looking for her and talking to neighbors, they haven't seen her but they said they'll keep an eye out.

I'm fucking wrecked, man

She’s probably hiding in some bushes near your house. Leave some stuff outside if you can. Things that she will recognize the smell of, like blankets or cat beds. Probably not wise to use litter boxes for this because those can tip off other animals that there’s a cat around. Cats don’t travel far from the area they’re familiar with. What we did when mine got out was get one of those trap cages with a pressure plate in it, covered it up with a blanket he liked, and put some food in it. He would sit outside and stare in the window late at night, but because he was spooked (also dumb) he wouldn’t come in even when I left the door open. Godspeed, you’re going to get her back in a day or two.

 

[Zeb Macahan]

Happy to see you’re still around, I hope you’re feeling better

Inte det minsta men jag uppskattar omtanken

When I was a hobo I had to make the same split second decisions on people, like whether to get into a strangers car while hitchhiking or not, so it makes sense that someone who has been in that position for decades would have amazing insight.

I'm about to be homeless now, do you have any tips on how to deal with people? I'm "lucky" in the sense that we got allemansrätten in Sweden so I can probably survive for a while by hiking in the forest with my shitty, heavy tent (got good shoes and a great backpack atleast, and a LifeStraw) It's summer as well so I wont freeze to death yet. What worries me the most now is other people. I don't give a fuck about the law, I will carry my knife and pepper spray openly even if it's illegal here. And I'm perfectly comfortable sleeping at certain spots I've been to before, along semi-popular hiking routes where it's mostly normal people you meet. But at some point I will probably meet fucked up people who want to do fucked up shit to me. Food will be an issue after a while as well...

 

[ilovecornsyrup]

I'm "lucky" in the sense that we got allemansrätten in Sweden so I can probably survive for a while by hiking in the forest with my shitty, heavy tent (got good shoes and a great backpack atleast, and a LifeStraw)

This is the safest thing to do. Bring something that will repel animals if they are an issue in the area. Peppermint oil for rats, pepper spray is fine for larger animals. Make noise when walking.

If the weather is bad (summer rains) there are some places you can sleep like bus/train stations (not in big cities though) If there is security then don't lay down but sleep sitting with your head down instead and tie your stuff to yourself firmly. Use sunglasses to hide that you're sleeping.

What worries me the most now is other people. I don't give a fuck about the law, I will carry my knife and pepper spray openly even if it's illegal here.

I'm not sure if you have visitation zones in Sweden like you do in Germany and Denmark. If you do then don't walk there because police will search all your belongings.

In small towns and rural areas you can generally trust people. In cities avoid homeless shelters and places known for having lots of homeless people unless you're a drug addict and need to score, in which case don't walk in there alone.

Avoid city centers on Friday/Saturday nights because that's when drunk Arabs walk around in groups harassing people.


I was homeless because I was a teenage runaway without papers and couldn't legally rent. At the time I felt like I only had one option... And I made enough money daily to have a warm bed and good food. I was comfortable, but the things I was made to do will haunt me all my life. Remember that you can always sell your soul but you will never be able to buy it back later.

The most dangerous people you will meet will never be the ones who try to attack or hurt you in other ways. They will promise you shelter, money, free drugs and make you dependent on them.


If you can get gibs from the government (you should be able to in Scandinavia), take them. Don't spend them on hotels as tempting as it seems but collect them and wait until you can pay off the deposit for an apartment. If you do everything right you can be back on your feet in 3 months.

 

[Burning Bridge]

I'm sorry but what is this fucking faggotry on display?
And it's not just him. I've been noticing that a bit too much lately on this thread.

"I think I'm moving because I'm unhappy where I am."
"Don't. You'll be miserable anywhere and everywhere. Nothing good is waiting for you."

"I'm having a better perspective on things after seriously considering suicide for a couple of weeks."
"Lawl bro held hands with a girl. W T fuck dawg. You'll be deepthroating a gun in no time. I bet you kiss girls on the mouth, faggot."

"I'm unhappy doing the thing I've been doing for a while."
"Listen to your body. Advice?1! Fuck this bitch. I got no suggestions or help to offer so I'm just going to be a cunt."

Seriously. What the fuck is this shit? This is a little too many crabs in this bucket right now. I know we're the site for being "real" with people but being so blackpilled since your own life is not where you want to be that you have to tear anybody down who might be fixing theirs' or anyone who even offers to help is absolute clown behavior.
Know better, do better.

Advice is given for three reasons: first and foremost to reaffirm the givers own decisions and judgement. Second to reinforce orthodoxy. Last and definitely least is for the receiver's benefit. Nobody gets shit on more than someone who's tried all the advice and tries to talk about how none of it helps.

 

[Zeb Macahan]

This is the safest thing to do.

If the weather is bad (summer rains) there are some places you can sleep like bus/train stations (not in big cities though) If there is security then don't lay down but sleep sitting with your head down instead and tie your stuff to yourself firmly. Use sunglasses to hide that you're sleeping.

Yeah I want to avoid cities and people as much as possible. But if the weather gets really bad train/bus stations might be an option, good tips, I never would have thought about the sleeping while sitting because of security ( = I'm stupid)

not sure if you have visitation zones in Sweden like you do in Germany and Denmark. If you do then don't walk there because police will search all your belongings.

Temporary visitation zones but I will probably never be near one, good to have in mind tho. If police get hold of my pepper spray I'm fucked, it's illegal.

In cities avoid homeless shelters and places known for having lots of homeless people

Avoid city centers on Friday/Saturday nights because that's when drunk Arabs walk around in groups harassing people.

Yeah my gut feeling was to avoid any homeless shelters. Good idea to avoid cities during weekends as well.

I was homeless because I was a teenage runaway without papers and couldn't legally rent. At the time I felt like I only had one option... And I made enough money daily to have a warm bed and good food. I was comfortable, but the things I was made to do will haunt me all my life. Remember that you can always sell your soul but you will never be able to buy it back later.

That sounds awful, I can't imagine what it was like. I hope you're in a better place now in life.

The most dangerous people you will meet will never be the ones who try to attack or hurt you in other ways. They will promise you shelter, money, free drugs and make you dependent on them.

I don't trust people so no way am I going to accept "help" from strangers.

If you can get gibs from the government (you should be able to in Scandinavia), take them

I tried to get försörjningsstöd as soon as I was told I need to leave my current "home" (I know you mentioned this as well @me*cha*ni*cal but I can't tag you properly)
I was denied because I recently put my pets in a foster home, moved their insurance over to the "foster mom" along with my small savings account. One of them has ongoing medical issues needing regular vet visits, blood work and expensive medication. They thought I was "hiding" money with a friend. So it will take a few months before I can apply again. I don't have SGI either so even though I'm depressed and suicidal enough to get medical leave my current income is too low to recieve any gibs.

Thank you @ilovecornsyrup

 

[Getmeout]

I chimped out at an eBay seller who scammed me, I gotta get better at not being a nigger.