07/07/26 Night Stream-
King's Tax: $110
Detractor Streak: 2
Double missed goal day. The same night TCG missed the goal, Phail declares that he's getting bored of the game. One or two more streams and it'll get taken out behind the shed.
Ya know. Sometimes I really wonder what's actually occuring when he's forced to confront the gap between reality and his mind.
For example, he'll beg and beg and beg all day about needing contributions because this is his job.
Great! I'll consneed that:
A) People need money.
B) People get money from performing a job.
C) Streaming, for all intents and purposes, is a job that can earn money.
I doubt anyone, including DSP, would argue against any of that. However, those very same statements begin to conflict with each other when you combine them, blinding Phil by striking directly at his cognitive dissonance.
Let's try this question:
- Phil, if people aren't giving you money to perform this job, doesn't that indicate people don't want you to perform this job?
Or this one:
- Phil, if your current job isn't making enough money to support you, why don't you consider a different job that would make enough money to support you? (Yeah. I know, I know. Purely theretical since he couldn't find another job if he wanted to.)
Where I'm trying to go is questions of that variety just don't
happen in his head. For whatever reason, Phil perceives his natural, baseline state to be a video game streamer. Which makes sense in that he found temporary success doing that at a pivotal time in his life, but it's like his brain just hit pause and never considered any other reality. Where the constant begging and streaming 10+ times a week while playing video games you hate would be a horrible enough existence to provoke change for anyone else, that just doesn't happen for him.
He clearly loves being miserable, but it's like the idea that he doesn't have to be miserable never dawns on him because he just
has to be a video game streamer for some reason. That's what I don't get because it makes no sense when he'll say things that lead to the logical conclusion of 'Maybe I should quit', but he never makes it there for whatever reason.