Karlyn's comments about Big Tech: Get ready!
This is a cope stream/vieled threat stream/bash Kieran stream/accuse BT of being mentally ill and get my supporter to back me up stream/cry about being a victim stream
*Gives everyone a 30 second warning to tell Big Tech that she's streaming about him.* "Go tell him I'm about to talk about him."
(Paraphrasing):
"Actually, this isn't about Big Tech. I like to give sage life advice on this channel. I want to talk about the idea of forgiveness. Big Tech will say this is about him because he likes to think everything is about him...but actually this is about, like, ideas I have about life. I am using him because he uses everyone else around him as puppets to illustrate larger life lessons. Yeah, I said I wasn't going to do this, but he doesn't follow any ethical guideline EITHER. (she said EITHER)..so why should I? Why should I? I sent Big Tech this message and I knew he was going to blast it all over his stream because that's entirely predictable (she reads the message). The reason I sent this to him was because after he and I started beefing publicly I had a few of them who gave me kind of access to these files that they keep on him. Because one of the things we have in common is that we have these people on the internet who live to hate us and document us and go through every aspect of our lives and find private things to use against us and we had that in common and I felt endeared to him because that happens to me on a much larger scale than he does.
People reached out to me and gave me access to discords and details and files about him and yes I know some of it came from Kiwifarms, but I don't go on Kiwifarms so I knew some of it existed but I wasn't going to go and look for it. So last night I was looking through some of the files that they have on him and it was everything. It was stuff he's done in his past and his family and his kids and property that I don't know if he owns it or someone else owns it and the thing that got to me was that they have made all these memes about him that are just horrible and really awful things to do and yanno I know that they gave me access to all of this information because they want me to use it against him. They want me to cause all sorts of problems in the way he's done to me in the past several days but I couldn't do it because um...(starts pretending to cry)...I know those types of files exist on me and I know that where he's gotten a lot of the stuff that he's tried to use to embarrass me I know that he's gotten those same type of files and believe me after some of the things that he's said about me it was really tempting to try to drag him but I just couldn't do it and after I looked at those files I just thought (starts fake crying) no one deserves to have this done to them. No one. (stops fake crying and laughs)
You know and it's not like me and him are the only people on the internet everyone has these things you know I have a substack about Nick and I and I have fifteen articles on it and it's supposed to be a kind of love story and a kitschy way to talk about what people go through on the internet and it's not about Nick and it's not about me, it's about what happens to people when you exist on the internet and this is all frankly shocking and toxic so when I was going through this dossier that they gave me and this twisted stuff I started to feel bad and that's when I wrote this message because I don't want to be dragged into being this kind of person and it doesn't really matter what he's said or done about me I just want to forgive and I never want to be in a position of having to carry around that type of anger. I really did get very sad about it and when I watched his show and it's the first time I've ever watched what he said about me... and I'm not going to watch his show and what he's making obviously just to try to hurt me.
But I knew that this would get back to him and he would talk about it and he seems to think that the reason I sent this is because I was asking for forgiveness, but I did this because it was about me forgiving him. This isn't a decision that necessitates him doing anything but the reason we forgive people is not because of them, the reason we forgive people is for ourselves and I don't want..I have seen so many people get sucked into the most toxic places on the internet and it destroys their ability to talk to other people and I never want to be that person (starts fake crying) and so I decided to forgive him and that's when I sent this message and he thinks it's about me asking for forgiveness but that's not what I intended. I knew when I sent it he was going to pull it up on his screen and make fun of it, but the message is that you shouldn't let fear of what other people are going to do make you stop releasing yourself of a burden...blah blah....blah blah...it's important for people to know that it's easy to get sucked into toxic subcultures and he has so that's why he reacted the way he did to me. It didn't even matter that it was me. He would have done this to anyone.
He just believes that this is normal and he has to be this way. When he brought this up, his audience thinks I feel bad and regret my actions. She wants you back! But you know I don't regret how I behaved in this. I think that I navigated this situation as well as I could have navigated it. And as for "Do I want him back"...I don't think that could ever work because we're not at a point where I don't trust him he doesn't trust me, I don't think that will change and the thing is now I have heard all of the things he really thought of me and I think that intellectually I always knew what he thought of me ... it's not like I'm dumb. I knew what he thought of me but hearing him say it over and over and over...(kinda actually cries)...in the way that he did...I can't ever unhear that and I feel like I really tried to play it straight it's not like I wasn't aware of his past for years...and I'm not going to say because I could talk about all that and his lack of hair and I could have done to him what he did to me but I actually feel like that's not appropriate and if there's anything that I'm really proud of it's that I really feel like (cries)I was able to hold it together and not respond with anger and honestly I never thought that I was going to release those dm's that was a last resort, I never wanted to do that (starts crying...talks about how she didn't mean to get emotional but she will talk about why in a moment)
I never wanted to release the dm's actually this does kind of go to why I'm emotional because there's a mourning process that I think you go through when you lose someone that you've been talking to and I wasn't romantically in love with him but we were talking a lot and he had and impact on me and I'd also suffer like this if BOT (the psycho follower) went away or if Reagan went away or if Cyn went away. (names others in her community). There have been people in my community who have left, I lost a lot after Oct 7, a couple older people went away and I found it really hurtful and I feel like I'm mourning in a similar way because there were conversations with him that I did enjoy and I think he has multiple personality disorder and that he has something wrong mentally, I don't say that as any kind of own I'm glad "everyday therapist" is here because they have experience with clinical and I want to describe what happened with Big tech...there were two sides of him, two different energies, you guys know I'm very sensitive to energy.
