Dezi talks about growing up in Sikeston MO, describes it very broadly as 'a lot of people, lot of crazy things going on, didn't really feel safe'. She talks about violence and stress causing her anxiety, continues to say she's had a 'lot of trials and errors, things go wrong'. This is all super general language, but it does kind of strike me as someone who has been through legitimate trauma and isn't super excited to turn it into story-time like Boogie does for practically everything.
I think she says next that she didn't do the 'rural' dating thing, does that sound right to anyone else? 'I didn't really do like hug(?), or kissing, or hand-holding.' okay holy fuck did Boogie manage to find himself some poor naive girl. She says she can only remember having two 'friend relationship kind of thing', this relationship is starting to make more sense now. She doesn't really look like she's lying about anything here to me, I'm starting to really believe that he actually found himself a literal virgin with zero previous experience to provide any kind of context as to go what is good or healthy in an adult relationship. This would make his supposed comments to Brantley/Keem/KBaC make
perfect sense too, he literally did find himself a clueless virgin but just fudged her age down a bit further.
She was a late bloomer... honey, it's still on it's way! Before she met Boogie she was living on a family farm apparently, I wonder if
@YaBoi remembers seeing anything about this during his research but AFAIK owning a farm isn't exactly cheap. Dad isn't in the picture, so mom owns/runs the farm...? Mom didn't exactly look like a farmer to me whatsoever from the pics I remember. Anyways more confirmation that Boogie basically plucked this girl up out from the dirt and immediately moved her into his house, if her story is true then he must have looked like Brad Pitt in a suit of shining armour when he swept her up out of no-future Buttfuck MO.
Her and Boogie are both
such HUGE Pokemon fans that when asked about her stuffed animals she knows that her Lapras is one but can't name it, I guess it
is one of the original 150 after all so a ways before her time? Holy fuck she has some crazy eyes when she describes her stuffed animals as 'memories' btw. She was a fan from the Mcjuggernuggets/KBaC phase of Boogie, what a shit arc too.
Dezi says that they talked on Snapchat for 'a couple months' and then says they 'definitely took it slow' which is obviously ridiculous, she is so naive that she has no real gauge for how absurd she sounds other than what Boogie whispers in her ears. She tries to say that they talked about 'the romantic' thing but they never 'really got into it' on snapchat. That 'they waited until they were in person' and even then that they were 'still taking it slow'.
Sorry, but what the
actual fuck is going on here? It is
very clear by now that this girl moved immediately from her family home to Fayetteville to live with Boogie, there was no gap in time where she somehow managed to live on her own somewhere and also somehow date Steven in person while taking it slow. This is fucking crazy talk and a sure-sign that Boogie has started to infect her brain, because this on it's very face is ridiculous.
In no way, shape, or form did either of them take this relationship slow at ALL. Boogie has obviously managed to convince her that the way they met and got together was not only totally reasonable and acceptable, but that they were actually
even responsible about it.
He 'supports her in everything she does and everything she wants', you mean sitting around getting high playing games or watching TV and ordering junk food with him? Some people would describe that as toxic co-dependecy vs. healthy support. Dezi doesn't consider her dad more than a sperm-donor because he signed his parental rights away when she was 18 months old, talks about not having a support system in the form a father figure being difficult. She starts crying about not wanting to be alone, she hasn't loved anyone like this before, she isn't in it for the clout so people can think what they think.
She literally physically grimaces as she says 'it's not easy because I don't like seeing him stressed and I don't like seeing him troubled', this is literally only months into their relationship when everything should be on cloud 9. These are literally the
easiest days of a relationship and she is already crushed, can you imagine how much Boogie moping and raging she must have to deal with on a daily basis? Says she worries about him more than him going broke, real easy for a 20 year old who has no idea how brutal homelessness really is to say. Says she's not going to up and leave him because of money.... but I also noticed a distinct lack of anything like 'I'll get a job to help'.
LOL @ this girl saying Boogie is irreplaceable for her and she won't end up with a younger guy. Poor sweet Dezi, weren't you listening when they told you how fucked Boogie's health is? You're going to be alone in probably 5-10 years when he kicks the bucket, that is just the way it's going to go no matter how much you cry about it. She'll be a 25-30 year old widow and she really doesn't think she'll ever date again? Come the fuck on, this is starting to feel a little acted to me now. Clum asks her what makes him so special and you can literally see her have to spin up the gears for a couple seconds in her head to answer this question, and the best she's got is that he's 'caring, loving, and non-judgemental'. She sees marriage in the future for them, jesus christ this is fucking grim.
@9:23 (even thought they creatively cut around it) it's pretty obvious that Clum asks Dezi if she contributes financially. Her answer to the cut question is 'Honestly.... nothing, but I help out as much as I can.' For me this is stone-cold evidence that she is a compensated girlfriend, she is 100% some fucked up breed of sugar baby. Just because it didn't start out on seeking doesn't mean she isn't a sugar baby, and just because she doesn't have a bank account flush with cash doesn't mean that she isn't being compensated. She 'takes care of him as much as he takes care of me', it's almost like that 'taking care of' language is a major flag for financial arrangement.
She wouldn't break up with him even if he cheated on her because at the end of the day she knows he loves her, it would hurt and make her jealous but she '
would get it' and she gets that Youtubers have lots of options. She says she's very aware that Boogie has 'options' and has been told as such by another Youtuber. Sorry, what
the fuck is this shit? Boogie has less than zero options, he literally has to pay for it Dezi. This smells to me like Boogie had some shitstain youtuber tell Dezi all about how lucky she is to have scored him, and that he's swimming in pussy but has chosen her. She's experienced a lot of jealousy (in the few months they've been together...?) because it's 'very clear and aware' that he has
options, this is more real crazy talk from Dezi.
Clum puts it to her that Boogie doesn't really have any money and she kind of just looks blankly at him, which makes perfect sense to me. What in her experience would lead her to really believe that he's broke? He's moved her in and covers all of her costs, they spent the summer travelling and eating out, staying in hotels/motels, not working while he throws endless gifts at her, what about this lifestyle is exactly giving 'doesn't have money/is broke'? She doesn't really look nervous or scared about it despite claiming to be, makes me think that she's just regurgitating what she knows Boogie would want her to and serves his goals.
Oh wow, she DOES says she would get a job 'to support him' at the near end. Doesn't exactly sound super convincing to me though LOL. 'I do see myself growing old with Boogie', UHHHHHHHHH DEZI??? Is she really so stoned that she's already forgotten how fucked his health is, or so dumb that she just hasn't put it together that he is going to die and leave her alone in her late 20s/early 30s. She will get to see him grow old (briefly), but it's a physical impossibility that she will grow old with him. She's talking like she has a partner for life, someone really should lay out the math for her....
In summary I'm not exactly surprised why this didn't make the final cut as it really makes their relationship look even worse than before if that were possible.