Go buy a carbon monoxide detector,
Just checked the ones I have and they seem to be working fine. Wouldn't carbon monoxide issues lead to a pretty swift death if they were severe enough to affect my dreams? unsure
and go talk to a Rabbi (or a priest) to see if someone is hexing you.
I'm really at a loss as to who could even be doing that if so. I don't really know anyone outside of my family and haven't for
years. Anyone else who knew me by my actual name moved away from me over a decade ago. I'll still go anyways, might as well visit a synagogue if only to hang out with family, but I'm not sure there's an occult cause for this so much as just stress compiling and that somehow maybe tricking my brain into making all of this way more vivid than it usually is. Dunno.
Death premonitions are not unusual, many people have them, myself included.
Those are usually for people who are dying (and then know it's "their time" somehow), though, aren't they? Didn't think they'd apply to somehow feeling, well in advance, that someone you know and love is going to die. Or knowing the last day you'll see someone even with no real reason for you to know then.
Grr, I don't know. I'm not a huge fan of all this.
But weeks upon weeks of strange tortuous dreams and constantly feeling off is not typical grieving behavior over a dog - even if he was the bestest boi on earf.
Isn't it typical for someone with an anxiety disorder, though? I'm less concerned about the awful dreams and more the thing that keeps popping up within them. (And the lack of sleep, of course, but that's a problem I've been fighting since way before these things began.)
I appreciate the concern, I hope I don't come off like I'm rejecting your help or anything, I'm just trying to be as reasonable as possible about most of this and trying not to get myself into any occultist holes. The only reason I'm even somewhat slightly considering any of that as an explanation is because it's clearly
something or someone non-physical and not just a figment of imagination (or, if it is, it's some type of figment that's been seen by other people and documented as reoccurring/having a cause, presumably). Thank you for even attempting to help with what could probably be used in court as evidence of the beginnings of someone's mental breakdown.
EDIT: for reference, in case it helps, today's dream involved killing a home invader and not anything weird (outside of usual weird dream stuff like someone's room looking like an aquarium or four adults sharing one small bedroom in a house with like 5 different empty ones). The day before that was nothing at all. This is still sporadic, if it's a pattern at all, and not some constant kind of haunting