Thanks so much for all the kind words and help, the comments put me in a better headspace and I appreciate it. Went back to the doctor Friday and was told that Monday I have to go back into the operating room and get dead tissue cut out, then sewn up all the way because I’m still open for the wound vac and possibly get a skin graft. Also the reason I couldn’t get home health to come to me was because my work insurance is commercial and nowhere around me accepted my commercial insurance. Also an update on the mass on my lung, I have a PET scan the 13th of October and then go see the surgeon the 18th, they are going to biopsy it but the surgeon said he is very worried that it could be cancer so that has me pretty worried. It’s just one thing after another and I’m just so tired. I truly appreciate everyone who has been kind and helpful it truly means a lot to me I wish I could hug every single one of you. I’m actually kind of scared for my life, I’m trying to be positive but when faced with things that can cause death, it really makes you think. I just wish my mom was here. Once again thank you everyone, I wanted to update you all about everything even if it’s not really a great update. Love you guys and don’t take life or loved ones for granted.