Do You Have an Internal Monologue?

[Your Weird Fetish]

Since there's lots of talk of verbalizing/visualizing:
When you write, do you hear or see the words in your mind?

Hear.

 

[Exigent Circumcisions]

Something I just remembered and didn't think to add earlier is that I can remember being pre-verbal, or still in the learning stages of speaking fluently. Different colours, objects and shapes had their own distinct tones to them; I remember walking in the backyard and hearing the tones change as I looked around. I was quite fond of the sound of blueberry bushes and rhubarb. One of the first things I remember asking myself once I'd attained language was: "What language did I speak before this one?"

I guess I just assumed that I'd learned to translate my innate tonal language into English, which seems like a reasonable assumption for a four/five year old to make.

 

[FuckedUp]

I have a monologue in a probably unusual way: I don't think from the monologue, it's just a side-effect of me thinking. It's like a bunch of random snippets of speech as I'm quickly thinking through things.

I imagine TV shows that don't exist all the time. One of the most memorable ones was from when I was sixteen: I was listening to the first NiN album, specifically "Down In It", while thinking of Renaissance Italy for whatever reason, and I suddenly started "seeing" in realtime the intro to an animated series set in Italy at the turn of the 16th century. It had a distinct art style that was basically a fusion of '80s-'90s Saturday morning cartoons and Regular Show; I just "saw" historical figures like Leonardo da Vinci and Michelangelo down to the facial features perfectly transcribed in the art style, entirely extrapolated from what my brain knew based off paintings and what those features should look like in that fictional cartoon. I spent several months thinking of new episodes, all fully animated complete with switching camera angles and unique voices, whenever I was bored.

Also, visualizing helps a ton with geometry problems.

 

[Recoil]

"What language did I speak before this one?"

If you can find that language and remember how to speak it again, you can use apply its universality to the production of art & music. It's really good for that, as it often transcends culture.

 

[Your Weird Fetish]

Something I just remembered and didn't think to add earlier is that I can remember being pre-verbal, or still in the learning stages of speaking fluently. Different colours, objects and shapes had their own distinct tones to them; I remember walking in the backyard and hearing the tones change as I looked around. I was quite fond of the sound of blueberry bushes and rhubarb. One of the first things I remember asking myself once I'd attained language was: "What language did I speak before this one?"

I guess I just assumed that I'd learned to translate my innate tonal language into English, which seems like a reasonable assumption for a four/five year old to make.

That's synesthesia.

 

[Exigent Circumcisions]

That's synesthesia.

True enough.

 

[no_mad_johnny]

My thought process is mostly textual...sort of. It's a dialogue in the sense that I reply (sometimes verbally) to my own thoughts but I don't really hear any voice inside my head.

Because it's a constant thing I like to pretend that my inner narrator is my conscience and I usually treat it as its own entity. Sounds a bit schizo but it's all for fun.

Spoiler: minor powerlevel

It has gotten a bit quieter since I took OCD meds though. Now I can sort of turn it on and off at will.

 

[AmarettoPie]

Spoiler: Spergery

Me: "Wait, so it's NOT just me? I'm NOT crazy?"
OtherMe: "I told you, you stupid fuck!"
OtherOtherMe: "No, you're definitely still crazy."
OtherMe: "Nah, see, it's normal!"
Me: "Why does everyone always look at me like I'm nuts when I try to explain it?"
OtherOtherMe: "Because they have internal monologues; you have internal arguments."
Me: ". . ."
OtherMe: ". . ."
Me: "...Yeah, I'm probably a little crazy."

So now I have to ask: Does anyone else have multiple 'inner voices', always in opposition of each other? Or have I always been crazy? I'd call them 'Id' and 'Superego', but it's more of a cynic versus optimist deal.

 

[Guts Gets Some]

Is it weird I have monologues inside AND outside?

I feel like I can't get my thoughts fully cemented until I verbally speak them, for some reason.