@Fount of BadSpeak I'm going to break Kayfabe for a moment.
You need to:
- Get serious psychological help. You are carrying around a mountain of trauma and are lashing out everywhere because of it. You might even be trying to isolate yourself from others on this site with extreme takes so you don't have to have the anxiety of trusting anyone. Go to a psychologist. A male one. Get through your problems.
- Stop posting. You are running around in a circle, creating a trench which you make deeper and deeper with each step by posting enraged every day. You need to go outside and develop new coping habits. You need to branch out and leave the cozy trench of rage. It's scary because it is unknown, but you need to leave.
I'm saying this because I think you have a horrific burden attached to you. If you refuse to get help or change, I am assuming you are the type of person to make stuff up to justify posting about your child-related sexual fantasies, because you read like that. If you did get molested by your female babysiters as a child, I'm terribly sorry, but it is also a tactic that pedos use to revise their history and jerk off to the idea they were molested. The reason I'm doubting your story now is because you seem to project it onto every female.
Go to a psychologist. Get off the internet. Or continue on this doomed path you set for yourself.