Regarding the current situation
I haven’t really spoken to Akemi for a long time, honestly, not since I chose to leave Vtard. Aside from a few brief exchanges here and there, most of the times I messaged her were to relay information I thought would help keep our servers safe while all the intrusion issues were happening.
I think everyone has noticed the change in Akemi recently. Personally, I don’t really care, like I said, we weren’t close, and I’ve always believed in free speech. But that doesn’t mean I have to like what someone is doing. I’m referring to certain behavior I’ll get into shortly.
I was never planning to say anything; it’s not up to me what someone else chooses to do. My plan was just quietly to fade into the background and move on. So when I saw that Akemi had made a post in her Discord about cutting ties with all ex-Vtard members, I thought, “Awesome. I can leave, and she’ll be happy too.” Maybe my presence was stressful if she felt the need to say that to her followers.
That’s why I never talked to her about any of this- I didn’t feel the need to. It seemed simple: you want me gone, and I want to go.
Now, you can interpret this conversation however you want, but I interpreted it as her not wanting to associate with any ex-members. When DotHacker asked, “So we should basically avoid all previous Vtards that aren’t you?” Akemi replied, “Yes.” The sentiment, at least to me, was pretty clear.
There were a lot of things happening in the background between Saturn and Akemi that I’d love to get into, but it’s not my place to speak on Saturn’s experiences- I’ll let her decide if she wants to address it. I will say I learned about some things that made me really upset and angry for Saturn, someone who genuinely thought Akemi was her best friend. Akemi would even refer to Saturn as her best friend. I also was informed that Akemi had been talking behind me and Saturn’s backs for months.
Some of the behavior (aside from the drastic change from Christian woman™ to gooner loli pipeline, which I just rolled my eyes at) involved doxxing. We had just agreed as a group to remove a certain follower from all our communities for threatening to dox another VTuber. And now, this past week, Akemi herself has been posting Shiro’s dox around, twitter and her server and making fun of her. This was surprising, considering we were all doxxed before and Akemi knows how upsetting that is. I found this behavior hypocritical and concerning. Just like we found that community member’s threat to dox someone worrying, I found Akemi’s actions equally worrying.
The second incident that really cemented my decision not to associate with her was when she and three other members of her community went into Saturn’s server- specifically into a voice chat with one of Saturn’s followers- and harassed him. I found that incredibly rude and disrespectful, not only to the person they were harassing but also to Saturn. Why would you go into your “best friend’s” server and do that?When asked about it, Akemi replied that she “can’t control what her followers do,” as if she wasn’t there and participating. Some of the harassment from one of her server members included comments like “pedophilia is awesome,” meant to provoke Saturn’s follower. Absolutely abhorrent, in my opinion.
Now I’ll get into Akemi’s announcement and respond point by point to her claims.
- I was in a call with Saturn and two other people. I know who informed Akemi about what was said, and I don’t think they did it maliciously- I actually believe they were trying to help to some degree. But I also believe things were taken out of context or twisted.,
- Most of that call was Saturn being upset- about how hard she tried to help Akemi and be her friend, and how hurt she was that things turned out this way. We talked about how Akemi brings a lot of issues onto herself, doesn’t listen to advice, twists people’s words, and plays the victim. It’s hard to watch someone set themselves on fire. The person who later told Akemi about the call even agreed with us on some points.,
- Akemi said, “I cannot in good faith recommend their content or them as VTubers/people,” supposedly in response to what she heard about that call. But the conversation in her Discord about avoiding all ex-Vtard members happened before she had that information. Interesting, right?,
- As for her saying I think Rattrick, Rice, and Near are “crazy and evil”- I don’t think about them at all, really. I barely know them and have never said anything about them anywhere, at any time. One of them even agreed with me on that and was confused to see Akemi saying otherwise. I have no idea what “crime statistics” conversation she’s referring to. I barely talked to Akemi at all- I’ve maybe been in her VC once or twice since the start of Vtard.,
- I’ve never said anything about Near having influence; I didn’t even realize Near did art. The only time I ever interacted with him was when we played Left 4 Dead once, and we barely talked because he uses TTS and he can’t really use TTS and play at the same time.,
- I never claimed to be Akemi’s “voice of reason,” but I do agree she’s changed a lot. That’s her choice. I just didn’t want to be around it anymore or get associated with her. I do believe Saturn genuinely tried to help her and give advice, as they often referred to each other as best friends.,
- I don’t think Elfin is a druggie, I barely know her. I was in a VC with her once (one of the few times I joined Akemi’s VC). I have, however, noticed Akemi trying to act more like Elfin lately. I’ll leave it at that. I did catch their stream together, and to be fair, they had good chemistry.,
- As for Akemi’s claim that “they got upset at me because I didn’t want them to promote themselves in my server”- I have literally never promoted myself in her server, nor have I ever even had the thought to do so. I barely even talked in her server. Occasionally, I’d search my own name to see if anyone mentioned me, and if they did, I might drop an emote reaction or briefly respond. That’s it. I never once tried to promote myself there.
- I don’t know how we’re supposedly “lying” or who we’re lying to when we never even went public about it, she’s the one who made an announcement. I wasn’t planning on saying anything at all until she started crying crocodile tears and twisting everything on twitter and in her discord. I don’t appreciate being dragged into all of this when I was barely involved.,
- I did mention in that Discord call that I thought her drunk stream was odd. Maybe she was being honest, but her actions don’t reflect her words. She says things like, “I just want to make people happy and smile,” but that doesn’t add up when you spend all day picking fights on Twitter and telling people to kill themselves or that they “deserved to get raped.” Are those things a good person says? I argue with people online all the time, but I’d never take it there. She also says, “I just want to make friends.” Saturn adored her, and she treated Saturn like garbage- especially behind the scenes. I’d like to speak more about that, but again, that’s Saturn’s story to tell. At some point, if you can’t keep any friends, maybe the common denominator is you.
Personally, I just want to be done with all of this- with Vtard and with Akemi. I wasn’t going to say anything, I didn’t want to say anything, but I can’t just sit by while someone lies about me on socials, especially when I was barely involved in any of these accusations.
How do you tell people to avoid us and cut ties- and then lose your mind and slander us when we leave?
Were we supposed to beg you to keep us around? Are you really that high on your horse? Like I said I don’t really care, I wanted to go anyway- but Saturn really did care about Akemi and tried to be her friend. She bent every which way for her and lost opportunities just to make Akemi comfortable.
It just doesn’t make any sense to me how you can be upset that you got what you wanted.Anyway, I hope this clears things up from my end. Let me know if you have any questions.
For the record, the only former Vtard member I still talk to is Saturn.
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