Hey guys, how has everyone been?

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My change oil soon light has been on for four months (about the same amount of time since I had the oil changed) and I just realized I need to get it taken care of. I needed to get it changed at 96,000 miles and I'm around 97,000 now.
 
Went to the doctor today because the Metformin side effects have been unbearable (crippling fatigue, dizziness), and was prescribed with Victoza injections instead. :'( But I'm willing to try anything at this point.
 
I returned, I guess. I've been gone from the forums because I kinda lost interest in lolcows and thought my post quality was kinda shit. But I've decided to return and post occasionally and lurk the chatbox when I'm lonely. I can't believe I missed the whole Deagle Nation saga, I feel like an idiot.
 
shitty internet connection.

went vegan early this month, everything's fine. i'm a bit more functional than i used to be (used to be...a brick, basically), doing a hell of a lot more cooking but i'm still learning to be a competent chef. keeping the house in much better order.

behind on drawing and personal stuff.

been really tired because i'd be outside for hours.

got an assignment tomorrow and there will be no further payment issues.

so everything's fine.

i got 7 letters going, soon to add more, since i'm outside without computers.
 
I'm getting kinda stressed now that finals are closing in. My one class requires a minimum of 25 pages of "new" fiction and poetry. As in, nothing we turned in during the semester. Which means I'm gonna have to rush myself and just churn out half-assed shit. *sigh*
 
Today, I gave off a critical review speech on gun control. Looking at the arguments I used, I really feel the pro gun control arguments are weak compared to the arguments against them. Other than that, I pretty much bought some crap related to MLP and I enjoyed some Baskin-Robbins. Right now, I'm getting ready to go see a play at a theatre.
 
Another day of the everyday grind. I find it soothing to finally have something to do. NEETdom was really driving me nuts. Even though the training I'm in is for a dead-end job that is potentially hazardous to one's health and is being outsourced to poorer countries, and most of the people in those jobs don't really seem to have much to look forward to in life... at the end of the day I'm getting some money just for attending the course. And well... I hear money can be spent on many cool things.

My general ability to give a shit about trivial things seems to have decreased drastically as of late. I have my job, I want to do something productive or fun in my free time, which is why I'm able to enjoy video games again, and try harder to learn some programming.

I guess not everything needs careful analyzing. Not everything you feel needs to be named. I've learned to slow down and just let the thoughts and emotions flow without words. It's like meditation, I think. I open up to the lower-level stream of consciousness and everything sort of clicks: the grief is voiced, the anger is expressed, the joy is felt, etc.
 
Boy I had a long day. Lunch wasn't bad, but around 2PM, I go to move into the new liquor room, I intended on finishing this today. However, at 4PM, I'm told to make up a few ice coolers for the event for tonight that I completely forgot about. No more gym for me tonight *sigh*

By 5:15PM I was all bitched out and un-mirthed :heart-empty: I was freaking dreaming of having some moonshine or bourbon before the last ferry, but I had to work all through.

Well, tomorrow is another day.
 
applecat dijo:
Someday people are going to treat me like I'm valuable.
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You a a lovely person, who I enjoy reading in post, and very valuable. I am not worthy to you, you are brilliant, intelligent, kind, and everything in between.

I wish I was more like you, I'm not worthy of you.

I wish I was as valuable as you are, but I know I'm not really, I'm just here to be here for the sake of being here.

Sorry just feeling a bit funny today, the last few days have been really good, then I go back down again and I hate it. I hope you guys don't think I'm trying to make you feel sorry for me, because I'm not honestly. But if I do sound whiny and childish, I am very sorry for upsetting and annoying you wonderful people on this forum.
 
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silentprincess dijo:
You a a lovely person, who I enjoy reading in post, and very valuable. I am not worthy to you, you are brilliant, intelligent, kind, and everything in between.

I wish I was more like you, I'm not worthy of you.

I wish I was as valuable as you are, but I know I'm not really, I'm just here to be here for the sake of being here.

Sorry just feeling a bit funny today, the last few days have been really good, then I go back down again and I hate it. I hope you guys don't think I'm trying to make you feel sorry for me, because I'm not honestly. But if I do sound whiny and childish, I am very sorry for upsetting and annoying you wonderful people on this forum.
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You are as worthy and valuable as you make yourself to be.
 
bungholio dijo:
You are as worthy and valuable as you make yourself to be.
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That's very true.

I would like to apologise for my outburst on chat to Mr.0, and say it was childish of to go for him. But the truth is I consider you guys my friends, and so I always feel I have to protect you if you know what I mean.

My mood today has though has mostly been because I have been getting some horrible message from someone on Fanfiction.net, because I critiqued their work and they didn't like what I said, so now see fit to send me messages through PM insulting me.

Drama

Sorry again for this rambling, and telling you everything about my life.
 
silentprincess dijo:
You a a lovely person, who I enjoy reading in post, and very valuable. I am not worthy to you, you are brilliant, intelligent, kind, and everything in between.

I wish I was more like you, I'm not worthy of you.

I wish I was as valuable as you are, but I know I'm not really, I'm just here to be here for the sake of being here.

Sorry just feeling a bit funny today, the last few days have been really good, then I go back down again and I hate it. I hope you guys don't think I'm trying to make you feel sorry for me, because I'm not honestly. But if I do sound whiny and childish, I am very sorry for upsetting and annoying you wonderful people on this forum.
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That's very sweet, but all of those parts you wrote about yourself simply aren't true!
 
Sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Sick of missing her while she's moving on.

Sick of not knowing what to believe in or what to care about anymore.
 
My biological clock has been broken for a few days. Maybe its because I'm a little sick. I went to sleep at 2AM last night, and now its 1:20AM and I'm still awake, not feeling anywhere ready to go to sleep.

Still gotta wake up to catch the 9AM ferry...
 
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