There were two sides to Big Tech that I was dealing with. One had sweet, gentle kind energy and it was nice to talk to that person. That's the one that I liked that I had spiritual discussions with that started to red pill me (gives examples)...that was the version of him that I liked, when that person was around I really enjoyed it but what would happen 4-5 times in the course of knowing him and then I would wake up one day and the wall would come down and that other person that was cold, angry, schoolyard bully ...BOOM...I did not like the schoolyard bully would come out and then I would disengage, there would be weeks I didn't interact with him because I did not like that energy but then that nice one would come back and I'd interact and then BOOM schoolyard bully...then two weeks later the nice one and I was cool with it and accepted that it was just a cycle but during century of the self after week 2 BOOM wall comes down but we planned week 3 and I could not disengage, but a totally different person showed up. That's the epic mind fuck of the whole thing. If I lost BOT or someone or one of my real friends I would mourn those losses but the mind fuck of this is did the version of BT that I liked even exist. So "everyday therapist" does this sound like disassociative disorder? "
"That's the other thing there was memory lapses and maybe it was the weed and I'm really not trying to diagnose him with mental illness over the internet, I'm working through some feelings. The other thing that was weird, the schoolyard bully wouldn't know some of the things that the other him would talk to me about. There were like memory loss. So that's the other reason I think that might be the case, but if it is that's not something to make fun of or do an own on the internet..."
"Yeah...see...that's...but getting back to why I released the dm's. We were sitting on that call where he was berating me and you guys have listened to that call and it wasn't just because I was tired, I decided to release them because he was calling me fat and his audience seems to think I have special camera angles that make me seem less fat...they want me to wear tighter shirts so you can evaluate the size of my boobs and my tummy...anyway as he was sitting there calling me fat and digging through the dossiers that his audience created for me and insulting me in every way I went did the nice version of him ever exist and would I ever interact with him again and the answer is no and I can never unhear what he's been screaming at me for an hour and what was best for me was to make it absolutely clear that my grievance was that he tried to gaslight me about the groypers and not because he wanted a break. I had no problem with that. I had a problem with his lack of acknowledgement that he was trying to sabotage my relationship with my new friends and I had a really good time with and it didn't have anything to do with him and I felt that the only way I could make that clear was to show those dm's and I didn't want to do it but I was at the point where I can never unhear this and that nice version is never coming back. Cries.
What can you do but protect yourself? I don't think that people should be gaslit to believe that protecting their interests makes them a bad person. So that's what I want to say about that. It is my hope that he is able to move on and I don't know if that's going to happen everyone tells me he's going to keep making content about me anyway. This isn't the first time I have triggered someone like this to become obsessed with making content about me. I wonder if he's going to connect with Kieran. For those who don't know Kieran is a boy who confessed to me twice that he was in love with me on an unrecorded zoom call three years ago and was told that I cared about him but I wasn't leaving my husband for him.
And he started saying things on the internet. He's the one who doxed Aaron I know that Kieran knows about this because Kieran stalks everything I do in order to make my life miserable, but the only ally that Kieran has left is Deb...Kieran has lost all his friends because of this and no one watches him even when he streams with Deb and Deb is a Jew and Deb is a zionist and she really hates everyone who is anti zionist and if you think Deb hates me, Deb is really going to hate Big Tech. Can you imagine Deb's reaction to Kieran interacting with an actual white supremacist who hates Jews? So I wonder if they will make streams about me because Kieran's still bitter about me three years later, but if he does he will lose contact with Deb."
"I don't think he will anyway that's all I want to say I was working out feelings and I think it's important to talk about things like this. I've forgiven him I did a whole cord cutting ceremony and everything and I hope that he really is not the schoolyard bully. I hope he works out his issues some day."
Let's translate this Karlynese into normal English:
I'm going to pretend I did not have feelings for this guy. I'm actually hurt because he called me fat and told me what he really thought of me, but that cannot be the case. He has split personalities and one of them loves me secretly and the other one has trauma issues. I'm going to talk about all of this damaging information I have about him and pretend that I'm not saying it because I am the bigger person. I don't have any secret dossier about him. I've just read about him on Kiwifarms, but I'm going to try to scare him into not responding by pretending the groypers gave me all his top secret dirt. I'm going to use my community member who is an actual clinician to try to get him diagnosed based on these lies I made up about how I sometimes didn't talk to him for weeks. I hope he doesn't compare notes with Kieran. If he does I'm going to tell Deb that Kieran is getting cozy with an actual Jew hater. I'm going to fake cry pretending to be the sensitive person and victim but the only time my tears are real is when I'm talking about how much BT telling me I'm fat made me feel.
The actual nerve of this cunt trying to pretend she won't share damaging information after she tried to tell everyone that his big secret that he would be upset if people knew was that he is suicidal. Please.
