No one in my hometown likes me and I think it’s because I was trans.
I was fairly well liked in middle school and early high school. Didn’t have many friends but always had a couple close ones at a time and people seemed genuinely interested in becoming friends with me.
Kinda out of the blue I stopped wearing makeup, cut my hair and my depression “showed through” a lot more. Ever since i got on t, no one likes me at all or wants to be friends. Even now that I’m detrans and look female again, my reputation is just ruined. No one knows what to call me and I’m embarrassed for anyone to find out I’m changing my name legally a second time to a completely new third name.
It hurts worse because my boyfriend of 5 years and I worked at the same place when we were teens. They knew me as my birthname then transitioning for a short while, and they still know me by my trans guy name.
I went back to work there summer 2020 after I was detransed for a while and it was miserable. They seemed pissed off that they “had to” call me a guys name and no one knew what pronouns to use so they never talked about me. No one ever wanted to make conversation with me even if I tried to talk to them. I’d literally get one word answers. I could tell just by their looks that they thought I was so fucking weird.
Apparently they always talk about my bf and how much they miss him, how cool and funny he was, and they always ask his sister who works there about him. I have no clue what they say about me but ik it’s not good (too scared to ask the sister cuz ik it would hurt me). I’m so mad at myself for confusing everyone and being even more hated.