Do you ever mourn your "dream self"? - And i dont mean some superstition versions of yourself. I mean literally dreams.

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I mourn my innocence (no I wasn't raped)
99% of my dreams involve my family and I going on vacation to different areas like we used to do as a family. They stopped around the time I became a teenager since my folks got divorced. Ever since then that's what most of my dreams have been about.
 
Yea, and it's happened a lot lately.
 
Nope. I'm but a simple wook, and I have simple dreams. To be able bodied enough to fish my local river for free food, and have a decent enough job where I can afford to go to a few music fests a summer. I don't need anything more than that, I'm quite fulfilled with my life. I'll do it til I die in the medical tent at Bonnaroo or by slipping into the river just a bit too close to the lowboy dam, and I will die happy.
 
I have night terrors, so dreaming is a precarious state for me. I mean, I do have good dreams, sometimes very good dreams, and indeed, sleeping is one of my favourite things to to do. But I really don't want the neighbours to lose their shit again just because I was a little louder than usual. Given a choice, I'd rather not dream at all.
 
I'm still confused since there seems to be two deviating purposes to this thread:
A) literal "asleep at night" type dreams:
Obsession with dreams is for the miserable and neurotic, the more crippled you feel the more you'll invest yourself in dreams, since it's only in the physical silence of sleep that one's mind isn't restrained. I think if a person can work their health out to a point where being awake doesn't feel like such a burden they'll be less inclined to put so much stock in their dreams. Not that they'll have everything they want, but rather that their mind will feel freer in waking hours. Also talking about dreams is dumb and for femoids.

B) figurative "things you hoped you'd be" dreams:
Not really, nobody could've ever guessed where we'd be right now. A lot of people have had it a lot worse, a person would have to be a bit of a faggot to be like "I know the world is going down the tubes and all, but I didn't get to become a marine biologist and play with dolphins all day; clearly that's the real tragedy here".

I had a dream yesterday that I was straight - I kinda mourn the loss of that.
We've mostly stopped beating gay people these days but I really think we should bring it back. Not for being gay I mean, but because you people are exasperating.
 
I had a dream where I was at the airport, but it kinda looked like a furniture store, with big sofas and tables and carpets everywhere. I was going to take the plane home, but I had a really pretty knife that I wanted to bring home. Two of my friends and Scott Adams (the Dilbert guy) were there with me. My friend sat in a gray sectional sofa and was playing Skyrim on a laptop. All the women in Skyrim had really beautiful asses, and there was a new DLC with a fantasy version of the 2016 US presidential election as the main quest, and Skyrim-Clinton had the hottest ass of them all. Scott Adams was going to help me smuggle the knife through the security check, and I performed a very exaggerated act where I "dropped" my knife 1 meter in front of me on to a table and shouted "HUH? WHERE IN THE WORLD COULD MY KNIFE BE?" and "searched" under the sofa. Scott Adams then grabbed the knife, and my friend laughed.

When I woke up I thought this was very silly. Why did I not just put the knife in checked luggage? Haha, silly dream logic. It wasn't before the evening, when I told someone else about the dream, that it occured to me that the 2016 USA presidential election tie-in DLC for Skyrim actually wasn't real. Which was very disappointing.
 
I've been talking and spending time with one of my old friends recently, and I've had a series of dreams which made me feel a deep connection to that part of the friend group, wake up almost expecting to see them all again. One of the girls moved away, and every once in a while she'll be a background character in my dreams down to the same mannerisms and that made me realize I miss her. I guess yes, dream me doesn't have to work and gets to spend time with people I like regularly.
 
My dreams are always some really vivid intense weird alternate universe me shit where things and places and people seem familiar to real things and places and people from life, but they're always different and dream self thinks all is normal.

Sometimes it feels real enough to make me wonder if dreams are actually a glimpse into some alternate universe or something.

or it's what happens when you smoke too much weed for years when you're younger and effectively suppress your dreams for years then stop
 
Often when i wake up i mourn a death of my dream self. I often dream of having different familes, friends i dont know/have irl or live in places i never been too, but its not limited to strangers. Many dreams include peoples from the real life so its not the rule. Those dreams are not always nice, often even they are sad or straight nightmarish and yet, when i wake up i try to cling to those dream experiences.
I "mourn" those people, those places, those things i was doing, i even feel sad about the irl people in my dreams even though they actually are real. I don't know if i make sense.

I dont really understand that, its like a very very tiny part of me died. It doesn't last long, usually up to 2-3 minutes.

