😵‍💫 Skitzocow Stephen William Lafleur / henstepl / Thisismyrofl / Elecbullet - Schizophrenic Arsonist Who Hates Soda

I guess that's why I've struggled to grasp Florian syndrome. I don't know a perspective I could call back to regarding a dissociation of parts of the body. From what seems to make sense, the gut generates the fuel our brain needs to make apt connections, in a symphony that produces various thoughts and actions as a final product. The concept of things being isolated between various organs seems to only make sense to me in the concept of far-east religion and mediation. How the various chakra centers of your body aligns to various vital organs, from the adrenal glands, to the thyroid, to the pineal gland. How these are all separate organs with unique functions that effect different parts of the body in different ways are all part of one connected, interlocked system that flows from one end to the other and into itself.

People have thought of these visualizations of the body for millennia, if not eons, whatever chemistry we've created in the last 80 years seems only to have brought us farther from true actualization as people. And that is why my perspective demands that I mention the ancient method of meditation coupled with deep breathing and visualization, being deadly serious, listen to the wisdom of the ancients.
I understand your reservations entirely, and if you look back to where I discussed the "ups" and "downs" of the body, you'll probably see me apologizing profusely for psychobabble. I've written some things that are big-if-true such as "in severe glutamate hypofunction you can't stand to have serotonin and dopamine at the same time", at the same time that I've written little theses like "vitamin C reduces dopamine", which is itself rather underappreciated in the literature I think. But I can write for long enough that what I produce ends up sounding like psychobabble, and I hate that, and I'm sorry for it.

The most I can say is, I've identified schizophrenic "strict affect" as the inability to move the top and bottom of the face at once, which identifies neatly with a serotonin upper half and a dopamine lower half. Thus, presence of strict affect implies bad cognition. But there's another component that's factored in when I pair serotonin with acetylcholine and dopamine with adrenaline. Those are non-aberrant pairs (where adrenaline/serotonin is aberrant), and it works out neatly if acetylcholine is the upper body, and adrenaline the lower body.

If you want some affirmation, look for "adeptness malvolition" among the semi-autistic friends you have - it's the eagerness to do that which one is inept at - and see if those friends that express it have something going on in the upper half - the less relevant half - of the body.

And I wish you could have been there when I was in the ER, struggling to breathe. When I had the tightness of a fist in my chest - and then when I only proceeded so far down as my neck - there was something in my upper body, and I could point to its lower limit.
 
Happy New Year, friends. It was a year ago today that I discovered Sudafed PE de-autisticizes me.
 
It's not psychobabbly m8, it's very astute and well founded. I can understand 95% of what your saying and it all sounds like it makes perfect sense, but you may have mastered one angle to approach this problem from, the analytical angle, but that does little to help you or the peers you're concerned with, which is venerable in-of-itself.

Example, maybe being autismy isn't a BAD thing. Chris Chan has heavy autism but is world-famous and of great renown, creates unique things and has overcome incredible strife. I've known many mentally ill people that went on to be well adjusted members of society, but just like how electro-shock therapy always wore off and had to be re-applied to grind down the rough edges of one's ego in the 1950s, psychotherapy only goes so far without genuine physiological changes to one's 'normal' brain chemistry.

Chris was fine until they started taking massive amount of estrogen, then they started hallucinating really bad and their mild maladaptiove narcissism, amplified by their autism, turned into full blown delusions of grandeur and megalomania. I'm not saying you're autistic, but this is a good example of how hormones, highly influenced by micro-plastic in our water and food, play into mental illness, and how even if the equation is unbalanced beforehand, a quick diagnosis based on feelings and what a doctor is wanting to huck often times leads to bigger problems than no outside help at all. Which leads me to another point of ensuring you get genuine help, instead of someone who's just punching a card or some sick maniac who thinks there's a drug to balance every child's wandering thoughts.

I think you're highly capable, if you study more about cholinergic, other drugs, body chemistry, keep up that good study and you'll be more and more aware of your own problems, and then, once you've removed that plank from your eye, you can work on gently and accurately scraping the dust mote from your neighbor's eye.

Also Happy New Year!!
 
@henstepl What does your overall medication/supplementation regimine look like right now?
You mentioned serine and phenylephrine, but in what doses and at what frequency?
I am curious.
I'm forever experimenting, and part of that is acknowledging that if I can get by on fewer pills, then that's better. Serine is about a teaspoon, twice a day; phenylephrine I don't need at all because after the void I de-autisticize anyway rather quickly.

