I actually have more questions than anything. What meds are you on, for starters? Are you on disability? Did it ever occur to you that the weird fucker who talked like a kid and liked to wear diapers might be a pedophile, and that's why he didn't let you anywhere near his computer at all? Was that a warning sign?
Do you think if you were less of a sadbrained fuckup other people might not have been groomed? If evidence comes out that Shmorky actually did physically molest someone, how are you going to sleep at night knowing that you went along with this game for years while getting high and reading weird conspiracy shit and ignoring it.
Obviously you didn't do any of this, but do you feel your continued silence contributed to any of it?