Guh life just fucking slaps me in the face again. The flat I'm currently in I can't afford, so at the end of every week I'm pretty much penniless. The only reason I cant afford it is because the stupid fucking landlord refuses housing benefit. Why? I mean I've lived here 6 months now he knows he's going to get paid.
So for the past few months I've been trying to jump ship to a place I can actually afford and accepts housing benefit, but yeah when you're spending all your money on rent it's difficult to save up rent and deposit. The UK government has "budgeting loans" in place for people like me, where they give you a lump sum of money and you pay it back over the course of a few months. Except you know the fucking government is shit and just LITERALLY ignored me. I sent away TWO fucking different claims in the past 1 1/2 months and not a single fucking reply.
So I thought "alright I'll go to the job centre they surely have to help me out right?" Of fucking course not. Three days ago I went in there to fucking request an appointment and they said they'd call me within two days. Of course they've not got back to me and I'm not walking all the way to the job centre again so they can lie to me some more. So I have absolutely no fucking idea what the fuck to do; all of the "support" this shitty fucking country offers just keeps fucking ignoring me and the citizen's advice bureau is a crock of shit in my town (it's only open like 2 days a week).
I'll be honest I'm feeling hopeless at the moment. Especially seeing as I start college in 2 weeks. To be honest I can't financially afford it which is heart-breaking. The benefits I'm on now I can't claim whilst in full time education, so I'll be getting no money whilst I'm switched over to something else (this from experience takes around 3 weeks, and that is a long time to go without money. And I've used all my food vouchers for the year that I can claim). So on top of the cost of transport, supplies, textbooks, I won't have any money to fucking buy any of this shit.
I don't want to drop out of college before I've even started because this is my last free year of education (you get free college courses until you're 19. If I miss this year and go back next year it'll cost me £1660).
It's not like this has been creeping up on me either, I've been trying to fix this for fucking months but nobody will help me. I know I sound like a whiny-as fuck-kid and I'm probably going to get a "you need to help yourself get a job you bum stop expecting the government to bail you out" but for fucks sake it's not like I've just been sat here moaning about it. I've wasted like over £20 in credit ringing stupid fucking 0844 council numbers that charge by the minute, I've spent hours filling out forms that they don't even have the courtesy to fucking reply to. The bureaucracy of it all is soul crushing.
On another note I really fucking regret buying that Chris autograph as it's financially crippled me for weeks. It was only £20, that's how little disposable income I have.
my shoulder looks all weird and bruised and there's limited movement I must've fucked it in some way but it srsly fucking hurts 