But my Type A days are: glycopyrrolate (choline--), serine (NMDA glutamate++), tyrosine (dopamine/adrenaline++). Pass through the void - autisticize and de-autisticize - and then I no longer have to reduce choline. Before I was using serine, I needed tianeptine to reduce serotonin all day. Now the only drawback of no tianeptine is the nightly psychopathy.

Type B days: guanfacine (adrenaline--), vitamin C (dopamine--), fluvoxamine (serotonin++), choline. Pass through the void, and then I no longer have to reduce adrenaline. Interestingly, a small dopamine conference now confines me to the type B region, and if that dopamine surpasses my serotonin, a Haldol keeps it in check agreeably.

My type B days don't really need serine or glutamate supplementation. It's Type A that gets the wrongness of mind caused by conference of serotonin.

And infuriatingly, if the "void" can be described as a "false sleep" of adrenaline or choline, on my B days I tend to go into a "true sleep", which is hours of incapacitation, before the void which I nonetheless have to pass anyway. I'm frantically searching for ways to resolve this. It infringes on my time to read books.
 
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Chris was fine until they started taking massive amount of estrogen, then they started hallucinating really bad and their mild maladaptiove narcissism, amplified by their autism, turned into full blown delusions of grandeur and megalomania. I'm not saying you're autistic, but this is a good example of how hormones, highly influenced by micro-plastic in our water and food, play into mental illness, and how even if the equation is unbalanced beforehand, a quick diagnosis based on feelings and what a doctor is wanting to huck often times leads to bigger problems than no outside help at all. Which leads me to another point of ensuring you get genuine help, instead of someone who's just punching a card or some sick maniac who thinks there's a drug to balance every child's wandering thoughts.

So, you unironically believe that the chemicals in the water turn the frogs gay?
 
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I think I drink too many bottled waters to sign on totally to your beliefs, but thanks for keeping the thread alive. I've certainly found the hangover state, at least, to be almost superhuman in ability (and isn't hangover pain immunity a superpower in itself?)

A name I came up with for the constraint Type A is subject to, when it can't watch The Office: it's in ego thrust (the opposite of ego death). The subsumption of everything that isn't ego by ego. It sounds cool but it's not something you want all the time.
 
Happy New Year, @henstepl . How's the schizophrenia going?
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It's okay. G- is hell, but I have learned that theanine allows me to autisticize and de-autisticize early. Theanine is a weak AMPA antagonist, so I'm going to try to get a strong AMPA reducer (perampanine) and pay out the ass for it, just for some relief and to have something I can take at night.

I would portray my mind as an elastic between two extremes A and B. Going from G+ to G- reduces the mass of elastic material in between, so there is a greater tension manifesting as dopeyness and inverse anxiety (fear of teddies). But in the middle of each day, after painfully many hours, the elastic breaks and I gravitate towards A or B with much higher intelligence (this is G*, or I've recently taken to calling it GQ). I've struggled with mornings ever since I was a kid, and I wonder if this difficulty is common among Florians.

I've previously written a challenge for psychiatry: take the four neurotransmitters adrenaline, dopamine, serotonin, and choline, and pick any two to dominate and name the corresponding mental disorder. I've thought I've done well to describe psychopathy, old Asperger syndrome, new Asperger syndrome, true autism, and bipolar mania (or at least one of the "too-much" disorders). But I haven't been totally comfortable with my answer for "adrenaline and choline" just yet.

On a day that I was Type A, though, I had an idea to call it "cubism": the smallness of mind compared with overwhelming largeness of the body. As with the movement in art, it is "reducing [the body] to geometric schemas, to cubes". True autists are serotonin/dopamine, mind over body: they can be capable of almost superhuman flailings of rage, in their wisping emulation of their lacking cubist basis of form. Cubists themselves respond to adept assailants by shriveling and shrinking in defeat.

Before my daily autisticization and de-autisticization, I can't take antipsychotics, or I'll have akathisiac wrongness of body. If there is such a thing as cubism, my G- hell is what resembles it.
 
(fear of teddies)

Teddies are women, right? Why are you afraid of them?

Doubleposting, but I dug out my copy of Paul Schrieber's Memoirs of My Nervous Illness. He tried his best to keep to Poe's edict, that should you ever be drowned or hung, be sure and make a note of your sensations. Some of his thoughts seem to run parallel to yours, but you lack the irritability and anger of most schizophrenics.

Do you have hallucinations or delusions? I think you mentioned once that you are free of those and it seems like you are, other than the delusion that you can diagnose and treat yourself, which is a forlorn hope.
 
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