Partially disabled, want to improve

[Brickleberry NationalPark]

First, there wasn't a need for the amount you shared. You could have kept the backstory vague or only included what was necessary.
To answer your question, is it worth exercising? Yes.
However, with the shoulder you should have a physical therapy plan. If it's surgery in the future, you likely will have preop surgery physical therapy.
While you might be limited for exercising your upper body, you can still do leg and core workouts. You don't need a gym to do basic core at home.
Don't know if the weed use is supposed to be helping with the pain but that can also be a factor for some having decreased motivation.
As for jobs, no suggestions other than something you can do that doesn't make your shoulder worse in the meantime. If that means call center or some bullshit like that, it's better than nothing.

 

[Bucephalus]

I’ve been having major depression slips where I don’t eat, I just smoke weed and don’t do anything,

Niggerweed is horrible for your mental health, your finances, and your relationships. I have never seen anyone's life be improved by the addition of recreational marijuana to it. Never do it again.

Is it worth going to the gym with my shoulders ? Do you think I should wait it out until post surgery?

If you do, only work on your lower body. If you try to do anything with your shoulders, I guarantee it will not end well for you. Don't try to "train through" an injury unless you want to make it worse.

I would advise you to take it easy for the next five months until you're ready for surgery. The last thing you want to do is trip up right before the finish line and have to start over.

 

[Tom Malvoro Riddle]

man this is a bad idea, people in here are simply not kind like that, i am very sorry but that is how it is

 

[Flea Man Marbles]

lurk moar faggot

 

[Bloitzhole]

Do not exercise that arm based on some Internet person's input until the surgery happened, then listen to the doc and/or physical therapist and follow their advice precisely and consistently. The latter matters. Do not stop rehabilitative exercises/stretches you were asked to do for X months after a week just because it feels better. Stick to what you are told to do.

In the meantime, since you have 5 months, pursue a half marathon.
Go for a run. Run as fast as you can for 10 minutes. Build up speed, once you have a decent speed, attempt to build time (ie maintaining that speed over a longer distance without breaks). Buy decent shoes with strong dampening if you run on asphalt.

Also share more intimate details of your life here during downtime so we can have a laugh.

 

[Sneaky lurker]

I do not understand seizures. Why flashing lights make you crash?

 

[The Skeksis Emperor]

Do you think I should wait it out until post surgery?

Yes. You seem to have a problem with over-doing things physically and pushing through pain. Don't do that, ask advice from your doctor and/or physical therapist and follow that to the letter. After surgery, do the same. If you go and dick around in a gym now, you're just going to hurt yourself more.

In the meanwhile, develop something to do that isn't too straining physically. Do you have access to a garden? Start gardening. Or learn to cook or bake, learn to make or refurbish furniture, sculpt stone and wood, tailor clothes, paint, whatever. Understandably, you don't want to sit around and do fuck all for months on end, so pick up a new hobby you can put significant time into. Learning something new helps tremendously with depression. You could start a new career if you choose well.

Also definitely post pics of your muscular body and also face thanks.

 

[Dollar Store Crack Whore]

You can obviously type, so why the FUCK aren't you grifting on the internet? Sell 'spells' on Etsy, manage 30 troon accounts on twitter begging for money, create a Hindi website and promise US citizenship for crypto, sell 'self-help/life coaching' on zoom meetings for retarded women who don't know you're a bum, tie some sticks and rocks together and sell them as ancient native artifacts, make a bunch of youtube channels and post ragebait, etc.

This is why I have no sympathy. You've got plenty of opportunity right in front of you, yet you don't take it.

 

[Night Terrorist]

A few more months without exercise won't kill you. Wait until you've recovered from your surgery and then start working on your body in accordance to your doctor's advice. If you really can't handle sitting around chilling, then start jogging or running.

 

[Welfare Bum]

TMI or not, you're going to have to accept your limitations at a certain point. You've certainly tried a lot and identified what those limitations are. Cutting off your friends was a bad idea because whether you like it or not, you're likely to end up living like them, and it won't be by choice. Continuously pushing yourself physically will force you into that life whether you want to or not. You may have to accept that voluntarily before your body falls apart.

 

[peachlover669]

sneed x 12 then neck hangs till failure.

 

[Hamstirer]

sneed x 12 then neck hangs till failure.
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That would be a waste of useful rope. Doing a flip wastes nothing.

 

[Sweetpeaa]

You can obviously type, so why the FUCK aren't you grifting on the internet? Sell 'spells' on Etsy, manage 30 troon accounts on twitter begging for money, create a Hindi website and promise US citizenship for crypto, sell 'self-help/life coaching' on zoom meetings for retarded women who don't know you're a bum, tie some sticks and rocks together and sell them as ancient native artifacts, make a bunch of youtube channels and post ragebait, etc.

This is why I have no sympathy. You've got plenty of opportunity right in front of you, yet you don't take it.

That takes a cunning spirit. Not all folks have it. But yes, a hustle is good. Transcription is not too bad to do to make extra money.

 

[XYZpdq Jr.]

on the subject of disabled life, signs point to me driving again if I get a suicide knob for my steering wheel
anybody have experience getting a doc to sign off on it?

 

[Mr. Anderson]

Doesn't sound like your whining. I actually think you've cultivated a very positive mindset of wanting to change. At the risk of sounding like an after school special, that's the first part.
I'd avoid any and all "workouts" involving your shoulder though without proper medical instruction. You've royally fucked it, and unfucking it will honestly probably need surgical intervention given how long you ignored it.
If what others say is true and your from the UK, go see some of that shitty free NHS healthcare. I've heard horror stories about the NHS, but at least it's free. Get that shit fixed. Now.
Otherwise, I'd recommend running or even walking. Keep yourself moving. Focus on getting your diet right. A good baseline can do wonders for mental health. Not saying it's gonna suddenly get you laid or some shit, but you'll be in a better mindset. Routine helps me keep my diet going. Doesn't have to be perfect, but don't fall into that trap of eating shitty snack foods and smoking weed all the time.
And honestly, not to sound preachy, but cut smoking anything out entirely. Your lungs are for air, not heated gases and particulates.
Good luck bro. It sounds like you're on the right path though. The hardest part is getting to a spot where you realize there's a problem, because before you do, no one can tell you how to fix it. But once you hit that point, you become receptive to others' input.