If you haven't read the Dream Cycle subset of Lovecraft's stories, you need to. I think you'll feel those particular stories on an emotional level a lot of readers might not. I'd recommend starting with "Celephaïs" and "The Quest of Iranon", in that order. After that, I'd do "Silver Key" and then go from there as you please, saving "Dream Quest of Unknown Kadath" until the end, as it's the capstone of the whole group and is loaded with callbacks from the rest of them. (The wiki notes references to "Mountains of Madness" and "Charles Dexter Ward", those references are minor enough I wouldn't delay reading "Kadath" for them (especially as "Ward" is messy, being a complete, but unproofed, unedited draft that Lovecraft didn't get to finalize before his death -- still worth reading though, it just is a bit overstuffed and chaotic), and "Through the Gates of the Silver Key" is one done tandem with Lovecraft and one of his buddies and therefore has a bit different of a vibe, so I'd read it after "Kadath", if you choose to.)
 
My dreams are always very strange and seem to lean far more on the 'jumbled mess of unrelated skits and images' side of the dreamscape spectrum as opposed to ever having any kind of coherent narrative so there's never really all that much to mourn and the bits that I do remember vividly are always to strange and alien for my waking mind to relate to all that much.

That said it can still take me a good fifteen to twenty minutes to readjust to the sensibilities of the waking world after a dream if only because of how divorced from reality they tend to be.
 
If you haven't read the Dream Cycle subset of Lovecraft's stories, you need to. I think you'll feel those particular stories on an emotional level a lot of readers might not. I'd recommend starting with "Celephaïs" and "The Quest of Iranon", in that order. After that, I'd do "Silver Key" and then go from there as you please, saving "Dream Quest of Unknown Kadath" until the end, as it's the capstone of the whole group and is loaded with callbacks from the rest of them. (The wiki notes references to "Mountains of Madness" and "Charles Dexter Ward", those references are minor enough I wouldn't delay reading "Kadath" for them (especially as "Ward" is messy, being a complete, but unproofed, unedited draft that Lovecraft didn't get to finalize before his death -- still worth reading though, it just is a bit overstuffed and chaotic), and "Through the Gates of the Silver Key" is one done tandem with Lovecraft and one of his buddies and therefore has a bit different of a vibe, so I'd read it after "Kadath", if you choose to.)
I have read some known Lovecraft stories but i dont think i particularly came across one you mentioned (except mountain of madness ofc), i think i might have read Kadath (if this is the one about the desert/city one?) but not the others.

I will definitely read them now. Thank you very much for your recommendations!

The first few answers from this thread made me kinda feel like this was a really stupid thread to make, but the more i read people's answers the most interesting it gets to see how others "dream" and their attitudes to this.
 
What was it like, friend that is part of me? How did it feel as you went through realistic experiences or high-stake adventures, only for you to be stripped of your reality for you had heard the call, the alarm of a tiny electronic? When you found yourself in danger, and attempted to flee towards my consciousness by facing the train or monster infront of you? Or, perhaps, you had accidentally startled me awake because you were on a skii board, and accidentally landed a jump so shocking it jolted my legs in the real world and forced me to awaken? You will never be able to return, you will never know if you are truly you or if you are in reality, and you will never, ever remember anything of past events.
 
I have read some known Lovecraft stories but i dont think i particularly came across one you mentioned (except mountain of madness ofc), i think i might have read Kadath (if this is the one about the desert/city one?) but not the others.

I will definitely read them now. Thank you very much for your recommendations!

The first few answers from this thread made me kinda feel like this was a really stupid thread to make, but the more i read people's answers the most interesting it gets to see how others "dream" and their attitudes to this.

You're welcome, I hope you enjoy them. (I'm 99.999999% sure you will. A few of them might even make your eyes mist up a little, based off the IRL experiences you described.) And nope! I suspect you're thinking of "The Nameless City" (one of my favorites), or one of his very late stories that was similar (lost city in the Australian Outback, rather than Egypt, forgetting the name of this one, it was kind of a retread of Nameless City but not as tightly written). Kadath is a netherworld-spanning dream epic, and one of Lovecraft's few novels. You're in for a treat when you reach that one, it's criminally underrated, IMO. :heart-full:
 
The world sucks too much to just ignore the good places your mind conjures or goes to and the better visions of yourself you see there, when you do see one because most of my dreams also tend to suck.
Even just seeing my dog leaves me immensely happy every time.

It's a form of escapism, I admit it.
 
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