everlasting loneliness

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Saddam Hussain Obama

Saddam Hussain Obama

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im normally trolling but i want to open up with something heartfelt about me for most of my life ive had a horrible feeling of loneliness ive had many days where im scared to be alone with my thoughts scared that im left out and its really stuck with me my whole life i remember i would have panic attacks and would be reminded of this loneliness i had what i may decribe as a headache but it was like a cloud over me every day i felt loneley its prettey surreral you can only know what it was like intill you felt it then one day i prayed and i saw a golden light and that loneliness went away people will call me a liar but it actually happened

fast foward and i had the same feelings of loneliness i would often cry and fear that i would die alone even today i fear that im alone when i see a youtube video has a certain number of views under 1 million i fear im alone when i watched certain sports i feared i was alone like im the only person watching ping pong its like something that always has stuck with me another example being my constant need for attention online because if i don't get attention i will be alone and die alone this feeling of fear and loneliness has always stuck with me and i don't know how to ever get rid of it

does anyone know what i could do or change

ps don't bully me for my grammer
 
Log off, go outside, make friends. Build a rich enough social network that you're able to always get in touch with someone and get together anytime you want, otherwise you'll always have that nagging feeling of abandonment.
When you're alone, do something productive, don't just consume internet media slop as a hobby.
 
What's wrong with being alone? There's nothing to be afraid of.

Everyone dies alone. People who are engaged almost never die together. When you're alone on your deathbed the only peace you can make is with yourself. Let yourself feel lonely, don't repress it. It's ok to be lonely sometimes.

And get the fuck off the internet, faggot.
 
WE'RE ALL GONNA dijo:
What's wrong with being alone? There's nothing to be afraid of.

Everyone dies alone. People who are engaged almost never die together. When you're alone on your deathbed the only peace you can make is with yourself. Let yourself feel lonely, don't repress it. It's ok to be lonely sometimes.
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That's good advice to a member of a social species.
 
Saddam Hussain Obama dijo:
for most of my life ive had a horrible feeling of loneliness
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I used to have a recurring dream about this. I'd wake up in tthe middle of the night. Pitch black, but clear sky outside, no moon but from the window or doorway I could see the stars all the way deep out into space.

Went to turn on the lights - no power.
Got a flashlight - dead, no batteries.
Found a candle, no matches.

I'd go outside, walk down the sidewalk - all my neighbor's apartments, abandoned, the doors hanging open, wind blowing in and out. Walk out on the street, cold cars sitting everywhere, nobody in them. Walk a mile or two to the freeway entrance ramp, walk up onto the freeway - cars everywhere, doors hanging open, dead, nobody in them. And pitch black night as far as the eye could see, with the night sky full of glittering stars overhead. And somehow I knew I'd never see daylight again - the night was permanent.

Not a soul to be found anywhere. No one left on earth but me. Eternal night, forever.

It sounds like you have undealt trauma, anxiety and probably abandonment issues. Find some people to talk to - friends, family, a good professional. If you can, get a pet. I have cats. It makes a huge difference. You're never alone if you have cats.
 
WE'RE ALL GONNA dijo:
It is. If you can't cope with being alone then you're torturing yourself.
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There's a difference between being alone and being lonely. You can be in a conversation with someone sitting next to you and still feel lonely because you can't connect with them. You can be alone in a room and not feel lonely because you're chatting with some e-thot on discord.
 
Billy Bob Dick dijo:
yeah, well - God hates me, so there's that
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First, you can't speak for God, so you can't say he hates you. Secondly, blaming God for the turmoil in your life is misdirecting your suffering. Lastly, God has an infinite amount of forgiveness so if you actually want to fix your relationship with God it is entirely possible. The only thing stopping you is not wanting it. Satan is very good at tricking people into thinking worldly vices are sufficient in filling the void in your soul.

oki religious sperg over
 
Ozul dijo:
First, you can't speak for God, so you can't say he hates you.
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I can claim that God has appeared to me personally in a burnt Pop Tart and has spoken to me directly saying, quote, "You. Yes you, with the Pop Tart there. I am the Almighty, Ruler of Heaven and Earth and every goddamn thing in between, and I hate your guts, you fucking faggot." How are you going to disprove me?
 
Wait until you are older. Your circle just keeps getting smaller because your remaining friends have changed, or had kids, or DIED, or whatever.

"The world has turned and left me here..."

Better get used to loneliness and find a way to entertain yourself, it's only downhill from here.
 
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