"I'm a fatally flawed, broken person. I'm not that different from my mom. I'm not that different from my dad. I've never molested anybody, I didn't beat my kids. I chose not to have kids so that I wouldn't do those things. Does that mean I'm any better than my mother? Any better than my father? Probably not. There are definitely negative things in my pile, and if that makes me not something you want to be around, don't be around me. Simple as that.
The point is that I'm portraying a false image? By saying what exactly that I'm saying right now? How am I portraying a false image? I'm literally telling you who I am! How would this be portraying a false image? I'm literally telling you who and what I am!"
On this point specifically, if someone is a pedophile, but has the restraint and self-awareness to never act on their compulsions, is that inherently a bad thing? Is that something to mock and deride? I will never argue for MAP rights, but it does seem to me that being a MAP is simply another mental illness, albeit a perverse and socially damning one.
Further, although boogie does lie about a lot of things, given his age I assume that if he
was an active danger to children he'd probably have tried something by now.
Additionally, if we take the claims about his past to be true, I can absolutely see the neurotic mind of an abused child internalize the fear of repeating their trauma even if they themselves do not harbor pedophilic tendencies. The fact that humans are capable of that
at all, and that by extension, boogie is a human that comes from the blood of two people who
are pedophilic, it's certainly possible that that alone scares the living shit out of him. If I was in his shoes, I'd probably be unbelievably confused and terrified of both humanity and myself.
From the lyrics of Prison Sex by Tool:
You're breathing so I guess you're still alive
Even if signs seem to tell me otherwise
Won't you, won't you come on a bit closer
Close enough so I can smell you
I need you to feel this
I need this to make me whole
Release in sodomy
Have you witnessed
Blood and flesh can't be trusted?
Blood and flesh can't be trusted because unfortunately, many victims in cases of sexual abuse are physically stimulated and aroused by the abuse even if their minds are utterly against the act. If I was a child in this situation, once again,
even if I wasn't pedophilic, this stimulation alone would fuck me up. I don't see why people bring up boogies gaffe/admission as if it's something to actively hold against him, as if he's some ticking timebomb ready to rape kids. He's not.
